DESTINY LOVE RANGGA
CHAPTERS 1. THE SHADOWS OF THE PAST

“Mas, I don't want you to see him again! I need you too, Mas!”

“Just a minute, Rena. I'm just making sure he goes through chemo on schedule. Be patient! I beg your understanding! He's a kara! He's very sick! His life is soon. After he's gone, I'll focus on you and our son!”

“What if I get sick too, Mom? Do you still see that woman?”

“You and our baby are healthy, baby! You're strong! Just be patient a little more. His life is soon. You don't have much of a mind. Keep eating and getting enough rest. I'll go first,"

“Mas ....! My ....! Don't leave! I need you, Mum! Our baby candidates need you too!”

“Aargh.....!”

Rangga woke up with a hunting breath. Cold sweat poured from his forehead. It was a nightmare again. Again, such a dream haunts him. With trembling hands, Rangga picked up a glass filled with clear water on the nightstand. Take one capsule. Then the capsule is put in the mouth with drinking water until the water is used up. Then put the empty glass back on the nightstand. If so, he can no longer sleep. He was afraid the dream would come again. Actually it wasn't a dream. It was a memory recorded in his brain an event 10 years ago.

Slowly, he walked to the balcony. He looked up at the night sky full of stars.

“Rena ...., I'm sorry! Forgive me! If time could be turned, I wouldn't have acted that way. I will stay focused on you and our future son!” ogre. Clear circles wet his cheeks.

He saw a bright star in the sky. Rangga looked far away as if piercing the distant star.

"Rena ... Can I see you again in heaven? Will we and our children be together in heaven?" ogre.

There is a sense of tightness when remembering his late wife and prospective children. I feel like I failed to be a good husband and father.

He took a cigarette and then gave it to him. At this time just by smoking, all his heartbreak evaporated along with cigarette smoke. Yes, even if it's just for a moment.

Not feeling adzan shubuh sayup-sayup sounding reverberating. The cold and the sound of Adhan woke him from his sleep. Still not collected full of consciousness, Rangga dyingukan felt surprised he was on the sofa on the balcony. After he remembered that he had fallen asleep on the balcony after last night's nightmare, he got up.

He saw a folded prayer mat in his room.

I do not know how long he has not carried out his duty to the Khalik.

'No! Nah! I'm against God! God has taken away all that is precious to me! God conspired with Rena to punish me with a very painful punishment!' the Inner word Rangga.

'Even the kid Rena just born, you take it too,'

'This is worse than divorce! You are punishing me mercilessly! Why don't you just make me die so that I don't bear this heavy burden of guilt?! I live, but my soul dies!' rangga Ompat.

Rangga immediately headed to the gym room. He immediately punched a punching bag to channel his anger. After feeling satisfied and tired, Rangga slumped to the floor. His breath was puffed and smiled cynically

*******

"Rangga is healed. It's just that lately nightmares haunt him again," said Mr. Dani, head of ART at the villa owned by the Rangga family.

"Make him tired before going to bed, so that he can sleep well," Om Adam, the brother of his father Rangga told Mr. Dani. During this time Rangga lived alone, alone, away from all his family, friends and all his business colleagues.

Two years Rangga was severely depressed and was admitted to RSJ. After being declared cured, for 8 years Rangga punished himself by isolating himself living in a villa in the tea plantation area in the Bogor area.

"Mr Rangga is still painting and gardening to fill his daily life, but he has plans to learn to make clay crafts" said Mr. Dani.

"Goodoo. I will find the teacher later. Later when I get it, I tell Mr. Dani," said Om Adam.

"Okay, sir," replied Mr. Dani.

Om Adampun passed from in front of Mr. Dani. He immediately got into his car. Soon Om Adam's car left the villa. Today Om Adam did not meet Rangga because there was a meeting with his colleagues at a restaurant not far from his office.

Since his father Rangga died three years ago, Om Adam who runs a business in the Bogor area. Daffa, Rangga's brother was busy managing several businesses in several other major cities so that the company in the Bogor area was handed over to Omnya.

"Mom, Ma ...! It's lunch time. Quickly prepare lunch for Mr. Rangga," ordered Mr. Dani to Bu Irah, his wife, when Mr. Dani entered the kitchen.

"Yes, Sir. This is being prepared by Kokom and Titin" Ms. Irah replied.

Mr. Danipun immediately delivered food for lunch Rangga to Rangga's room on the second floor.

Geck, tok, tok!

Czechs....

Mr. Dani opened the door of Rangga's room after knocking on him.

Braak!

Braak!

"Astagfirullah ....! Mister...! Lord Rangga! Mr Rangga why?!" Mr. Dani was very surprised to see Rangga breaking into his room.

"Where's the painting?! Where's the painting?!" tanya Rangga looked angry

"What painting, sir?" ask Mr. Danu stuttered.

"Where is the painting covered in cloth?! Who moved it?!"

Mr. Dani put a tray of food and drinks on the nightstand. Then he approached his master timidly

"Sorry, Sir. Maybe this morning Mang Udin who helped Si Titin clean up in this room, brought the painting to the warehouse" replied Mr. Dani.

"What?! To barn?! No one can move a single item in this house without my permission?! Understand?!" Rangg looked emotional

"Pardon me, sir. That's at the behest of Mr. Adam," Mr. Dani lowered his head. I have no power to look at Rangga.

"This is my house! He has no right to set up in this house!" hardik Ranges.

"You know whose painting that is?" Rangga stared intently at Mr. Dani.

"Yes, sir, I know," Mr. Dani lowered his head even more

"That's Rena's painting, my wife! I painted it!" rangga Sentak.

"Yes, Sir. Im sorry. Later I will tell Mang Udin to put the painting into this room again," said Mr. Dani still lowered his head.

"Good, Sir. Mmmm. ... That's your lunch, sir. Immediately eaten, sir, so that your ulcer does not recur. Also the medicine must be taken," said Mr. Dani.

"Hmm...," that's just Rangga's voice.

Mr. Dani immediately came out of Rangga's room. After being outside Rangga's room, while walking towards the stairs to go down to the first floor, Mr. Dani stroked his chest. He was really afraid that his master would relapse his depression.

'Oh my God ..., may Mr. Rangga be fully healed. Poor him ...., ' said Mr. Dani in heart.

The painting was moved by order of Om Adam. Om Adam was worried that Rangga would always remember Rena. For a few years, Rangga was normal. His emotions are stable too. I don't know why lately Rangga's back to nightmares. Sometimes angry people who do not know the cause. So Om Adam took the initiative to get rid of the painting so that Rangga could move on.

******

"B*jerk! Traitor! Because of you, my brother is suffering! My sister is struggling to give birth to your child in this hospital, you're just as good here as the actor!" David, Rena's brother hit Rangga who was pushing a wheelchair occupied by Resty.

"I'm not a lasher! Stop that!" resty shouted hysterically to see Rangga being beaten by someone. Rangga was trying to avoid a blow from David.

"Hey, you! If not the actor, then what?! She has a wife who is pregnant, but her husband is always busy taking care of a woman like you! If you want to die, just die! Don't bother my sister's husband!" david Hardik.

"Wait on! A moment! Rena wants to give birth?! Isn't it time yet? It's only been 8 months!" Rangga fends off David's attack, and tries to have a dialogue with David.

"You certainly don't know. Your wife and I have called you many times, but you didn't pick it up. Oh yes, of course because you guys are busy blending!" said David cynically while gasping to stop his punch.

"Sister! I'm not cheating! I'm delivering Resty Chemotherapy!" Rangga.

"Huh! Excuses! Look at the fathers, the mothers, the mothers! Is it justified, his wife is pregnant and even want to give birth. But this handsome husband, who is pretentious, prefers to take his affair for treatment rather than taking his wife to check the contents!"

There were whispers in the hallway area of the hospital.

"Sister! I didn't know that Rena was going to give birth! I'm telling you too, Resty it's not my affair! He is just a kara in Jakarta! He's very sick! I was just helping him!" yell Rangga.

"But ex-boyfriend, right?" cynical David. There was another sound of the whispers of those who were there.

Rangga. He saw people staring cynically at Rangga and Resty.

"Rena is calling you, but you don't care. You go to see your lover! Where's your conscience b*jerk?! Where's your conscience, actor?! You told your nurse that your treatment is always delivered by Rangga, right? Though there are already nurses Rangga paid to deliver and take care of you!" David was getting bold enough to speak out.

"Huuu the traitor and the actor! Must exterminate!" shouted one of the people who was there.

"Huuu ....!" the other shouted coquettishly.

Then there was an hp ringtone. From HP David. David picked it up immediately.

"Yes?! What is?! Eclampsia! Oh Allah ....," David almost staggered at the bad news. Immediately he grabbed Rangga's body again. This time mercilessly, David beat Rangga to a pulp.

"You know?! Rena got eclampsia? He's in a coma now! You satisfied?! Are you getting married to a bad guy now?!" David beat Rangga brutally.

"A-appa?! Re-rena?! Renaaa ....!" Rangga roared while trying to fend off David's punch

"You people! What a storm in the hospital! You're coming with us!" Two new security guards came immediately to take David and Rangga.

"You guys, disperse! Disband! Why didn't anyone break up these two?! Just make a fuss!"

People also disperse. But they were still staring at Rangga, David, Resty and Resty's nurse.

"Sir, I beg you, sir! I want to see my wife, sir! He's in a coma, sir. She has given birth in this hospital, sir!" Rangga pleaded with the security guard.

"All right! Accompany him Sir! Watch out for lies! After this, take him back to the security office! This guy let me take it!" one of the guards said to his friend.

"Sir! I'd like to see my brother too, sir!" said David.

"Oh, you shut up! You're the first to make a fuss here!" hardik Pak Satpam took David's hands and led him to the hospital security office.

"Renaaaa....! Nooo ......! Renaaa ....!" there was a cry when Rangga just arrived in the ER room after searching for the existence of his family in the poly mother and child.

Rangga. The event was again remembered. His heart felt slashed. It hurts so bad. Even the blow from David was nothing compared to the wound of the bathin due to that event.

Two hours after giving birth, Rena died. Two hours later, baby Rena died. Rangga remembered that his entire extended family and Rena's extended family accused him of the cause of all that. Not even an office friend sympathized with her. All condolences are addressed only to the Rena family. And to Rangga. No one wants to say hello to him. Rangga was the head of the office.

I feel excluded, judged. He cannot bear the burden of guilt. He was too ignorant of his wife. Think Rena's a strong woman. But Rangga forgot, how many times he did not take Rena to Obgyn's doctor. So he did not know the condition of the latest pregnancy Rena.

Rangga is crying over his past again. His crying voice was clearly heard to the first floor. If so, all the ART in the villa was pensive. Don't know what to do. No one dared to come closer. Including Mr. Dani.

"Madam, you better get here quickly. We don't know how to. Maybe only Madam can make Mr. Rangga calm," Mr. Dani took the initiative to call Mrs Cindy, Mama Rangga.

"Can we do that again, sir? He said it was healed. It's been ten years, sir! What's the matter exactly?" Madame Cindy was riled up.

"No idea, Madam. Madam should be here soon," said Mr. Dani.

"Okay, I'll be there in the afternoon" replied Mrs Cindy.

In the room, Rangga was staring at the painting of Rena, his late wife. Her tears were unceasingly flowing. The worry is far from remembering those bleak times.

"Your wife has Eclampsia, sir. Eclampsia is a serious medical condition that can affect women during pregnancy. This condition is a follow-up or complication of pre-eclampsia, a rare, serious condition in which high blood pressure can cause seizures during pregnancy."

"Pregnant mothers with pre-eclampsia or experiencing severe hypertension during pregnancy are at risk of having eclampsia which is characterized by seizures and then followed by decreased consciousness or coma."

"To date, the exact cause of eclampsia is unknown. However, the condition of eclampsia is thought to be related to several things, such as: Abnormalities in the placenta and its function, lack of strong blood flow in the placenta, genetic factors. It could also be because pregnant women have a lot of thoughts or stress. I think you know your wife's condition even if you don't take her to the womb" said the doctor who used to examine Rena when Rangga consulted the doctor.

"I ..., I ...," Rangga was unable to continue his words because guilt ambushed him.

"Your wife was taken to the hospital with no referral from me. What exactly are you doing as her husband?! So crazy of you!" Rangga was scolded by the doctor.

"Sorry."

TO BE CONTINUED