
Heni walked with gontai. The ground he stepped on seemed to be about to collapse.his mind glared far and wide at the thought of how he was next. His stomach ache was felt every few minutes, he grimaced as he held it. The sky that had begun to paint at dusk witnessed him crying and sitting in confusion on a shady tree on the side of the road.
Speech from the doctor tingling in his ear, she positively pregnant? Although pregnancy was the thing she had been waiting for all this time, but she was terrified. His heart is happy there is a growing fetus and is developing in his diahim. She will be a mother because she is not barren. But on the other hand his heart ached because it had destroyed his own household.
As he passed by a stall, his steps stopped. He continued to stare at the various glass dietalase dishes. The nausea came again. Since he smelled a very pungent scent, he was about to vomit. Heni immediately left the place.
I'm sorry Bimo. I have betrayed you because of my hatred for your mother. I have sacrificed a lot all this time. I don't deserve you. If there's a good-bye between us, blame me. I deserve that. I'm an immoral woman.
Heni continued to tread without direction, his mind completely in a frenzy. He was afraid to face Bimo and his mother who always interfered and mocked him. The woman who used to always be considered as her second mother, but never appreciated it at all. Tired of walking, he sat in a chair under a roadside lamp. His eyes were straight in front. In front of it straight there is a city park separated by a highway with thousands of lights decorate, where young people chat. His tears were reminded of Tama. He was crying, fucked,
I miss you, even though this is wrong. I want to meet you. Only once. If meeting you first was a mistake, maybe this is my reward. I promise I'll take care of this baby, our baby. Even without you by my side. May you be happy wherever you are.
Heni continued to cry accompanied by the noise of vehicles passing by on the highway. He no longer cared that twilight had changed with night. He continued to weep for his mistakes he had made. He's sorry.
" Heni, honey. Why are you here? " ask someone while hugging him. Heni stared fixedly, he wiped away his tears. A smile rose on her sad face as she looked at the woman who had given birth to her standing by her side.
" I'm fine ma, " replied Heni in a stifled voice. He wanted to cry again but held her all his might. Gradually his defense collapsed, he hugged his mother tightly and cried shedding all the misery of his life.
" It's okay to cry so that you calm down, " said Ms. Alwan.
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Heni wakes up in a room that looks different. He gathered his consciousness and his gaze swept around. This room is his room at his parents' house. Heni got up, he immediately rubbed his stomach. There is happiness in doing so. His hands reflexively though not yet enlarged his stomach. Yes she's pregnant. He began to accept his situation. He walked out to meet his mother who might be in the kitchen.
Last night after hugging Madam Alwan, the mother took her home. I don't know what happened to his daughter he didn't force her to answer. As Madam Alwan knows, her daughter needs to calm down and get some rest.
The mother is making her favorite cereal. Heni approached him, suddenly his urge to vomit came. He immediately ran to the bathroom, making Madame Alwan wonder.
" What's up? are you sick, baby? " ask mrs Alwan gently. Heni rubbed his mouth that was still wet with water. She shook her head. Madam Alwan asked her to have breakfast immediately. Heni walked doubtfully to the dining area. He was afraid that the smell coming from the food presented at the table made him nauseous. Madam Alwan still continued to watch her closely.
" What really happened to you, Hen? " ask madam Alwan. Heni. He forced himself to eat and showed he was fine.
" I called Bimo and told him you were here. His face looked aged. But still look good looks of the father who is still left.
" Maybe he will catch up with you later, "sir Alwan told Heni.
Heni turned his face the other way. He hid the sadness that was still clearly depicted on his round face. She was afraid that her parents would question her even if it was impossible. Because they always wait for Heni to talk first.
Heni continued to eat with the views of his parents. They did not miss out on the precious opportunity with Heni that they rarely got. Because all this time Heni was always busy with his time-consuming work. Also because the lazy Bimo came to visit.
After the meal, Heni volunteered to do some abandoned homework. Madam Alwan was astonished by the unusual attitude Heni showed. He thought his son was not doing well and was hiding something. Mrs Alwan asks her to help with the symbiotic work in the kitchen, but Heni refuses. He thinks the smell of the kitchen makes him nauseous. A strange reason because Heni is happy if he is in the kitchen. The proof is that he is good at making various dishes. Mrs Alwan came to her own conclusion,
" Are you pregnant? " ask madam Alwan. Heni did not reply, he shifted the subject. When Madame Alwan was off guard she immediately dodged him.
Heni stepped towards the swimming pool beside the house. The melancholic atmosphere again ambushed itself while on its own. He remembered his late brother. He's been missing.
" You're here apparently? Bimo is waiting for you in the guest room, " said Madam Alwan. Heni panicked, his hand squeezing the end of his clothes.
" What's up? are you afraid of your husband? " ask madam Alwan. The woman understood Heni inside out. His son always did so out of fear of something. Madame Alwan approached her,
" Mommy doesn't know what really happened to you? but I hope you can solve it yourself, if you need my mom's help. Mama is ready son, " said Mrs Alwan. Heni turned his head, he shook his head strongly. Your premonition is too strong ma, I'm fine. Heni continued to reassure herself and stepped into the living room to meet her husband.
Bimo immediately stood up as Heni met him. He regulates his emotions that have actually been changed because Heni went home to his parents without asking permission.
" I'm sorry, " said Heni slowly half whispering. He could not see the face of his husband. His net bowed to calculate the arrangement of marble on the floor installed in the living room of his parents' house.
" Let's go home and solve our problems at home" he said firmly. Heni shuddered in fear. She is afraid that Bimo will find out about her affair all along until she contains the seeds of love from Tama.
" Come, "Bimo reached out. With hesitation and trembling, Heni grabbed him. They held hands tightly until they boarded the matic motorbike Bimo brought to pick up his wife. Heni climbed up and the motorbike immediately drove along with the gaze of Madame Alwan from behind the glass curtain of the living room.
I hope you are well, my son. Lord, protect my daughter, madam Alwan prayed.