Anjani Darling
Anjani, I'm sorry

Tears keep coming down. I no longer care about anything. My heart really hurt by what they did to me. Mega with her heart made up a bad story about me. Then the punishment from the head mother was so harsh on me.

I'm in first grade, going up to second grade. But they've already dropped out of school. How is my education? My future now looks blurry.

Could it be that what Diana said, wasn't Zein and the other children right that father and mother no longer loved me? The proof is they never came. Seven more years have passed? Is that miss just mine? Do they really not miss me?

If they loved me, they would have been looking for me. It was impossible for them to trace my whereabouts.

"If you don't love me, why should you bring me into your life? Why didn't you just let me go when I was a kid?"

My body was completely limp from screaming while crying. Even the roaring sound sounded quite clear as I spoke while screaming.

"Anjani." call someone to me. Brother Zein, he stood only two meters away from me.

"Go away. Don't bother me. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want to wait for Mom and Dad here. I'm so tired." I said.

"What if they don't come?"

"I'll keep waiting."

"Go home Anjani."

"No, I don't want to." The tears that had been dry returned one by one.

"Anjani!"

"Go ... go ... go! Don't you know how happy I am to get a new uniform and a new bag? I waited for him for six years. But you just burned it.

I'm not the one who's wrong. I didn't steal Mega HP. I deliberately confiscated because he destroyed Philip's gift. He also doesn't mind if I bring him. The proof is that he didn't ask his friends to snatch from me like he used to." I said. "But it turns out it's all a trap. It's so evil!"

"I know Anjani. I'm sure you're not gonna do any of that 'cause you're a good kid."

"Why then are you silent? Why don't you talk to the head? Isn't she your mother, she should have listened to what you said.".

"It's not that easy Anjani. You know my mom, right?"

"Then I won't go back there. His son was not heard, let alone I whom he hated so much."

"Anjani."

"Early, go!"

"Anjani's. Ii'm sorry. From the beginning it has put you in a position like this. I shouldn't have cried or complained to Mom that she hated you. I'm sorry Anjani."

"I don't want to forgive anyone!"

"Anjani!" aunt Desi came over to us, looking a disappointed expression on her face. "Anjani, you're okay, aren't you, son?"

Ahhhh, if not Desi's aunt who came and begged me to come back, I would no longer set foot in that parlour. It doesn't feel like a place for me because almost everyone hates me. They don't want my existence. But the pair of eyes of aunt Desi and she who kept persuading me to come home with ya to the parlour made me unable to resist.

Aunt Desi has been very kind to me. These seven years have been the ones who have cared for me lovingly. When I was sick, Aunt Desi was always by my side. He never got up from my side, taking care of me lovingly.

Likewise when I was scolded by the head mother. He'll try to put up a body to help me. It's just that his condition of being a servant in the parlour made Aunt Desi unable to fully protect me from the harsh punishments of the head mother.

Then how could I possibly make a wound in Aunt Desi's heart. He even continued to hold my hand tightly while occasionally persuading me to come along. His love really made me unable to resist it. He truly loves me.

The sky was already reddish in color, while the air was getting colder, making me finally willing to come home.

Right at the entrance of the parlour, the head mother waited, she looked at me arrogantly. In my mind he must have felt that he had won because in the end I came home also after the injustice he gave.

Take it easy, chief, when I grow up, I will leave this home and never set my foot back here!

"Anjani, do you hate the head mother?" the first question that Aunt Desi asked when we got to the room.

"Yes." I answered honestly.

"Anjani, please aunt, don't grow up with hate in your heart. Aunty knows you're so hurt by them, but try to forgive to keep your heart calm. If you keep hating him, you'll be ruined."

"But they're mean to me!" I spoke with tears that broke again.

How not to hate the one who ruined my future. What happens if I don't go to school?

"You know Anjani, sometimes a lot of people are successful but he doesn't get to school" said Desi's aunt again.

"But they have another chance. They can learn from the outside or have the facilities to reach the ladder of success. While me? I'm here, locked up. Auntie didn't forget what the head mom said that I could go anywhere."

"Auntie tau Anjani. But aunt also believes you can achieve your dreams. Even you can be more than the kids who study at school from where you keep learning. Find that chance Anjani. Do not just accept fate. You should also keep moving forward!"

Can I do it? While I was in limitation. After quitting school, I would no longer be able to read books in the school library. I can no longer listen when the teacher explains.

My days will be over at the orphanage. Working rough like aunt Desi. Then can a child with a fate like me still be successful? I also want to be a teacher like my mother. I want to have a high title. Not just at home. Is it possible.

"God could Anjani. Just keep trying and don't hate anyone. He whose heart is clean, the help of God will always come to him."

"really?"

"Yes, I won't lie to you Anjani!"

A ray of light now seemed to be luring to us in my life. I'll be just like Aunt Desi said. Keep learning until I can finally get what I aspire to.