(Not) My Crown Ruler
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Morning, when the hour has shown at half six in the morning. The noise from the headquarters of the village youths was no longer heard. Last night he could hardly sleep because the children of the delinquents seemed to be having a feast last night. Voice's noisy. They sang all night, making Anisa a little disturbed by the noise.

The distended-bellied Muslim woman who had been up since before dawn was seen coming out of her room that was not how spacious it was. Opening the door of his room which he always locks from the inside, according to the direction of the Eagle. He intends to carry out his activities today. However,

"Astaghfirullah haladhim!!" Anisa when she saw three young men lying on the floor of the simple house. Yeah, that's the Eagle and his friend. They were stoned after a night of drinking alcohol at their headquarters next to Bik Susi's house. The door of the house is still open. Several bottles of wine were seen lying there. The eagle and Anjas were lying on the floor, while Dito was lying on his stomach on the living room couch.

Anisa walked slowly so as not to wake them up. The woman then left the house. He turned towards the headquarters. Some people also appear to be lying there. Whether sleeping or fainting, he doesn't know.

Anisa took a long breath. The woman chose to go back into the house. When passing through the living room, he saw there Bik Susi looked neat. Today is Sunday. As usual, he would worship at church before starting at Louis's apartment for work.

"Budhe, are you leaving?" ask Anisa.

Bik Susi smiled. "Yes, Son. If you are hungry eat first, gih. Budhe cooked it. Later if you need anything, you ask for help with the son of tongkrongan. They will be willing to help you" said Bik Susi.

Anisa smile. "Yes, Budhe" he answered.

Bik Susi then approached the Eagle who was still motionless on the ceramic floor. He began to wake the young man up to invite him to worship on Sunday. Although the behavior of the Eagle is not entirely true. Still like to drink and so on, but Bik Susi always tried to teach the man about his worship and religion. At least the Eagles have a grip and there is a fear of who they worship.

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Meanwhile, a few hours later in a tall building that read Davis Corp. The handsome man had just arrived at the company he was now in charge of. With firm and determined steps, the man walked towards his room which was on the top floor followed by Betrand behind him. Yes, both of them are still very professional in working despite the gaping distance.

The elevator that took them stopped on the floor where Louis' room was. The westernized man then came out of the big box, intending to go to his room to start work. But arrived...

"Sister Louis!"

The sound made Louis and Betrand turn their heads. Seen there, a beautiful woman in white hijab appears to walk closer to the two men who just arrived.

That's Natasya. The woman came to Louis' office after being ignored for a long time by the handsome man. Louis quiet. He let out a long sigh while looking calmly at Natasya.

Natasya approaches. "Sister" he told Louis. The man did not answer. The focus of his eyes was on a bag of supplies in Natasya's hands. Looks like the lady brought some more food for Louis.

"August, Brother!" greet Natasya.

Louis was silent for a moment. He then nodded while smiling faintly. "Again" he answered.

"Sister, I brought you some food for Brother. I came here to apologize, too, Brother. I. I..........."

"Em, Tasya," Louis interrupted Natasya's speech. He said as he raised his hand, as if asking the woman to stop her speech for a moment.

"We're talking inside!" louis said later.

Natasha nodded her head. "Oh, okay.." she answered later. The woman then followed Louis' footsteps, entering the room of the handsome man.

Arriving in the room, Louis invited Natasha to sit on a long sofa there. Louis then took off one button of his suit, then sat down while keeping his distance on the same sofa as Natasya.

"What's up, Tasya?" ask Louis.

Natasha was silent for a moment. "Em, here, I bring food for Brother," he said as he thrust the bag in his hand at Louis. The man smiled as necessary, then accepted it.

"Thank you, yes" he said.

Tasya smiled while looking down. He secretly stole a glance towards the handsome man. Louis tilted his head.

"She said she wanted to talk? Speak what?" tanyakanya.

Tasya. He appears to be squeezing his fingers.

"Sister is still angry with me because I nyamperin Sister's boyfriend at that time?" ask Tasya.

Louis quiet.

"Sister" said the woman. His eyes turned soft, staring sadly at Louis. The man still did not flinch.

"I like it big brother" said the woman with condense eyes. Louis is not moving. He already knew that even before Tasya revealed it.

Tasya's tears shed. "Have I not had a chance to get my brother?" tanyakanya.

"I'm the first to stick with Brother."

"Tasya, enough!" louis said firmly.

"I love you, brother!" tasya said crying.

"I know!"

"But why didn't you ever see that?! Isn't a devout woman the criteria of a big brother? But why did you choose a dirty woman over me!" said the girl with a voice that began to rise.

"Tasya, enough!!" louis was getting stern.

"She doesn't pant!!" the woman was getting hysterical.

"What do you want from me? I'll lakin! Or do you want me to open the hijab for Brother? Or should I give it all to Brother first? Let me be like Anisa? I can, really!!" said Natasya who then hurriedly moved her hand to open the cloth covering her head.

Louis glares. He was surprised by Natasha. He quickly approached the girl. He grabbed Natasya's hand, then restrained the woman's movement.

"Tasya, enough! Don't be crazy!! Why are you being a gini?!" louis said he did not think.

"I want to prove it with Brother." said Tasya with tears.

"It's not like this!!!" louis said with a voice no less high.

Tasya crying. Maybe the girl wasn't just in love with Louis. But he was also obsessed with the man. His hopes of being able to match up with that man were extremely high. Family support, as well as other factors are so on his side. Making his way to having Louis is actually very wide open.

Why does it still fail. It is precisely Anisa who arrived to come can reach Louis' heart easily.

What good is that woman? What is so special about that woman? What is his superiority over Natasya, so that Louis seems so crazy about him?

Really, Natasha is frustrated!

Louis clasped tightly onto the hand of the girl who was now crying so much. It was as if he was giving Natasha time to calm herself down. Peaceful with circumstances that apparently did not side with the woman.

Both of them were in that position for a long time. After Tasya calmed down, Louis then tried to speak kindly with him.

"Enough, Yes. Enough," Louis said in a soft voice.

"Please don't be like this. Do not be part of the class of women who are willing to lower their own self-esteem for a confession!"

"I respect you as a devout Muslim woman. As a special woman with a hijab that perfects your appearance. I know you're a good boy. Please, don't disappoint me with my judgment" said the man so slowly. Tasya is just a whim. This is the man he wants, Lord!

"Tasya, I'm sorry if I've disappointed you. I'm sorry for the stupidity and selfishness of me who prefers to seek my own happiness."

"Tasya, can't feelings be forced. I love you more than friends and sisters. I'm sorry, I can't give you more,"

Tasha was crying again. Her tears are flowing more and more. He looked up, looking at that handsome face.

"And Brother prefers the woman who comes from the pagan family? From that low-class family? Compared to me? What did you see from him?!" ask Tasya.

"The simplicity" said Louis confidently. "His nature. What he is. His tolerance. His forgiveness. His humble nature, far from being arrogant. And many more!" said Louis.

"I'm sorry, but for me all religions are good. We believe in God in different ways and beliefs. There's nothing wrong with that. All religions teach goodness. The bad thing is when a person who claims to be a religious person, but arrogantly degrades his fellow man, feels himself superior to the others, but, and it was ingrained in him that he was much better than the others!" said Louis.

"I don't like people like that!"

Tasya did not answer. Louis released his hand upon Natasya. He tidied up the woman's hijab which looked a little messy.

”I know you as a holy woman. I know you as a devout woman. You are an expensive woman. And I believe that. I'm sorry if I let you down. Keep your marwah and mahkota for your future priest, Sya. I'm sure you'll get a much better man than me. I appreciate all your effort and feelings for me. Sorry, if I can't get back. I am just an ordinary man. I can't control how you and I feel. My affection for Anisa is God who instills it. So do your feelings for me."

"If those feelings can only hurt your heart, then pray, may God remove them immediately, or anchor them to another man who is right for you" Louis said.

"Once again I'm sorry, yes. I hope you can understand. And hopefully we can still be good friends after this," concluded Louis.

Tasya. She's ashamed. She's sad. He's disappointed. The feeling he had kept for so many years now had to end in disappointment. Louis chose another woman. Tasya lost to the newcomer women who came without permission.

Really, it hurts to love without having. He doesn't know how he's after this. The perfect man was apparently too far from his reach. He was unattainable by Natasha's hand even though she already had everything.

Yes, again God's destiny and feeling overcame everything. Keep the visible close, and draw near the seemingly unattainable. Everything is based on the will of nature.