
"Ah, have you forgotten me hmm?? You're really useless huh, you can't even remember me at all, you deserve to die!" He hugged Raka's body and whispered it.
"Jess, I"
"You're really useless! Know it? Giving birth to you as my son is the greatest regret of my life, Nonius! You really don't deserve to live even from the first time I gave birth to you" said the shadow that changed back into a woman with the same navy hair as her.
"I'm mom.." Lirih.
A feeling rippled from within his heart. The true feeling of anger is overwhelming.
His heart was broken for a moment.
Until, a soft voice ringed in his head.
The small memories returned to revolve in his mind.
A memory of the time when he was a child.
About how her mother's soft voice called her for breakfast. About her soft voice when she scolded him until he cried.
Also about the firm and warm voice of his father and brother.
Also about the small and cute voice of her little sister sister whom she longed for.
She bit her lips hard. Reorganizing the determination he had accumulated all this time.
"I know you're here!" Said Raka to a familiar shadow before her.
The shadow was as red as blood spurting from him. He was covered in a black fog mixed with blood around him.
The hand was tightly strangling his neck.
"Ah, you are really weak, Raka" said the shadow showed his identity.
He really has the same appearance and voice as Raka.
Raka simply fell silent enduring the pain from her body.
Ugh.
"You just let everything you have get taken away from you. You're a fucking loser!"
"You don't even deserve to mention one by one of those who were taken from you"
"You know? You're the lowest man I know." The shadow whisper was full of grudges and fury.
"Ah, me too, Nonius.. "
Raka throttled Nonius' neck.
"You're a loser who doesn't even dare to show your face to the enemy"
"You're the one who even ran with fear when faced with problems"
"Also about you blaming yourself for everything we do"
"We are regrets." The Bisik Raka
Nonius.
"You are me."
"I am you"
"None of us are winners. And none of us are losers."
"Your anger, your sadness, your happiness, is my anger, my sadness, and my happiness.. Nonius.."
Now his words are full of emphasis and anger. Nonius was surprised by his words.
"Only we know how we feel, only we know how we suffer, only we know how we struggle, only we know how we are happy and sad.. only we know who we really are and give our best to what they take from us"
"We are criminals! None of them can take what we want, and none of them we can't take, Nonius.."
The shadow was silent. Slowly but surely, half of Raka's body fused with that of Nonius, leaving two bodies of different colors and luster.
'Blue and red'
"I see, we are one, in any life and after all, you are me.."
"Send everything to you, no! To me and to us, whether it's Nonius or Raka, it's all of us" he said before merging
Nonius smiled and blended into Raka's body.
A memory melts Raka into a long dream, so long..