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The dream 63

Loss leaves a lot of trauma. No one can be left behind by their loved ones. Especially all his friends.

Yes, Jaemin is not willing, after all. He will not let go of all his friends. Even though he has no power. At least let yourself hope. Expecting that someday they will come to see him even if that sounds very impossible.

Is he wrong to hope? Is it wrong for Jaemin to want that?

He's not wrong. Destiny is wrong. Why should he be given this painful fate? Why should he have a chest? Why should he be the one to endure all this suffering?

Could it be that Jaemin had already committed a great sin in his old life?

Fuck that. Jaemin himself was not sure of his reincarnation. He doesn't believe in such supernatural things. But if that's true, if he was a great sinner in his past life, Jaemin wished that his soul could be forgiven.

He asked with earnestness that this suffering would be lost as soon as possible. He was not a strong human being who could withstand all these trials with a airy heart. He is just a weak creature.

"Sir Jaemin" called a middle-aged woman.

Jaemin blinked his eyes twice. Trying to get rid of all bad thoughts. His eyes focused on the object in front of him.

Jaemin awoke from his daydream. He smiled awkwardly towards the middle-aged woman who was standing beside him earlier. Ah, he had forgotten his own existence because he was too focused on exploring his own mind.

"Can I take you to the secretary's room now? You've prepared everything, haven't you?" ask the woman softly.

Jaemin nodded kindly. He let his body walk following the direction of the woman in front of him. Sometimes the young man would smile to see the building he explored.

It felt like only a few months ago that he considered this place to be a foreign place. And now he's gonna leave her.

"It must be hard for you to move schools. Considering you've only been here a few months and now you have to move again. I hope you're at home there Jaemin!"

"Thank you Mom!" reply Jaemin at once stop the second step.

Now they have arrived in front of the secretary room. A place where there is someone with the highest power in this school.

The teacher's mother who had taken Jaemin immediately left as soon as the intrusion sounded telling the young Lee to enter.

Jaemin walked slowly. Exploring the room carefully. Right in the middle there, there is Park sitting next to the files. Is he doing a lot of work? Maybe Jaemin came at the wrong time.

"Sit down Jaemin, I've been waiting for your arrival!" mr. Park's orders without turning his eyes to his important files.

Jaemin is not feeling well. He shouldn't have come and disturbed his friend's father. He looks so busy.

"I'm sorry if my arrival bothers you, sir. If today can't, I'll come another time" Jaemin said quickly.

"Ah no-no" replied Park no less quickly. His gaze now turned to look at the young man in front of him who we can realize was nervous. "Sit down Jaemin, I'm not as busy as you can see"

Jaemin finally chose to sit in front of Mr. Park who has now left a stack of his files. The man was more focused on the young Lee.

"So you came to ask for my signature for a transfer request?" ask Mr. Park to open the conversation.

Jaemin nodded slowly. His voice was too weak for him to let out.

"Is it so urgent that you want to change schools?"

Jaemin was silent for a while. This was also used by the man in front of him to further persuade Jaemin not to go.

"That event is even happening in the near future, are you-"

"A month has passed sir!" jaemin said to interrupt. He doesn't want Mr. Park to assume that everything just happened. In reality, it's all been a long time. Even the moon has changed. And Jaemin was greatly tormented in that time.

"It's over!" break up Mr. Park can no longer. He breathed slowly. His hands were tight. Not angry, he's not angry with Jaemin. He was just an emotion after being reminded of the young man about his son.

"But can't if you stay here?" pinta mr. Park. "Can't you if you don't move?" His words sounded very loud.

Jaemin lowered his head staring at the black marble floor below him. It looks beautiful inversely with its very gloomy life.

Jaemin shook his head slowly. There was a clear cut there. He then bit his lower lip as the dark memories came.

"Jaemin you.-"

"NO!" the young man shouted while sliding the chair under him. Mr. Park's hand that was outstretched immediately he turned it. He looked at the rabbit young man before him restlessly.

Seeing that the young man was tormented wanted him to be the figure of the son he had been suffering for so long. Seeing Jaemin reminded Park of the figure of Jisung who always suffered.

Mr. Park regretted making his only son suffer for the rest of his life. He regrets because he often forced Jisung to obey all his will. He regretted making his son's life unhappy. He regretted that the child he loved left him.

If only time could be replayed. Mr. Park promised that he wouldn't force Jisung to take night lessons. He promised not to force his son to obey all his will. He promised not to make his son sad. He promises not to scold Jisung and spends as much time together as he used to.

But all of that is based on the word 'if'. In reality, Mr. Park's son, Jisung, has already left. Jisung died and left many wounds in his heart.

Jaemin moved from his seat. His hands seemed trembling. Although he often found his body shaking violently, the young man still could not handle it.

"You okay, Jaemin?" ask paknPark aware of the strangeness that Jaemin showed. He intends to help Jaemin. Calm the young man's chaotic mind. But everything failed, when suddenly Jaemin chose to run away from the place.

The young man left Mr. Park with the file he had brought earlier. Jaemin just left her. While Mr. Park can only resigned to see the departure of Jaemin.

Fly, just info. After the sadistic incident ended, not only Mr. Park but almost all of his friends' parents often visited Jaemin's house. Whether it's an interest or just want to see Jaemin. They visited Jaemin's house almost every day. And that makes Jaemin uncomfortable.

If they had only come to visit Jaemin, the young man would not have refused. But some of them came to persuade Jaemin to stay with them.

"You remind us of our son Jaemin. So, you're willing to stay with us, aren't you?"

Then what about Jaemin's own parents? the answer is, of course, busy. They don't feel sad about Jeno's passing.

Almost everyone offers that. Jaemin was clearly furious. He could be likened to their dead son. They may consider Jaemin as their replacement.

Jaemin certainly refused. He's not their son. He could not be compared to them even though they were Jaemin's friends.

Jaemin has the right to refuse, right? He knew that almost every friend was an only child. So their departure was very difficult.

Therefore, for the sake of his life Jaemin decided to leave this city. He wanted to disappear from everyone he knew and forget everything. He wants to start a new life.

Jeju. That's Jaemin's destination. In addition to being far from reach, he chose that place because he and his twin had lived there for some time.

And Jaemin's decision to move was already unanimous. He'll go no matter what. Although the transfer papers were not approved. Though all his friends' parents try to get in the way. Jaemin will go.

His life is more important than everyone's wishes.

"Everything's been taken, right?" asked Jaemin's mother to accompany her son to the airport.

"Already, ma'am" said Jaemin.

"Take good, yeah! Don't eat late ! Watch out if the wayward there mom will tell grandma to come home to you" threatened Bu Lee, Jaemin's mother who happened to deliver Jaemin with very dad.

Jaemin chuckled happily. "Yes, I promise to be a obedient child" said Jaemin and left his mother and father who were silent earlier.