Butterfly Night But Virgin
214. Wishing
Time keeps turning, days keep changing. But it turns out the heart is still fixated in the same place and reluctant to go. Why can love? Never ask the heart. Because the heart cannot explain how to love.
Many believe that love comes from the heart. But a number of studies have concluded that love comes from the brain even though it has something to do with the heart. The coming of the feeling of love can even be explained through brain reactions and biological processes in the human body.
In scientific explanations, humans can fall in love because of the presence of biological elements in the form of four chemical substances in the nerves of the body. The four are oxytocin, dopamine, serotonin, and beta-endorphin. It supports attraction and gives rise to love.
Like Hendrik, an adventurous Casanova of love who had never before felt what love was. Loves a woman only because of her body. Love is confined to the bed only to meet his biological needs.
Now Hendrik has just sensed what real love is and cannot explain what it feels like. Like nano-nano, which tastes sweet, sour, salty to crowded tastes? Or like a cup of coffee that has a bitter and sweet taste? Of course, Hendrik is currently unhappy because of one feeling, namely love.
Wanted to meet Sumi, but was bound by promise. You want to forget, but forgetting is harder than remembering. In an instant we can love, but in fact it takes a long time to forget.
Hendrik's heart has been stolen Sumi, half his breath flying with Sumi. Until it is difficult for Hendrik to open a new page closing the story.
During his two weeks abroad, Hendrik busied himself by exercising and studying martial arts. The incident was battered by five thugs two weeks ago when helping Sumi made Hendrik want to deepen his martial arts. In addition, to divert his thoughts and feelings that can not stop loving and thinking about Sumi.
"Brug"
Hendrik who just came home from doing martial arts training laid his body on the bed.
"Would you forget him?"
"Geez! Ray! Why are you nongol suddenly like a ghost, anyway! You startled me, "grumbled Hendrik who was surprised to suddenly hear Rayyan's voice in his apartment room. And what makes Hendrik more upset is, his sister looks relaxed sitting on the sofa in his room while raising his right thigh to his left thigh.
"Silver looks so pathetic. Brother spent time exercising and deepening martial arts due to heartbreak. Although it's positive, but I'm sure, it won't make you forget about Sumi, will it?"asked Rayyan who was casually sipping an isotonic drink.
"When are you here?"asked Hendrik to sit on the edge of the bed without responding to Rayyan's words.
"just now. I happen to have a little work here. I'm home in three hours,"
"Is he okay?"asked Hendrik, taking a deep breath.
"Why didn't big brother contact him if he was so curious?"
"I promised not to disturb him, cut off the relationship and get away from him. So, there's no way I'm calling him,"
"If big brother had promised like that and wanted to forget about him, big brother would not have to ask anything more about him. If you keep remembering her and always find out about her, how can you forget her?"
"Forgetting over is harder than remembering, Ray. What's more to forget the people we love,"
"I know that forgetting is harder than remembering. But, if brother does not move on, brother will still walk in place. Be at the same point. And that will only make my sister more hurt. Rest assured, brother! If big brother is not a match for him, then he is not the best for big brother. As long as you keep trying to become a better person, you will definitely find your happiness someday,"
"Therefore I need time, Ray,"
"I understand, it takes time and process. Even Prambanan temple also takes overnight to make it. And instant noodles still need to be boiled first can be eaten. Nothing is really fast and instant. It all takes time and process. But, I hope big brother doesn't drag on in this state,"
"When are you ready to go back to work?"
"Please give me one more week, Ray,"
"okkey. After one week, you should return to work immediately. I went back," said Rayyan and then came out of Hendrik's room.
"If Miti comes months regularly, it should be known tomorrow the results. Last time, we met three weeks after in saying that he came months. According to my calculations, the time we met and did it was the fertile period of Miti. So, the chances of Miti conceiving my son must be great. I really hope she's pregnant with my son. If Miti is pregnant with my child, that child will be the reason that I can marry her. Have it. Even if Sumi doesn't call me tomorrow, I'll wait another week. Who knows Miti including women who come her month like to retreat," muttered Hendrik expectantly.
Hendrik is still and very much hoping Sumi is pregnant with her child. So there's a reason for them to be together. Although Hendrik is fully aware, it is not good to be too hopeful. Because the greater we hope, the greater the disappointment we get, if the hope we dream does not come true.
As for Sumi herself, for these two weeks the woman regretted her own stupidity. After Hendrik left, Sumi only realized, if he really loved Hendrik. The disappointed face of Hendrik when he accused Hendrik deliberately making a kidnapping scenario in order to fuck himself at that time really haunted Sumi's mind.
The words of Hendrik who said that Hendrik would marry a woman who loved Hendrik even though Hendrik did not love the woman made Sumi's heart feel sliced.
And now, Sumi is embarrassed to have to tell Hendrik if he also loves Hendrik. Because not only once, but has repeatedly rejected Sumi love and marriage invitation from Hendrik. Saying to love Hendrik and asking him to come back is like licking his own spit.
Just like Hendrik, Sumi's only hope of reuniting with Hendrik is a child. If she is pregnant with Hendrik's child, then there will be a way for Sumi to make Hendrik return.
These two weeks were passed by Sumi like many years. Every second, minute, and hour seemed to run very slow. Until today finally came. The day he was supposed to get a monthly guest.
Yesterday Sumi had bought a testpack with various brands at different prices. Today Sumi woke up early in the morning and immediately rushed to the bathroom.
"I really hope, I don't come months," muttered Sumi rushing to check her pants to see if she was getting a monthly guest or not.
"clean. A. am I pregnant?"mumbling Sumi who looked tense.
Sumi rushed to do a urine test using the testpack she bought. Waiting ten minutes was like ten years for Sumi. Feels very long. It was as if second by second was walking so slowly. Sumi walked back and forth in front of the bathroom door. Waiting for testpack results to read.
After exactly ten minutes of waiting for the test results to come out, Sumi finally went into the bathroom with cold sweat on her body. Sumi's hand to tremor when you want to reach the testpack soaked in her urine earlier.
"I wish I was pregnant. Otherwise, I would have no more reason to be with Hendrik," Sumi muttered with trembling lips. The woman's face looked tense. Sumi's hand grew tremor when lifting one of the testpacks from its place in the soak.
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...Hoping for people is an art of hurting yourself. The simplest art to make the heart hurt....
...Never expect anything uncertain, because when it is not achieved, your heart will be hurt....
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To be continued