A Mate In God's Hands, Love Is Hard to Let Go
poor mila
Rudi opened the old closet there are some neatly arranged items, vision rudi stopped in a small notebook that read DAILYKU😑.
Rudi slowly opened the daily reading it with great enthusiasm. The courtyard in notya suddenly her tears fell unexpectedly, and, rudi really felt very sad for what was lived by the little girl with her small body she slammed the bones just for a mouthful of rice no relatives helped her people who loving him has gone. He flips through page after page stopping at the last 3 pages that contain the misfortune that happened because it was caused by Rudi.
xx date x month..
God, is it my fault that I could have such a bad luck like this, wasn't it enough to test me all this time? You took my father and my mother quickly by bringing my unborn sister with him to you, then my loving grandmother too quickly you took, I stayed, I stayed, I never gave up trying everything I could to survive in this cruel world.
Oh allah...
Why don't you give me a hunch that that day everything I'm defending will collapse instantly, I intend to help him because I feel sorry for him but all I get is a very unexpected reply, he took away my chastity without mercy, he insulted me without asking clearly, after he desecrated me, he threw a wad of money right in my face to make my forehead bleed, are all rich people like that? Always looking down on us who are just helpless poor people, I do need money but not in that way, my pride is really no longer anyone who wants to accept a girl who has been tarnished like me. Father I forgive your son who can not take care of himself well, my grandmother has reached the lowest point in my life what should I do??
Xx date x month...
God, what happened to me, why I felt so bad, my head is often dizzy and my stomach often hurts whether because of the incident a week ago that I can not forget this is the 8th day I did not go to work, I feel embarrassed to meet my friends, I feel ashamed to meet my friends, I wanted to calm myself down in order to feel better but why was this feeling really so unpleasant.
God it turns out I was pregnant and this child is the boy, this afternoon I ventured to buy a pregnancy test as much as 5 pieces but the results are all the same, all of them, he must be in charge I'll try to find him based on this nameplate.
Xx date x month..
O Allah, the man who desecrated me named Rudi should be a wealthy businessman who is married, what should I do if I come to hold accountable what will happen is that his wife will not accept, I can understand because I am a woman, do I have to abort him but this child is innocent but if I let him be born he will be born without a father and that will be the neighbor's talk. What am I supposed to do?
Date x month x...
God I decided to give birth to this child and will give her all my love, so that she will not feel a lack of affection, I am sure that one day there will be a man who will accept me for who I am.
Date x month x...
God, I will leave this house, will my father and mother and grandmother be angry with me? But if I don't leave this town I'll be the neighbor's talk.....
The notebook ended just like that, rudi was completely destroyed he had made a huge mistake his body was shaking his sweat was pouring more tears "arrgghhh..." he screamed desperately the driver and the locksmith rushed in and found the boss in a state of chaos.
"bos what's wrong?" the driver was very anxious to see his boss like that, did not hear the answer from his boss he called secretary Rudi.
"hello, secretary sir please come here sir boss of the department" said the man with an anxious tone.
the one across the phone was shocked "hahh.you guys where's the boss".
"at the house of the girl he investigated a few weeks ago try to get you here" the driver asked.
as soon as he hung up the phone, the secretary hurriedly left for where his boss was not long before he arrived at the place to find his boss who was very chaotic he muttered "actually what's with the boss".
he did not ask Rudi to shout with a ruffled face "budi, he has left, I am late, I have made a very big mistake, mind me very sinful" rudi's words were blocked he was unable to continue and he gave a notebook to the man "you read this in the last 3 pages and you will understand".
carefully opened the note and began to read it as soon as his eyes were wide with reflexes he shouted "bo.bo.bo.bos what have you done?" then she continued reading it and shouted again "boss...he is pregnant and has gone somewhere?".
rudi just shook his head "we have to look for him no matter how you understand" pinta rudi on his secretary.
....
then they went home to the office rudi directly to the house without finding a siska who knows where he does not care anymore, Rudi locked himself in his room with a huge guilt "if you where the hell? Why go? I'll take responsibility for not looking for me when you know who I am.
it was getting dark and Rudi had not yet come out of his room, the siska who had fun had gone home had intended to go into the clean room but the door was locked he banged and asked the waiter "did you come home".
the waiter nodded and said "yes, the lady from noon master is there but went straight into the room and has not come out until now the food does not want to be eaten".
siska simply nodded and told the waiter to leave.
"mas open the door I want to go in to clean up" he asked Rudi but there was no answer repeatedly siska cuba but no answer he decided to go to another room "huh..why the hell is it weird".
after the morning the rudi came down and had changed clothes and then went straight to the office without breakfast siska who asked was only allowed to leave. Weeks into the affair it keeps repeating siska already can not stand "mas you why the hell, lately so strange.I need your attention loh I'm pregnant with your child".
rudi just kept quiet he clenched his hand as it passed but was held back by siska "you can't go anywhere before answering my question.you why".
finally Rudi said "i'm okay, you don't have to care" rudi passed.
siska just shrugged her shoulders "yes, my groceries are still the same".
...
rudi a lot of silence has been running for a few months he always like it all has changed unless he continues to do his duties as a boss in the office after that he always comes to the house mila hope to miracle just in case mila has gone home, he also exerted all his efforts to find mila but still nil even he had asked for help alex and nita and told the incident, the couple was very surprised, the husband and wife was very surprised, alex is willing to help as well as nita he uses his connections fellow doctors in every area and city may be mila check the contents in one of the hospital acquaintances but the results are nil.
mila bak in the swallow of the earth, Rudi very desperate. It does not feel the time of siska and nita lahir has arrived which means mila will also have given birth because they are pregnant together only a month between mila and siska. Rudi is really very devastated considering his son who will be born from the mila content but somehow there is.
siska gave birth to a daughter and nita gave birth to a son along with siska in the same hospital.
...
in a remote village in the interior of Sumatra mila struggling to give birth to her child was helped by midwives in the village with all her might finally gave birth to a boy, mila smiled and cried simultaneously "welcome son, mother will give you all the affection that mother has, we will fight together yes dear" she kissed her son's forehead affectionately.
mila came to a remote village in Sumatra where she worked as a farm laborer, living with a single grandmother, the grandmother had considered him her son because the grandmother had no children until her husband died.
....
not felt 7 years passed by rudi never found mila, mila never returned to his house rudi always told people to clean the mila house with the belief that someday mila will return again. Rudi has started to accept reality but never broke up trying to find mila.
siska's son was also 7 years old who was named lala, so with the children of alex and nita already 7 years old they gave him the name bryan now nita already pregnant their second child.
that afternoon rudi was busy with his documents as usual activities, his afternoon rudi invited me to review a project in an elite district, suddenly came with a rush "boss.i..i.tu." stammeredly trying to tell his boss what he saw. budi who had been traveling around the district stopped at a restaurant and found a siska who was making out with a man then hurriedly told his boss.
budi told him about what he saw, then they headed to the restaurant to see Siska and the man who was about to leave the restaurant, Rudi told his secretary to follow their directions and arrive at a hotel, and he was, they continued to follow Siska without his knowledge, actually, during this time Rudi has collected various kinds of evidence to divorce siska because he can not stand the behavior of siska who really do not know the rules as well as the mind that has been very careless with the behavior of the mistress the boss, with passion he followed all the directions of his boss to catch wet siska perfecting the evidence that had existed so far.
then the crack of the door that was broken surprised the siska who was in a hot scene with her affair, saw the rudi and siska so very frightened and nervous "ma.mas..this is not as you see" siska tried to avoid even though it was naked with the man, the very shameless nature of it makes the mind and rudi very careless, rudi already can not stand "hey, ****** you think only this time I know you sleep with other men, I've known everything from first to last and your son who doesn't know who it is" Rudi's face flushed.
siska glared at "what do you mean mas I was never like that, it's just a baseless accusation of yours, and lala is your son wasn't that night we had sex you didn't carelessly talk, I'm an honorable woman, I'm a top artist why I did that, which you see now is just a misunderstanding" Siska really doesn't admit it she still boasted of herself arrogantly despite being caught off guard. Budi who saw Siska really had been very eager to strangle the woman to death "this woman is really shameless, and very do not know what the rules are taught by her parents" budi shook his head because he was surprised that such a woman was wrong and very arrogant.
Rudi clenched his teeth holding back his face emotion was already so red that his gaze seemed like a sword ready to kill the prey "I didn't fuck you that night, I just made you drunk, I just made you drunk, I've never touched you at all, how could it be my son, you're grateful I still love him like my own son" then rudi passed from the hotel room angrily all that was buried during this very much time to finish this.
"budi, you call my lawyer take care of everything you must understand I mean I'm very tired of all this" pinta rudi on the mind, immediately take care to do his job.
soon Rudi arrived home in followed by a siska who cried bitterly "mas you can't be like I'm your wife and lala your responsibility" in clean loudly denied. The servants did not dare to interfere they also knew the behavior of the hostess during this time and they just kept quiet, the little lala did not know what happened and just continued her activities, he said, well lala grew into a spoiled and annoying child, many servants who were overwhelmed with her arrogant nature declined from her mother.
rudi did not care about the siska complaint he just sat quietly waiting for the lawyer and the mind that would take care of everything. Soon the lawyer with the mind had come siska who saw at least had understood that he would be divorced, he said, lawyers and minds explain everything to the siska and the evidence they collect and cannot be denied once all the evidence is submitted in court there is no longer any objection and they are immediately divorced but not siska his name if you give up immediately "mas you will not be able to divorce me, the company on my behalf if we divorce the company will be mine, and I will bring lala" threatened siska.
rudi did not press the siska and only instructed "to finish everything, I want him out tonight from this residence". Without a second thought, Rudi immediately agreed. Siska was completely helpless all her efforts were in vain, the servant who saw her only shook her head "huh..in the end we will be free from the witch with her magic daughter" the other servants just nodded they knew everything and waited for their master to move and finally they were relieved the day he was waiting for had arrived.
...
siska and Rudi eventually divorced the company which in her name turned out to have changed rights without her knowledge and it was done rudi when she was drunk first who had unknowingly signed it. Although the compensation given by Rudi is quite large enough for him and his son siska still not satisfied.
when siska was alone in a cafe she was surprised to see a child who looked like the face of Rudi "who was the child why he looked so much like rudi" but it only flashed a brief glance then siska back daydreaming.
...
mila has returned to the city but not daring to go home afraid of meeting the man again, he buys a simple apartment for his residence with his son and the grandmother who takes care of him. Mila already has a little income thanks to her hard work in her village that she already has a fairly large plantation because indeed all this time she studied in the agricultural section so it is not difficult for her to start a business with farming as if god helped him with his efforts that had been only a patch of land then always increased.he had become a boss even though not too big but enough for him and his small family, he had become a boss, he decided to return because his son had gone to school, in the village education was still below average. Actually it has been 2 years he returned but did not dare to return to rum only maybe one day.
...
divorce rudi and siska take a lot of time rudi not felt already 2 months he did not go to the mila house but always told people to watch him. That afternoon, rudi and budi eat in a cafe suddenly there was a child who greeted him "hay uncle, why your face is so similar to mine...are you my father?" rudi who heard that was immediately shocked and spouted the water he drank until it hit the mind sitting in front of him, then slowly he turned to see the child followed by their minds so shocked by the child "bo.bo.bo.bos who is he?" the very confused question of gratitude was indeed the child was very similar to his boss.
rudi who saw the child instantly fell silent.
flashbacks...
mila and indra were out for a walk, when they were hungry they stopped by a restaurant "mom I'm hungry let's eat, worms in my stomach are already protesting" cubby's face grins for her mother to take her to eat and mila agrees "well little master". The two of them headed to the restaurant when they entered their senses accidentally saw Rudi and were shocked by the face of Rudi who was similar to him he was very curious but he held back his curiosity. After eating his mother went to the toilet for a while, and hurriedly senses headed towards the table and rudi.
the flash back of..
rudi was still in a state of shock and he was made aware by the little boy's question again "my uncle asked you, are you my father?".
budi who saw his boss dazed immediately realized it by kicking the slow leg of his boss who was under the table. Rudi then came to his senses and asked the boy "uh.kamu whose son and name are you?".
"my name senses my uncle son of.." he has not yet finished saying his sentence heard his mother calling from the direction of their table, budi, rudi, indra meoleh simultaneously.
indra pointed towards his mother "that's my mother uncle, her name." yet he had time to mention her mother's name rudi immediately shouted "mila" indra was startled and so was mila who heard her name on the dial turned her head immediately, instantly finding the direction of mila's voice immediately choked, her body trembling, her body, sweat began to pour out wanting it to feel he passed from that place but as if someone was holding him, mila petrified, rudi ran towards him in the afterthought that carried his senses.
"uncle, why does that uncle know my mother?" ask him innocently.
"oh.that's your dad.. You're right he's your father" answer me for what he is. Instantly the senses cheered "hore.I already have a father".
mila who saw the arrival of Rudi was really frightened. Rudi immediately hugged her "when you've been all this time, I've always been looking for you, asking you to come home, explaining everything, I want to take responsibility for you, why you're going" rudi trembled and hugged mila tightly.
mila who was in his arms was immediately shocked by his statement but was still in a state of fear "a.a.what do you mean you are married how you will be responsible, he said, me and my son have calmed down you don't bother me again I'm hard-earned don't you push anymore, and don't try to take my son. He is my son whom I have difficulty raising if you dare to act, this time I will fight with all my abilities despite the life stakes, even if possible I will kill you" mila's voice sounded vibrating and emotional but within it there was a kind of worry.
hearing mila's reply, Rudi slowly let go of her embrace and stroked mila's hair, but mila brushed her hand away and even pushed her away.
"please listen to me, please.." rudy kowtowed and rested at the foot of the mila without caring for those who were watching him, just be silent he knows what his boss has done and what he experienced.
seeing all that mila are willing to listen to whatever will be said by rudi, then they move to a place of privacy, just follow their steps while holding the senses.
rudi told me everything about his marriage and the loss that night even about the giving company he told me about. Budi helps his boss talk "what my boss says is all right if you don't believe me, just ask the people around my boss".
mila was silent, she looked at the man looking into his eyes and saw the sincerity and anguish he had suffered all this time, in her heart she whispered "his life is very difficult, I thought my suffering was so severe it turned out to be nothing compared to him, I just ran away without knowing it all" mila just stood still and stood up slowly "please give me a chance to think" he asked Rudi.
rudi agreed and mila said goodbye to go home with her senses, rudi wanted to deliver home but mila refused she wanted to organize her heart first, thinking what was best.
mila passed in the middle of the journey he turned his car towards his old house.
rudi followed the steps mila out of the restaurant, rudi and be shocked by mila who had his own car and seen from his clothes it seems like mila was good enough. But what makes Rudi curious what has happened to mila, after the mila they returned to the office in the car rudi silent but once in a while he smiled, the mind who saw it while saying " already can smile boss, it has been 8 years I did not see the boss smile again, is it relieved?" a secretary knows how the boss is.
rudi raised his eyebrows "not yet able to say relieved bud, because she is not my wife" he replied with a smile, in his heart he was determined to marry mila because since seeing the poto mila he had been in love.
the Budi who heard it could only shut up and muttered "good luck boss".
elsewhere mila had arrived at his house and there was a guard who was in front of his house and immediately gave the key to the house mila what was said rudi true he was watching the house mila during this state of the house does not change as it was left behind even very clean unlike the house that lived 8 years. Mila checked everything and found all the items still in place, she hurriedly opened the closet looking for her diary. He opened the diary to see that the diary had been connected by the intellect containing about the waiting of the soul during his struggle to find mila.
chest Mila was claustrophobic after reading it mila out to see the guard "how long have you been here?".
"this has entered the 8th year, miss, we have some people always take turns to keep this house" he replied in a polite tone.
then there was an old neighbor passing by and saw mila "ah, nak mila has come home".
mila assented and made small talk.
"their son has been watching your house all this time and there is a man who often stays here since he leaves almost every day he comes" said the aunt. Mila was stunned and excited to enter his house to serve coffee for the guard because in his house all is available because Rudi often spent the night there, mila began to ask about Rudi and the guard told me exactly what was told rudi mila was just silent. Tired Indra had fallen asleep mila had told him about this house.