
" Yh ... I have to get home early. Please condition our group!" pinta Atha's. Zay nodded in agreement with the request of the head of his comparative study group.
" Okay ... Be careful on the road. Hopefully soon healthy again," replied Zay worried to see the pale face of Atha. Atha simply commented a slight smile at Zay.
I'm sorry Zay! It's a disgrace I can't tell anyone. I need time to finish the big thing in my life. How can I commit a great sin when I have children. Oh Allah ... Astagfirullah. His inner.
Along the way Atha thought about how it could happen. He can't remember everything clearly. But the red mark on the bed that he had committed a great sin by touching someone without any bondage. He indeed brushed last night and was tempted by the dullness of Daniah's body which again plastered clearly in his eyes. But he forgot how he enjoyed it. In the game has done it but there is evidence.
" Tha ... What about me???!" yelling Daniah with a clear face. Atha's gaze was so heart-piercing.
" Let me think for a moment. My heart cannot betray Umma from my sons. She means so much to me that I don't even dream of hurting her once. Haram to me made her cry again" said Atha firmly and straightforwardly.
" But you did!" yang Daniah reminded me again loudly.
" I'm gonna need some time. Don't push anything from me. You even remember me refusing and asking why I was brought to this place of yours! I remember very well you answered what. Excuse me! Let's talk back if I find the answer. Assalamualaikum," said Atha stretching away Daniah there alone.
I'm sorry Daniah didn't mean to hurt you but I wasn't ready to hurt the wife I love. He's been perfect for me he's been my last destination. There's no way I'm gonna cause him to cry again. I promised to make her happy. I took over the happiness her papa gave me. I'm sorry to let me think for a moment about the big mistake I made. I will not run away from reality.
For a moment Atha recalled a glimpse of the incident this morning. Where he left his own danish in his inn. His heart ached and the bloodstains gnawed and danced in his brain mocking without ceasing. Atha wept for her life her chest tightened as if hoping for the World to collapse at this moment alone. He was suddenly afraid of losing to the four people he cared about.
Half a day he had traveled to the boarding school where the house raised him. Arriving there he saw and heard if Adzkan's brother asked to marry his umminya again. Ummi was in shock. Atha silently chose to hide behind the wall while holding his chest.
Oh Allah ... Forgive us Ummi has become a bad boy. Ummi may be traumatized by the polygamy but we don't know why we're stuck in this. Inner sendu.
" Gus ... Not going in!" the mang ujang. Driver Abi.
" In a moment, Ummi was advising Bang Adzkan," he replied, staring at the mang ujang who was now accompanying him.
" I'm with gus?" tanyanya politely.
" May be at the substation there!" invite Atha and mang ujang to nod.
They also headed to the substation where Atha had pointed at him. Sesari was watching mang ujang kya's son. Gus Atha was sad. Mang ujang who had treated him since childhood ventured to ask.
" The gus punten ... What's the matter? Why do you look worried?" ask mang ujang. Not if you don't understand Atha. Mang ujang is like a second father to Atha. He always felt what Atha felt. Maybe the telepathy between the two of them is very good because mang ujang has been caring for him for years. Atha hugged mang ujang while crying.
" Yes ... I have committed a great sin!! How do I deal with abi, ummi and wife if they get to know mang. Oath by Allah, Atha did not do it. O Allah, how the sin approached Atha. Atha mersa has fulfilled his duty correctly why a sin as big as this could Atha do mang," he cried. Mang ujang stroked the punggunh Atha in front of him. Atha was crying in the arms of mang ujang.
" Istighfar gus ... Tests come to remind us to draw us closer to the distrust of God. There is no sin that is not forgiven if we really mean it. The sampun nangis gus ... Don't be that long Abi's been looking this way. Monggo gus can get to Abi!" mang ujang. Atha rubbed her tears and stared softly at the mang ujang who was now giving her best smile. Mang ujang nodded.
His feet are weak. His tears are like the rain. But he tried to survive in this situation. He approached Abi and said hello.
" Assalamualaikum bi .. "his broom with a face that had already lost its handsome and resolute aura as tears fell out of position.
" navalovaa ... Go to Abi's room. Let abi order the chief executive to handle abi's schedule," replied Abinya understand. Atha just nodded and entered.
Atha never once told the abi about his heart. It's just before the wedding on the title. Abi once said that if he had a strange problem in his marriage abi pinta to come to him if it was very unsolvable.
" The! Imami prayers maghrib and explain page 25 in the book Ta'limul muta'allim. I have a need" Abi told the head of the management.
" Ngggeh kyai .. "the answer goes immediately undue yourself without refuting even once.
Her brother stepped in without hesitation. He closed the door and asked his son to pray before telling a story. Ummi Aedang was with her eldest son.
The central Ndalem ...
" What's wrong with Ummi! You may want polygamy. Never give up on the descent. Do not rush to marry. Live the wedding casually like a flowing river. Don't say you want to get married again. If you insist then give a reason where ummi can not refuse your request again," said the Ummi firmly but sadly. Adzkan who had been silent now looked at the ummi with sadness and heartlessness.
" Ummi has been almost 2 years ago we married harapa into a happy family according to the guidance of Islam. Adzkan had tried to accept Zahra with the deepest heart. But adzkan can not touch halal women for adzkan but he still thinks of others when together adzkan ummi. Sorry ... Sorry ... Adzkan should say ummi," replied adzkan honestly.
" Choose ... Don't tell me you didn't touch Zahra at all???" tanya Ummi was curious and stared intently at his eldest son.
" I'm sorry ummi ... Adzkan can't do it! He loved Atha so much that day. Adzkan can not tolerate it just because of mere ummi lust. Therefore let remarry look for women who are ready to marry and ready to give grandchildren and the next generation of this pesantren.
" Choose ... Astagfirullahal. Laa haula wala quwwata illah billah ... Forgive my son, O Allah," Ummi looked sad.
" I'm sorry mi ... "cloak Adzkan without daring to look at his umminya again.
" Bring your candidate here! Or we go to his house. Clear everyone understand?? What about Zahra?" tanya ummi looked at her son.
" He gave it all up to the ummi adzkan. Provided it won't divorce her because it's a bad thing for her family" she replied firmly. Ummi breathed a heavy sigh. The burden of his mind increased with Adzkan saying that.
" Find us adzkan. Your second wife's candidate!" pinta ummi in the end.
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