ALARAIN: Big Identity
9. clumsiness

Call me Rain's

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"What do you want to eat today?"

Alarain was busy with the kitchen. He tapped on existing equipment. Today, he wanted to make a meal for his mother.

The middle-aged woman did not answer. He just sat quietly on the dining table. His gaze was empty, but it was a sign of sadness.

Seeing his mother did not respond, Alarain also chose to work on his cooking. The soup began to boil. Alarain provided potluck utensils for himself as well as his mother. After everything is done, the food is ready.

The girl stood up. Take the rice along with the boiling hot soup in the bowl for his mother. "Eat ma!"

Stay on. Mother ignored him. Alarain returned to his original seat which was in his mother's room. He began to eat food solemnly. Gradually, the food prepared by Alarain never visited his mother to eat. Alarain was sad, as always.

Honestly, if anyone asks her about regrets. Then he will answer, he regretted having been born of the woman before him. If he could choose from whose womb he was born in, then Alarain wanted to choose a woman who would love him, feed him food, braid his hair acknowledging it) a brief kiss before leaving for school, as well as other small things. That simple.

Nature says something else. The God they believe in cannot be their faith. The God he once worshipped did not take away his pain. The God he once made a runaway never embraced him. The God he always adored, he glorified, was never there for him. The pain becomes more and more present, imprints on the heart and never goes away. The God whom the healer thinks is just talk.

In short, Alarain doesn't trust anyone. What do you call friends? What is called a boyfriend? What is the name of family? What is God called? They who? Alarain doesn't believe in it all, except himself.

It's just that his biggest regret is that he can't ignore a relationship that Alarain belongs to.

"Alarain is leaving first." Said later. He left the pale middle-aged woman with his residence.

***

"You've been working here for a month. And here's your salary. The spirit!" Restaurant managers give salaries to every employee today. Alarain happy. Finally he could buy a textbook for her.

"Thank you sir!" alarain was happy.

Mr. manager shifted his view from Alarain to other employees, "Because today's income exceeds the target, the boss tells that the restaurant can be closed now." He said with a smile.

The employees whispered to each other with their friends. Although Alarain had worked here for a month, the girl still had no close friends, well except for her acquaintances.

"Okay, please come back!"

***

At 19:00, Alarain searched for a bookstore that was still open. In addition to his teaching materials, Alarain also wanted to buy a novel for his mother's reading. The money is more than enough now. After he finished doing the live time that gift given the audience he tried to melt and enough to buy some books.

"Which bank book is about getting into college where is it?" Ask Alarain at the cashier.

"Turn left at the corner, there." replied the cashier. After thanking Alarain also looking for the place in question. After finding the place in question Alarain immediately searched for his teaching materials. Moreover, the Physics competition two days from now will come.

"Sorry!" the man's words.

Alarain did not answer when the man accidentally tripped and hit him. He cleared his throat, then escaped from the man.

"Eh, you!" There was Alarain. Then he rushed towards the girl who suddenly stopped it. "It fell out of your bag!"

It was his mini wallet. Alarain took it while saying thank you courtesy. It's just, it's just,

"I am first!" Alarain did not say goodbye at first. The tall man left first.

Feeling that something was awkward the girl meticulously looked at her mickey. Maybe just a feeling. But, her little heart said something was wrong and Alarain had no idea what it was.

Alarain preferred to go back to the books he would buy. It feels like finding a novel that matches his wishes he went to pay to the cashier.

At 19:45. Alarain did not realize he was spending time in the bookstore. He glanced at his watch and then sighed harshly. Too tired and too unwilling to go back to his house. If only Alarain wanted to leave his mother.

Why should Alarain believe in religious law, where people who neglect their parents will be tortured. He himself did not dare God. Got this mind tired for Rain. If only the middle-aged woman in the house wasn't the one with whom he had a relationship. Alarain will be happy. Might as well. But reality? Relationships like this that Alarain does not want to live. This relationship always made him suffer.

Fucking kid. (Alarain doesn't know what a bastard is?

Son demon. (Wasn't her mom acting like a demon?

Disgusted son. (Alarain could not argue. Because in her eyes she will remain the same)

*****. (It's too amazing to tell)

Brash kid. (Alarain admitted it very much)

Child ... Child... Child...

There were too many curses and other insults from her mother. Alarain was used to it. Sometimes he asks what is wrong? Or the...

***

"Action motor gangs unsettling the citizens. Ten residents of Tasikmalaya, West Java, died after being stabbed with a knife. This motorist action..."

Alarain turned off his television in anger. Again. People who feel powerless act. Are they fun doing that?

The ringing of his phone rang. Unread messages with words,

"Alarain Jayden, aren't you enjoying your own game?"

'cats and others love your vidio'

sunflower commented on your post 'Alden tonight is live again!"

parahsipalingarah commenting on your post 'Aldenkuh live again ya!'

Alarain ignored the first message that appeared. He chose to open the app first.

'Tomorrow my night live'