Call Me a Rose
Chapter 48

Inside her locked room Diara came back crying and crying, venting all her anger and frustration.

From the outside the door sounded on the knock many times.

"Diara! Diara!", call Papa while knocking on the door.

Diara ignored the call and kept crying and crying. Not long after that the sound of knocking on the door stopped. And faintly Diara could hear the sound of Papa's footsteps drifting away. And once again, Diara was getting hurt.

Diara still remembers clearly, first for his Papa himself is the number one. His father always defended him when he was fighting with Tomi. Papa always takes her and picks her up from school. Papa always selects every man who comes near him. Papa was willing to carry it everywhere when his leg was broken when he was a child. But now her father had turned away and had the heart to ignore himself for the sake of other women. During this time, Diara had never felt the heartbreak of being abandoned. Juna is his first and last lover to date. And they are separated by death where Juna died protecting her. But now, Diara was really in pain, when her first love had the heart to betray Mama and herself.

She kept crying and crying. I don't know what he's really crying about. She felt her heart hurt. Diara hates Papa. Diara hates Tomi. Diara hates Jelita. It was as if no one in the world cared about him. Only Mama loved him sincerely, but Mama was gone. And of all that, Diara hated herself for wasting Mama. Diara regretted her stupidity all along. When Mama always waited for him at home with all the attention and affection he instead chose to go because of his selfishness. Diara regrets not returning Mama's love enough. He is no better than Papa, who does not even know if Mama is struggling with her disease alone. Diara regretted her negligence that did not have time to worship before Mama left.

Diara took a car and drove on the street without direction and purpose. Diara just kept going around in circles until she felt her body tired. Diara wants to run. Diara wants to go. But he has no purpose.

She wanted to find eternal peace. Like her mother who has given up all the painful things in life and sleeps quietly.

Yeah, that's what Diara wants right now. Diara began to think, how the most beautiful and painless way to end this all. Diara began to imagine one by one the possibilities and choices.

She finally went to a high place. On the roof of the seven-story building Diara looked at the blue sky. Up there everything looks beautiful. Diara wanted to go to that beautiful place, where her life problems would disappear in an instant. Diara wants to go there and meet with Mama. Diara stepped slowly while closing her eyes. He felt a gust of wind coming down on his face, feeling cold and refreshing. Diara has reached the end of the building. Diara ventured to open her eyes. She looked up and looked up at the sky above. That's where my mom is. A beautiful and quiet place. Not in a world full of greedy and greedy humans. Diara swung her legs, until one of her legs floated in the air. His body felt light in the wind. Yeah, it's time. Diara dropped her body, but then felt a hand pull her body violently until her body fell against something hard.

"Aw!", Diara shrieked in pain.