Blanket Kick
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....•♫♬♬ & ♫•....

...it's not about him being with you always ...

...But about him not being with you but he knows where he keeps his heart...

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I sat on the floor crying alone in the chest room, claustrophobic, holding all this ,all the insults and insults by my schoolmates without anyone knowing the tissue scattered everywhere I hugged the brown shooky bt21 doll until I did not feel I fell asleep on the floor while hugging the doll bt21 shooky is brown...

I don't know how long I slept when I saw it was 8 pm already when the dinner I went from where I fell asleep and cleaned my room which was very messy because of my actions earlier...

after everything was done I went out of the room to go down to dinner and everyone was waiting for me...

I took a breath and took it out of my nose to calm myself "Vierra's spirit you should be strong don't look at your sadness you're strong "my murmurs encouraged myself and then smile

when I came out of the room I passed with Revan who was just out of the room as well, kmi looked at each other for a while

"good night revan "greet me smile at her

"hmm the night "he said coldly and went ahead of me I followed him

when I got to the dinner table everyone was gathered there, I felt bad for making everything wait

"good night all "greet me to all who are there

"night vie" Answer the others

"it's not pa pa pa dear let's eat " said mama mirna invite me to sit down to eat with me also sitting right in front of the revan sitting

kmi also ate together and had dinner with a lot of laughter among the 4 friends in front of me, sometimes I envy their friendship that is durable until old like this

day by day I've been through here it doesn't feel like a month I've been living in a revan house for that long nothing has changed from my relationship and my revan kmi is still like a stranger even though we are one roof, sometimes I feel like a fool loves someone who never loved me or didn't think I existed at all

I always try to smile even though sometimes my heart cries but I am still excited for the sake of father and mother...

today's weekend home feels very crowded all holidays dad, mom, mama mirna, papa anto, aldo, and revan are at home

mama Mirna, me, and my mother chose to sit in the garden behind the house while enjoying the scenery and telling stories with fellow women...

"while you're here it all feels so warm like there used to be just silence" said mama mirna while eating a sponge in her hand

" haha mirna you know how anto during high school her guy was like a refrigerator walking "say Mom laughing

" yeah you really I'm also confused because I can fall in love with people kyk that "say Mama mirna as if thinking

" hopefully revan not kyk his father deh "hope mama mirna

" yeah I hope deh let the vie not kyk kmu join mulu mulu malu "mom's mouth makes the cheeks heat up because of embarrassment

" mother said what the hell revan where want the same vie "say me down shy I also realize me and Revan can never unite