Divorce of My Parents

Divorce of My Parents
Divorce of My Parents

CHAPTER l


My name is Natasya I am the first of two children, I have a younger brother named Gilang. My father was Surya and my mother was Nina. The beginning of my life felt so perfect I had parents who loved me so much and always spoiled me. But my happiness is only temporary because when I was 13 years old when I stepped on the bench of Junior High I had to accept the reality that was very bitter with the divorce of my parents who I loved so much. I never knew that behind the harmony and wonder my parents showed me and my sister was a charade. Because it turns out they always cover their quarrels from their children.


By the time I got home from school my mother was no longer home. There's only my sister who has Gilang.


" Where's mom Lang? ask me to Gilang. I don't know kak because when I came home from school mom was not home, maybe mom was at home grandmother. replied Gilang "


" it may be, but usually my mother wants to go to my grandmother's house always tell me in advance.I replied again to my sister."


" you've eaten Lang? ask me again. not yet brother, mother does not cook! say Gilang "


" Yes, you want to make noodles, do you want to? ask me again on Gilang ". Want my brother laper daritd, replied Gilang "


Then I made noodles for me and my sister.


" It's Lang his noodles already jd,ayo quickly eat! I said to Gilang."


after finishing the noodles then he paid to play in the field in front of my house.


" my sister played first in the front room."


" well but not late in the afternoon y-dek home! I said to Gilang."


Then Gilang passed away, not long after my father came.


" assalammualaikum's chat... "


" wa'alaikumsalam, you just got home? mom's dad from me coming home from school until now no huh? did you go to Grandma's house? tp usually mommy if you want to go to grandma's house will tell me. ask me to dad."


" Tasya I want to talk, but I hope you stay strong and don't be sad son! "


" What do you want to talk about? I feel like I'm so good at gini huh? instantly my heart immediately beat fast my feelings began to feel bad. "


" I hope you can accept and stay strong after I say this to you, this is how your mother's son has left this house, your mother wants to part with me."


instantly my tears fell and my body immediately felt limp.


" so mom and dad are going to split up? but why well haven't I seen all this time you guys are okay.even I rarely see you guys fighting.question me to father."


" not always that looks it's always beautiful and all right baby.Your mother who wants this breakup father has rejected it but your mother still wants to separate from father."


" Are you not thinking about my fate and Gilang well? what would our fate be to be separated from our parents who are very dear to us."


" Okay, I'll try to talk to your mother to fix and defend our household for your sake. "


" Where's your sister Gilang? ask dad.


Gilang is playing well in the front room, I replied."


" call Gilang, tell him to come home first and take you to grandma's house to pick up your mother."


" Good dad, I said "


then I rushed to call my sister.


" want kamana, brother? say hello to Gilang's friend."


" uh Bud you saw a cross? ask me. "


" Gilang is on the field kak is playing ball." replied Budi.


I rushed to my sister too.


it turns out that my sister has dysna playing ball.


" Cruel..Gilang... let's go home deck awaited father at home, now yes deck do not be long!!" I call on Gilang.


" yes, brother Q will be home now."


finally my brother and I arrived at our house and my father was waiting for us.


" let's get up now, boy! " calling dad


" where are we going? I haven't had a shower!" silang.


" we want grandma to pick me up." I replied flatly.


" loh ko we have to go with everything usually will father pick up his own mother."


" we have followed the deck of the father just do not ask much." then I also passed after the father who was waiting in front.


" let's go, we're ready."


then we went to my grandmother's house after a 30-minute trip we finally arrived at my grandmother's house.


" assalammualaikum....."


" wa'alaikumsalam.." Grandma replied as she opened the door.


" o.walah.ada grandchildren grandma come here in ndo." we also enter while kissing the hands of grandmother.


" your mother where did you come? your wife where's Sur? " ask grandma.


" is Nina not here, Mom? did Nina also tell you that we have a problem? say dad to grandma.


" loh ko even nanya Nina Ndak's mother is here and she's also Ndak if you guys are having problems. Nina's last here was last Sunday in between by you anyway Sur."


then he fell silent while taking a deep breath.


" what is it about Sur? ko mother's feelings so Ndak good gini?what was the matter with you until Nina left the house?can't it be completed properly?kasian your children iki.ibu Ndak willingly if your samo separated." said the grandmother with a soft word


dad just bowed..


" this is Ma'am lately we've been fighting a lot. I also do not understand why Nina so changed.so he was familiar with our neighbors who named often d call mami he jd rarely at home.every time I go home to work he was not there.until the children ate it was not regularly because nina rarely cooks.every time I reprimand her she certainly does not accept and eventually will inevitably lead to a storm.


" co can Nina like that.trus where did she go Sur? "ask grandma to dad.


" this morning when we had a storm and then Nina said she was going to leave the house and ask for a divorce, but I thought it was just an emotional talk. but it turns out Nina did that she actually left the house."


" my intention here is I'm going to pick up Nina and want to keep our household for the sake of the kids." but it turns out Nina isn't here, so where is she?"


I cried hearing my father's story.


" o Allah Nina why did you become like this, when mother was very happy to see you always get along well." said the grandmother softly while crying.


" then I need to find Nina where's Mom? I was really confused especially the children kept asking for his mother and did not want us to separate" said the father in a clean slur


" let's ask Wino who knows he's going to Wanto's house."


Wanto is Nina's younger sister, Nina and Anto are very close to Karno Wanto often visit our house.


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Chapter ll


" Good Mom then I will go to Wanto's house now I put the children first here yes Mom" said the father to the grandmother


" yes Sur you are careful to solve your problems, I just hope that your household can be repaired pity their children are still in desperate need of attention and affection from intact parents."


grandma named grandma Ardah she is the mother of my mother.


" i also hope like that, Mom but if Nina stays clean hard want to part I can what Mom?not that the household must be fought by both." said the father to the grandmother.


" yes Sur but I hope you are not divorced. Mother will always pray for you dear mother with you and the grandchildren of the mother." said the grandmother with a soft voice


" i say ma'am, pray everything is fine and Nina will come home with me, assalammualaikum.."


" mother will always pray for the best for you, wa'alaikumsalam. "


father immediately rushed to the house om Wanto to pick up mother without saying goodbye to us because father hurriedly.


" whose daddy's grandma?" ask my grandmother


" dad was gone to the house om Wanto ndo."


" loh ko father did not invite me and Gilang nek, why Dad also did not say the same we if you want to pick up mother.kan I want to come with nek, nek,I'd love to meet mom and tell her not to leave us." I told Grandma with a soft voice and tears that would endlessly wet my cheeks.


" the ndo side hugged grandma." said the grandmother with tears.I also approached the grandmother and immediately hugged her tightly while crying so naturally.


grandma immediately hugged me while stroking my hair.


" you don't cry ndo, your mother and father love you very much.grandmother is sure they don't actually want to be like this, but grandma always pray that your father and mother never part" said grandma menenagankan me.


" yeah I really hope they will never part, because I will never be able to imagine what my life would be like without Meraka. moreover, I often see my friends whose parents are separated, they do not get affection nek." I said in a hoarse voice because I kept crying.


" don't think like that, your life will definitely be better.let's pray magrib together while we pray that your mother and father will not be divorced" said grandma


I let go of my arms from my grandmother and rushed to fetch water for the magrib prayer.


after traveling 20 minutes finally Surya arrived at the home of Wanto. because the distance of the house of the grandmother of ardah to the house of om Wanto is not too far away.


" assalammualaikum.."


" wa'alaikumsalam." replied Aunt Dea as she opened the door


Aunt Dea his wife om Wanto.


" what's the matter Surya ko tumben here himself? where's Nina's mom ?" dea asked, letting Surya in.


" Wanto there's Dea?" ask Surya


" oh there is a mas, a while yes I call first.want to drink what mas?"


" well, anything is Dea." replied Surya


" all right wait a minute, mas, I call dlu mas Wanto."


it had been 15 minutes I waited but Wanto still did not come out too. Finally after waiting for half an hour Wanto was out.


" what's wrong, mas? ko tumben here himself? "


ask Wanto


" i want to find Nina Wan, is she here? I've been looking for my mom's house but she's not there so I'm here."


" loh ko even nanya to me mas where I know mbak Nina where. people mbak Nina rarely come here. "


suddenly Dea's wife Wanto came to bring a drink while saying


" so mas if you have a wife that is guarded while there do not until he feels uncomfortable and then leave the house, if you go like this mas himself who bothered to find there." exclaim Dea to me.


I also bengong did not expect Dea would say so as to already know if we had a problem.


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CHAPTER lll


" you mean did Dea ko suddenly talk like that?as if you already know our problem, is it not true said Nina's mother is here?because you're so close."


Dea was choked by his own words.


" no ko mas mbak Nina not here I've only heard from the story mbak Nina alone, right mas?" dea said while looking at her husband.


wanto looked at Dea like he was giving a code.


" what Dea said was true mas, Nina's mom wasn't here, and we only knew from Nina's story by phone."


but Surya does not believe in their very clear speech they like to know where Nina is now, why do they hide Nina at Nina's request, I said in my heart.


" you are not supposed to cover up Nina's whereabouts, because no matter how it is our domestic affairs you should not interfere! let us solve our own problems.I intend well to come here to pick up my wife Nina to fix our household for the sake of the children. I can't bear to see them at an age that still desperately needs the attention and affection they have to separate from her mother."


" you only heard stories from Nina, but do not know what really happened" Surya said to the will and Dea .


Surya continued his conversation


" do you know that Nina is close to another man named Hendro?"


since she is often familiar with mami and Bu Ina, Nina's attitude changes drastically.She is rarely at home, but, rarely cook for children until the children are not taken care of.his work is just chatting at the house of Bu Ina and mami. until every time I go home to work he still has not come home. every time I rebuked him he was always angry and challenging for a divorce.


it has been running for quite a long time, and there are neighbors who say the same to me if he is often picked up by a white sedan car at the intersection of the complex. every night.


even I when he was not at home there was a phone many times every time I picked up always on the turn off.sampe finally I picked up the phone without a new voice he wanted to make a sound and it was a male voice.


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CHAPTER lV


" after hearing my voice then the man immediately hung up the phone.not only that I also got a phone bill up to 1.5h in 1 month, before the phone bill never got that much. after I checked to Telkom while I was paying the bill it turned out that many calls to one phone. when I wrote that no then I phone turned out to be idle phone that his voice percis with the voice of a man who called the other day. "


surya then continued his story


" i immediately asked Nina, but I just asked Nina directly replied in a loud voice until there was a fight." and finally she decided to go and ask for divorce right."


I did not answer and I also passed to go to work because it was almost noon I had misfortune.


" i don't know the real problem mas I only heard from my mother Nina if she can't stand the Surya mas who is always rough as mbak Nina." said Wanto and Dea .


" i was never rude at first but I became that way because I heard and learned that Nina had an affair with a man named Hendro."


" i've even found out about the man and there's evidence."


" yes already wa'n if indeed Nina is not here I say sorry because the children have waited a long time at home mother. I'm not going to look for Nina anymore if I want to split up I will agree. child problems let me take care of. women like Nina is not worthy to take care of children." surya said to Wanto and Dea.


finally Surya said goodbye and passed from their house.wanto and Dea just stared at each other without saying anything.


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CHAPTER V


PROV (Nine )


My name is Nina, my husband is Surya and I have 2 children named Natasya and Gilang. Initially my household is fine we hardly ever quarrel. I also carried out my duties as a housewife taking care of my children, until I finally decided to do the business of credit goods. I asked for capital in Surya mas and he immediately gave a large enough capital to me.finally I also did a goods credit, and,everything went smoothly every day I charged deposits to people who edit stuff on me. Until finally I often hang out with mothers in my housing complex.because they take a lot of stuff from me.


until one day I was familiar with mami stela and Bu Ina. mami stela is my neighbor who is known to often date young people because her husband rarely comes home. he also likes to smoke.in the end I also often play at his house just to chat.but long ago I began to follow his style I became fond of smoking and familiar with the young men in my complex who often come to my mother's house stela.tenunya without the knowledge of Surya.


everything went on for quite a while, Surya never reprimanded me, but one day Surya rebuked me with a suspicious and rude tone.


" where have you been Nina all day you are not home, not cooking a messy house, so the children are not care and hungry, why do you just spend all day at home? until your husband comes home you still haven't come home!" said Surya to me.


" why the hell mas? I'm going to take deposits from people who take things from me." I replied with emotion because it was like being in a corner by my husband.


" is it true that taking a deposit should leave your duties as the wife and mother of your children? it must be all day you are outside until the house is not taken care of and the children are not taken care of.mas is quite silent yes Nina all this time you behave like that!but this time mas really made emotions by your behavior." exclaimed mas Surya with a rising voice.


I did not accept it and replied in a high voice as well.


" it's enough mas, I don't want to argue anymore, kalo want to eat can buy ready-made dishes, but the children had already eaten noodles" I said while leaving the Surya mas.


" you now dare to answer like that to your husband Nina? you can be like now it is because of me. You do not appreciate me as your husband.You changed drastically since you are familiar with the famous mami stela often play with young men!!! do you not-don't you now have contracted the behavior of the mami stela?" surya said to Nina in a loud voice.


Nina did not accept it and was carried away by emotions and returned to answer in a loud voice as well.


" what did you say, mas? you're accusing me of being that bad? I was familiar and often chatted at her house but that does not mean I followed her behavior too! if the talk is in the care of you, do not just talk for a long time I am sick of your mouth that always accuses me of not-no!"


" what did you say Nina?" surya said Nina had cut him off.


" it's enough to not talk anymore I'm sick of hearing it!just now that I came you've been angry like this." said Nina as she passed away leaving Surya.


" where are you going Nina?" I screamed while screaming.


nanum Nina did not answer him and left Surya.


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CHAPTER Vl


Surya was really made emotional by Nina, but even though he was very angry and emotional he did not dare to play hands with his wife, because Surya really loved his wife. it's just that he was upset because of the change in Nina's attitude that changed so drastically.


Nina also went to the house of mami stela to vent what had just happened because they were familiar so Nina always confided about her household problems with mami stela.


" uh Miss Surya has come again?" said mami stela with a smile. "you feel at home like her at home until I do not want children and husbands." said mami stela while chuckling.


" i was upset with the Surya mas I just came he immediately asked me all kinds of like accusing me I did not accept and finally we fuss. fortunately the children were not home." said Nina to mami stela with her upset tone.


Natasya and Gilang were staying at her grandmother's house because almost every Saturday after school they were always picked up by Nina's sister and stayed at her grandmother's house.


" jeez pa Surya it's just that. same wife ko very hard if I have a husband like that mending ask in divorce only. for my husband does not like that nin even he never believes the neighbor's talk if I often play with brondong. it's delicious so I'm nin." mami Stela exclaimed at Nina while chuckling.


mami stela does always pomp Nina until Nina finally instigated and followed her behavior.


" yeah really also said my husband's mother was really annoying.he always demanded me to be the housewife I was going to be. at first I was obedient but I ended up being bored as well. it seems good also y so mom is free to do whatever wants this husband does not forbid where husband comes every night just to give money and the morning has gone to work again. my mom's children are not spoiled like my mom's children also have helpers.' said Nina with a feeling of annoyance at her husband.


" yes, of course my husband dong is very according to me nin. so he never neko-neko.alah rather than dizzy thinking of your chatty husband mending us coffee while smoking." mami stela


" yes too, I want coffee and ask for cigarettes huh mih."


"okok, many kopipun many" replied mami.


" nur.nur.." call mami to the maid.


" yes, what's wrong?" sahut nur while approaching his master.


" make two coffees ya nur and get my cigarette d drawer living room" said mami stela to the assistant.


" well, mih." nur rushed to the kitchen.


a few moments came while carrying coffee and cigarettes.


" it's cigarettes and coffee" Nur told mami.


" thank you nur, let's nin in drinking coffee we enjoy not to think about your problem." exclaimed mami while lighting a cigarette and drinking coffee.


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CHAPTER Vll


PROV (Mommy Stella)


My name is Ratna but I am often called by the mothers of this complex with mami stela. stela is the name of my youngest son I have 4 children three girls and one boy2. my first daughter and second son from my first husband because I was married twice. when I divorced my first husband I became a widow with 2 children my life was very difficult because my ex-husband never paid for my children so I was forced to pay for my own children because of my family it is not a person to be. I finally decided to work as a night entertainer in a place where karoke came with my friend. initially I was afraid to work in a karoke place because I had to serve the guests. and if I want to get great tips I must be willing to serve the lust of the striped men. most of those who come from among businessmen who have abundant wealth so they dare to give me money tips large enough.I initially felt uncomfortable because almost every night I had to serve Meraka. sometimes fear and anxiety hit my heart but I never ignored it because I really needed to support my children. Until I finally got used to it and enjoyed it. My work lasted a very long time. until I met the man who is now my second husband.when he first played with me he immediately took me seriously. but I don't believe it because I think I'm just a dirty woman. but he didn't care about me because he wasn't a clean guy he was a loyal customer in the karoke I worked for.


until one day


" i'm sorry if there's anything I can help you with?" ask the man who ordered me through the mami sara owner of karoke where I work.


" i'd like to date you tonight, I've already bocked you to mami sara.and I'll also give you some great tips.do you want?" ask him to me


" well ok I want, what are you out here for?" ask that guy.


" my name is Robi just call me mas Robi." he told me


" well mas Robi." said me while I was massaging his shoulders. I did often do that to attract attention and satisfy my customers.although in fact I often feel angry.


" all right, let's just play outside" Robi said, taking me out.


" well, I mean, we're leaving."


finally we went and said goodbye to mami sara.


mas Robi is of Chinese descent she is Christian. Only this time I get a customer who really appreciates me. she treats me as a lover not as a boking woman. and I was so impressed the first time I dated her.


finally we arrived at a hotel and we dated until morning.


finally we prepared to get out of the hotel, but before we came out, Robi suddenly pulled my hand and I was shocked and fell on her lap.


" what's wrong, mas? make me surprised." I said to Mas Robi.


" i want to talk to you seriously Ratna! hope you will accept it. "


" just talk, man? was my service not good last night? " i was also curious about what he would say .


" it's not that rat, from our first date I was very impressed with you, and I was very interested in you, after I thought I wanted to make you my wife. although we have different beliefs we can still marry and respect each other. My family matters let it be my business. What matters now do you want to be my wife?" said Robi while looking at me deeply.


" a. I, I want a mas but I'm afraid.I'm just a woman of a dirty and despicable night.are you sure you want to accept me with all your heart? I also have two small children" I said softly.


" i told you I want to marry you, which means I want to accept all your shortcomings and advantages. My family's problem you don't have to worry if they don't agree I'll keep marrying you and invite you to live apart from my parents and family. Now only your readiness is Ratna."


" well mas I want.thank you for accepting me with all my shortcomings and ugliness to be your wife."


" well, we'll get married tomorrow, I'll get everything ready."


" well, mas."


finally we went out of the hotel and Robi mas also immediately drove me to my contract. The rest of my children were waiting for me.


long story short I finally married her and had two daughters named Kristina and stela. We bought a house in a housing complex.


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CHAPTER Vlll


" how is nin better? " ask mami stela on Nina.


" well, the cigarettes and the coffee make me a little more relaxed and calm."


" are you staying here?" said mami stela while chuckling.


" no mih, how will Surya mas can-can he further inflamed his anger at me." I replied to mami stela.


" yes already if you want to go home, tomorrow we can make coffee together again yes here" said mami stela.


I finally decided to go home and pass.


when I arrived home I immediately entered the room did not say hello to Surya mas who may have been sitting in the tv room since then. I just passed without wanting to look at him.


" where have you been?" really the wife does not know shame.wandering when the husband is at home." exclaimed mas Surya with a cynical look.


I did not answer it and just passed away like he did not pay attention to it. and Surya did not speak again.until finally we fell asleep in a state of mutual resentment of heart.


" assalammualaikum..my mother's father came home" said Natasya and Gilang.


They went home she was delivered by my sister Wanto.


" loh ko tumben early in the morning you guys are home son?" I say to the kids.


" yes, Bu om Wanto will be away by noon and will probably be home late at night there is an event at the house of Aunt Dea. so early in the morning om Wanto has picked us up."


" oh I see, yes you guys took a shower first it looks like you guys haven't had a bath" I told the kids.


I also walked out to my sister Wanto.


" why don't you go in first, Wan?" askaku. "do not mbak I rush to be ready because this afternoon I have an event with Dea's parents, mas Surya where mbak ko not look?"


" oh well if so, salam for Dea and her parents yes wan. mas Surya is cleaning the aquarium" I replied.


" yes I said yes first yes mbak salam to mas Surya I rush." exclaimed Wanto as it passed.


" yes, you be careful wa'n thank you for delivering the children." I went straight inside.


" dad..ko tumben early in the morning has cleaned the aquarium?" exclamation Gilang.


" uh dad's kids are home yet?at anter om Wanto?now where's the lady don't come in?"


" om Wanto went straight home because I want to have an event with Aunt Dea eat it we've been picked up early in the morning and directly on the shuttle home.even though I'm still at home grandma." said Gilang while singing his lips because he did not want to go home.


" yes, why don't you just call me and let me pick you up later."


" wasn't my father's mind." exclaimed Gilang with a laugh.


" yes, it's noon we play at your grandfather's house, yes with your brother, we leave the three."


" loh ko just three why don't you come along?" ask Gilang in confusion.


" your mother is busy, son, so definitely won't be able to come with us" said the father


Gilang passed away to take a bath. Suddenly Natasya who just finished bathing looking for her mother.


" what mother's father? I'm hungry rich mom gk cook again deh. earlier I did not have time for breakfast because om Wanto rush." said Natasya.


" wasn't your mother in front? if there is no most being in the house of mami stela.kalo you laper later let me buy rice wrap alone all father also have not eaten."


" yes already dad, I want to follow mom to the house mami stela. ko early in the morning gini mom has visited the house of the person anyway.where not to cook again." said I with annoyance.


" lately your mother has been so busy that there is no time to cook and clean the house." said my father.


I also rushed to the house mami stela. The distance of our house is not very close so it did not take long I reached the house mami stela. when I until I saw there are my mother's slippers. I also just walked in without saying hello because the door of his house was open, and would be surprised when I saw mami stela and my mother were smoking together with a loud laugh. honestly, I was really shocked to see my mom like that because she wasn't like that before. mother is an innocent woman and not neko-neko but why after familiar with mother stela mami so changed like this. if you see mami stela smoking I am not surprised because mami stela is already famous if she likes to smoke and likes to date with young people in this complex.


" What's Mom doing here? in the morning the mother has visited people's homes and smoked again. is it worth the woman to smoke Mom? " ask me with a annoyed tone.


" what the hell Natasha are you. can't be polite in front of people? why did you just go in instead of saying greetings, as you never taught." said my mother with an upset tone while keeping her cigarette because she was surprised to see me here.


" had gone home mom also wanted to go home ko. anyhow what the hell I was but then mom came here?"


" i'm hungry Mom at home there's nothing even nasipun mother has not cooked. mother why the hell instead of cooking at home even fun-asikan smoking in people's homes." I cried with a high tone.


" stop Natasya you are really disrespectful! you if you want to eat can tell your father to buy rice packs again and father is on vacation.you this ko more here his mouth is like your father was chatty usually just order it! you are so big can't you not be spoiled? try your example of her stela even though she is much younger than you but she is not spoiled like you who nothing should rely on this mother." said mother scolded me in front of mami stela and stela.


I really sprained with my mom.


" it's true said the mother's father has now changed already busy smape no time for his son" I said as I passed home crying.


" that kid really pissed me off early in the morning looking for a commotion exactly like his father" said my mother.


" nina has not been ignored later also stop alone.Have you relaxed here let your husband and child think how it feels if there is no you. let them respect you more." said mami stela to my mother.again she was pumping Nina.


" it's true that instead of coming home just dizzy just as they are better I relax here.let's stay young." said Nina while laughing loosely.


finally Natasyapun came home crying because he was scolded by his mother.


" you why brother?ko came home crying like that? I got mad at my mommy in front of mommy stela and stela mom says I'm a disrespectful and spoiled kid. Why did mom turn out like that dad?" I said to dad.


" is it true your mother spoke like that? really your mother was consumed by sedition mami stela. it's a pity don't cry later we play with our father to the grandfather's house after the father is done this. We go to your grandfather's house three with your sister." said the father.


" well dad." I went to my room.


I never thought that my mother changed drastically let alone my mother to dare scold and spy on me in front of others and the most shock of my mother was smoking.


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CHAPTER LX


" Natasha.. Gilang... let's get ready we go to grandfather's house while we eat outside dad is done." call dad to us.


soon we went to the three of our grandfather's house.


after a long chat at home mami stela I am also happy to go home. indeed always do not know the time if you have been chatting at home mami stela is very exciting to forget the time.on arrival at home I did not find anyone. the door was locked and then I saw where the key was stored.


" loh ko deserted to where they are, the door is in the key." I said in my heart.


then I went in and immediately went to the bathroom because from morning I had not taken a shower.


" where are they going? but yes let it go. Let me not dizzy with their babbling." I speak for myself.


I also fell asleep until I woke up when it wasa. not long later they came home but they did not say hello.I was just silent not much to ask.


to the next day as usual I prepared the needs of school children and the needs of Surya mas without much talk and mas Surya still did not greet me. I was not too concerned. after everything is finished the children also leave usher in Surya mas all he went to the office.


" Our ma'am left first, assalammualaikum" Natasya and Gilang said.


" be careful son, wa'alaikumsalam."


but not with Surya he did not say hello and talk to me at all.


long enough mas Surya silenced me every time I asked him he did not answer just silence.thank him I was upset. finally I was the same silence. until one day. I was taking the deposit money to Bu Ina's house.he was still my neighbor's house not far from my house even his son was friends with Natasya anaku. when I came to his house, there was a male guest.


" assalammualaikum's chat...Ina ma'am!" call me in front of the fence.


" wa'alaikumsalam.sini enter Ma'am." replied Ms. Ina.


" h here it seems like there are guests yes I'm so gk delicious."


" ah it's okay for me Nin he's my special guest" Ms. Ina replied with a chuckle.


I was silent because I was shocked to hear what Ms. Ina said."


" where is your husband? ko get to dare to enter special guests."


" my husband is on duty out of town for 1 week, the kids are at school. he lives in front of my house but rarely comes home because he also works out of town and now he's back here, we're in."


" well.."


" uh there's a guest here in Miss Nina" said the man.


" yes sir." I replied


" no need to call Mr. Nin, just call mas hafis.seru Bu Ina."


" oh yeah." I replied.


then we talked to the three of us and suddenly he spoke to me.


" Nina do you want us to introduce her brother mas hafiz?" ina said while looking at hafiz.


" ah ngaco aja you in kan I already have a husband when he wants to be introduced to men.indeed I am still single what." I replied with a chuckle.


" yes it is indeed Bu Nina, Ina already have a husband still want to be close to me as long as it is clever so as not to be found out with her husband. make entertainment ma'am to stay young and get attention more alive will definitely be more colorful. sahut mas hafiz to me.


" is there a man who wants a married woman like me?"my answer.


" yes it is clear there is Bu Nina, my husband wants to be with Bu Nina he often see Bu Nina if she wants to go to my house. his name is mas Hendro the person is kind and gentle. indeed he has a wife but he is happy with his wife because his wife can not provide comfort, and he said he was interested in Ms. Nina" said mas hafiz.


I was immediately shocked to hear it because I never knew if it turned out secretly someone was watching me. Moreover, I do not know the person.


" but I'm afraid ah.gk dares." I replied softly


" why should be afraid can hide so as not to be discovered this proof we have also been in a relationship for 2 years not found out with my husband."


deg I was shocked to hear the confession of Bu ina.karna all this time that I saw she was an unpretentious woman even with her husband always looks friendly and can even be said harmonious family. but who would have thought it was all just a mask.


" after I think about it well I would like to introduce the same mas Hendro, but this is a secret that do not let my husband be found out" I said


" well I'll call Hendro mas he must be happy because Bu Nina wants to know him" said mas hafiz with a big smile. mas hafiz also directly called mas Hendro.


***


CHAPTER X


Do not have to wait long phone was picked up by Mas Hendro.


" assalammualaikum, what's wrong, physics?"


" wa'alaikumsalam.mas Hendro there is someone I want to know. people have been a stranger to mas, this is someone here" said hafiz.


" who's a physics, just talk about physics, don't have to beat around the bush I'm having this job." said Hendro.


" i was with Ina and Bu Nina, I said to Bu Nina if Hendro wanted to get to know her. do you want to talk directly to the person mumpung is here" said mas hafiz


" just give me the phone, let me talk directly" replied Hendro


the phone was given to me by Mas hafiz.


I was very nervous because I had never been like this before. During my marriage I never betrayed my husband,I don't know what's wrong with this self suddenly I want to accept other men to meet me.


" assalammualaikum..hallo this with mbak Nina?" said mas Hendro.


" wa'alaikumsalam.iya right mas.iya with mas Hendro?".tanyaku on mas Hendro.


" yes my brother Hendro hafiz.I have long wanted to know with mbak Nina I often pay attention to mbak when passing in front of the house Mbak" said mas Hendro.


my heart started beating when I heard Hendro talking like that. never thought he would talk like that when this is the first time we chat even I do not know what kind of face mas Hendro.


" hello mbak..mbak?? is it still there?" ask me Hendro.


" yes hello mas, there is still ko. I was just surprised that koas Hendro could talk like this when we have never met" I told mas Hendro.


" it has never met directly but if you see me surely mbak know because I often pass in front of the house Mbak if you want to go to the house hafiz. sometime can we meet directly mbak? " ask Hendro to me.


" oh so yes.can but if you want to meet later with Bu Ina yes.because I do not usually meet alone with men mas." I said to mas Hendro.


" well mbak let me later with hafiz mbak Nina together with SMA bu Bu Ina." said mas Hendro.


finally the chat continued for so long and finally we finished chatting and I immediately gave the phone to mas hafiz.


CHAPTER XL


the next day Ms. Ina came home..


" sa.almmualaikum..Nina.." call Ms. Ina.


" wa'alaikumsalam.into Bu." I replied to Ina.


Ms. Ina went straight in and then she came up to me who was fighting in the kitchen.


" busy nin? tumben clock is still busy in the kitchen usually have a chat at home in mami stela." exclaimed Bu Ina to me while chuckling.


" yes, I want to cook for children and mas surya.biar not on fuss.alagi mas Surya more often nagging because I often play at the house mami stela" I told Bu Ina.


" uh tumben in this hour already at my house, what's the matter?is something important?" I asked Ms. Ina.


" ih gini nin yesterday mas hafiz said he said mas Hendro wanted to ask for your phone no so if he wanted to talk to you do not have to pass me ato mas hafiz so it could be that directly." ma'am Ina told me.


suddenly my heart skipped a beat.I did not expect Hendro mas will be that brave when he knew that I was still with my husband.


" well how do I fear Miss Ina because it is not unusual like this.how if Surya mas know could-can die me. besides I do not hold a mobile phone there is also a home phone when I love the house phone on mas hendro.how if suddenly the Hendro phone that raises Surya mas could be dangerous?" I said to Bu Ina.


Ms. Nina was not really a mobile phone because at that time mobile phones were still very rare because at that time more use home phones only certain people who use mobile phones.


" yes, it's easy to just give no phone home later just say keas Hendro if you want to call during your husband's work hours only and Saturday Sunday do not call because there is your husband." said Ms. Ina to give me advice.


" yes, you just give me my house phone, but never call if there is a Surya mas yes" I said to Bu Ina.


actually I was a little afraid to give my house phone number to Hendro mas titah why I wanted to give my house phone number to Hendro mas.padahat I knew the risk must be big if it was discovered mas Surya.


" yes I have gone home first yes nin.later I love you no to mas hafiz let mas hafiz who love to mas Hendro." said Bu Ina as a goodbye and passed home.


really this heart is very unusual between fear and also happy because Hendro wants to know me more closely.what might I have started to be interested in Hendro because of his gentleness and his very authoritative figure. very far away with the chatty mas Surya and never be gentle atopun friendly to me.


not long after that my house phone rang, and when I picked up it turned out to be a phone call from mas Hendro how thumping this heart.


" hello. assalammualaikum.." I said as I picked up the phone.


" wa'alaikumsalam..is this really with Miss Nina?" said mas Hendro


I already know for sure this is what Hendro called.


" yes mbak..ko know if who calls me again waiting for a call from me yes mbak?" ask Hendro while chuckling.


" yes just guessed it because there was Bu Ina came here asking for my phone number. but I asked Hendro mas if I want to call me during my husband's working hours because I don't want to. if my husband finds out because this is the first time I have been in contact with a man like this." I told Mas Hendro.


" well, I also understand". replied Hendro.


it did not feel that the chatter continued for so long from the beginning of Hendro telling about his son and wife to his family conflicts.so with me I told about the conflict that occurred between me and my husband. until finally we are comfortable with each other because Hendro is comfortable with me and I am comfortable with him.


long story short our relationship was getting closer.we often communicate even we often meet our relationship more intense. mas Hendro often give me money. he also often spend me. always giving me what I asked for made me feel more comfortable and happy with her, until I forgot that I was a wife and a mother. I'm really lulled by my relationship with Hendro. because of what I did not get from my husband I got it from mas hendro.Our relationship went smoothly for 2 years without knowing mas Surya and wife mas Hendro. until at last mas Surya began to suspect and know my relationship with Hendro, I don't know who gave his yang.until suddenly when I came home when Surya asked me with questions full of suspicion against me.


" where have you been? all day you're not at home your husband comes home from work you don't even know where the kids are!" said Surya to me.


" abis from the gold market, the children have told me that I will go and they have been I entrusted to Bu through them also I have provided." I replied to the Surya mas.


" what is enough to give them provisions and entrusted to neighbors? will the neighbors notice our children? you are a mother where the soul of your motherhood. almost every day you go in neat clothes are not usually you like this. every question you answer is always from the market. if it is from a market where your groceries you always go home empty-handed! not usually you like this. if it's just to the market and not to meet someone why don't you take the kids?" exclaim Surya with a loud voice.


" yes, the truth is I am from the market, do you think I am exhausted from there and met with whom??obviously I'm going alone and not meeting with anyone. The kids are grown up I'll have a hard time inviting them all." I replied in a raised voice.


" honestly, I don't believe in your reasons at all! I'm sure you don't go to the market but you often meet someone behind me!" said mas Surya.


my heart beat straight away!know from who Surya mas if I often make arrangements to meet with mas Hendro.


" do you think I met who??? who has slandered me to you do not like to believe the words of others mas. I did not meet anyone." answered me looking for an excuse in Surya mas.


verily this heart was very afraid until the time Surya knew that all this time I had betrayed him with other men.


***


CHAPTER Xll


" don't you think you don't think I don't know what Nina is going on. what are you doing behind my back may now I have no solid evidence to accuse you of cheating but I will soon see for myself with my own eyes!" said Surya to me in a high tone.


" you mean what's that talk about you accusing me of cheating?? you always like this always accuse me bad first when I was close and often to the house of mami stela you say me all kinds of accusing me of not-no until I finally relented and did not keep my distance from mami stela. now I go to the market you accuse me of cheating on you. want you what the hell mas? you are indeed a rude man who can never understand the feelings of women always just like this I am really tired of living with you!" I said in a high voice


" don't you think I'm stupid Nina. I've been with you often picked up a white car at the end of the complex alley. You also often call with other men! and even worse, you often receive gifts from men that many new things you have! you are a wife and a mother of Nina, do you not think about the fate of children if you like this???? Where's your conscience Nina?" said Surya with a loud voice.


I did not flinch at all because actually everything that the Surya mas said was all true I did have an affair with mas Hendro for 2 years. but it will be very difficult for me to end my relationship with Mas Hendro because I am already comfortable with mas Hendro he can provide happiness and comfort that I never get from mas Surya mas Surya too she was never gentle and sweet to me. I had thought of just wanting to divorce Surya mas and marry Hendro mas because mas Hendro also wanted to end this illegal relationship and wanted to marry me of course after divorcing his wife. maybe I am very selfish if I choose to divorce and do not think about the fate of my children later but now my mind is really dark.


" what do we want??? you want us to split up?? are we just getting divorced?" I answered Surya.


" so it's true that you admitted everything and now you're asking for a divorce?you prefer that man to your husband and children Nina?" ask Surya.


" i'm tired of living with you You never understand me, you're too stiff you're too rude!" I said to Surya.


" have I been with you all this time, Nina? whatever you ask I always follow you want this you want it always I give." replied mas Surya.


" but not always with gold, I have a feeling that I want to be understood mas. You think with only you always give me money it is a form of affection?not mas not always the money becomes a form of affection, but it is free to discuss the matter of feeling with you because your feelings are too stiff so you can not feel my heart." I told Surya mas.


mas Surya was silent and did not flinch. many times he threw a rough breath.like he was holding back his anger.I also did not speak anymore and immediately entered the room.


to the next day the children have gone to school.only stay me and Surya mas at home.Surya suddenly asked me back.


" you sure you want us to split up? how long have you been in contact with that man?" ask Surya.


" not to mention, was not enough my answer last night if I did not cheat and a man I do not understand" I replied to Surya.


" you do not have to avoid Nina. many people who say you are often picked up by a white car you also often call with men, said mas Surya to me.


" so you trust the words of others more than your own wife?" my sahut to Surya.


" at first I didn't want to believe the words of the people who used to see you at the white car shuttle when I was working. but I already have proof that you often make calls on the phone with the man" said mas Surya.


deg I immediately fell silent not answering because what was said mas Surya is indeed true.I am confused what to answer but I can not dodge anymore.


" do you mean do you know where I call men from?" I said with a weak tone.


" as long as you know Nina there is a telephone bill when I see it turns out the bill is very large and I try to come to the office to pay and ask why the usual bill can explode like this every month it turns out his employee told me that there was one mobile phone number that was often contacted and I asked to be written. when I checked it turned out to be a male voice and he immediately said your name Nina!!! not only is it often when you are outside there are calls up many times but every time I pick up just turned off" said mas Surya with an angry tone.


I just kept bowing and not flinching at all, and Surya kept telling me.


" say Nina who's that guy?? how long has your relationship been?" said Mas Surya while raising his hand to want to slap me.


a big fire ensued until I finally decided to leave the house and ask for a divorce.


" yes I have been in a relationship with other men behind you mas.has 2 years of relationship with the man. for 2 years also I get comfort affectionate attention from him that I never get from you mas. You want me to praise mas? now I'm honest so it's up to you now mas." I replied to Surya.


surya plaques slapped my right cheek so hard that I fell down and my head bounced to leave a blue mark on my upper forehead.


" really women don't know themselves, you brash Nina what I've been lacking all this time? really lady mura**n you Nina! " sury said with anger.


" yes I am a woman who does not know herself, I am indeed a woman mura**n continue now what do you want us to divorce?you're gonna divorce me? please mas I no longer care. I will leave this house, I said to mas Surya.


" really gi**woman selfishly does not think about the fate of your children.it's up to you! " sury said to me.


then he passed by to go to work.


***


then I called Hendro and told him everything that had happened.


" assalammualaikum...hallo why?" I told Hendro in a phone call.


" wa'alaikumsalam..iya what is nin?" ask me Hendro.


" as I had a great fight with my husband it turns out that he already knew our relationship he was very angry with me mas, what should I do if I should just leave the house? because I can't possibly stay here because I know maybe after this my household won't be okay. there will be many more fights that are greater than this and I am tired mas. what should I do mas? if I were to part with my husband would you be willing to part with your wife and marry me?" I asked Hendro with a soft look.


mas Hendro did not immediately answer it seems like he was thinking.then I asked again with a slightly raised tone.


" hello...hallo.mas why just shut up? you mind leaving your wife and marrying me?" I said to Hendro.


" yeah nin mas not mind leaving your wife and marrying you but I am only surprised to hear your husband know our relationship. mas want to ask indeed you are sure to part with your husband have you thought seriously? and you're ready to part with your children because I'm sure your husband will never allow your children to do that with you let alone your husband knowing that you've betrayed him. just think carefully.really I really do not mind to marry you because indeed I really want to marry you and end my household with my wife because indeed I and Sudak's wife no longer match." said Hendro to me.


" yes I know that Surya will not let the children come with me but I have thought about the consequences so that whatever happens I will accept and face it because it is my fault and my choice stay by my side mas and marry me like you promised no matter what happens you will stay with me and will leave your wife." I said softly.


" well mas if as soon as I close the phone first I will prepare to leave here.maybe I will go to my sister's Wanto home later let us meet there only. I said to Hendro.


" well don't be afraid because I will always be with you Nina. replied mas hendro.


finally the chat on the phone ended and I immediately got ready to go to my sister's Wanto house.


***


CHAPTER XIII


(PROV Nina )


After I cleaned up and prepared I immediately went to my sister Wanto's house without telling Surya and my children. I know the decision I made is very risky for me because maybe after this I will lose everything I will lose my children and I will lose what I already have because I know Surya very well he will not let me bring a penny of treasure or anything bought with his money, just so that I feel how difficult my life is without him. and maybe he'll never let me take or meet my kids either. maybe when I'm his wife he'll be very royal with me whatever I want he's always trying to give. but he always warned me not to do anything because until I betrayed him he did not hesitate to take everything he gave me. so I understand very well maybe after this I will lose everything but I am ready with all the consequences because I have gone too far. I am well aware that this is my biggest mistake, but I must accept the consequences, and perhaps God will punish me for my fatal mistake.


it didn't take long for me to reach Wanto's house. I went by public transport because I couldn't drive my own vehicle.


" assalamualaik....Wanto..Uh...?" myrag.


" wa'alaikumsalam.. uh who'd Nina come in with?" dea said to me..Dea is the wife of my sister-in-law Wanto.


" yes Dea I came here myself." I answered softly and tearfully.


" what's wrong mba ko mba crying is there a big problem? mba quarrel with Surya mas? mba story . Dea told me.


I just cried speechless because I was so confused where to start.


" Wanto where is Dea? ask Dea in a soft voice.


" mas Wanto has not returned home mba still d office, maybe soon he will go home for lunch. would you wait until just mba? then let me make cofee yes mba. let mba more calm" Dea told me.


" yes Dea wait for Wanto to come home just now I will tell a story. Now I want to calm my heart first.


" well mba if that now we drink cofee first mba." take Dea to me.


not long waiting for the willo finally came.he was surprised to see me at his house because indeed I rarely come to his house without taking my children.


" do you have any Nina mba? which kids aren't invited?" ask Wanto in surprise.


" children are in school" I replied to Wanto.


" oh.is there anything that looks like you've been crying? did you ever fight with Surya again? already mba spele things do not need to be exaggerated let it be if the Surya ask a lot of questions yes just answer as they are. pity the children mba if to know his parents quarrel continuously.' said Wanto to me.


" i will part ways with Surya wan mas, and maybe the children will join Surya mas." I told my sister Wanto.


Wanto and Dea were very surprised to hear that I was going to part with Surya.


" what is mba? mba will part with Surya mas?" shout them together.


" yes wan I've been round to part with mas Surya and I will also accept all the consequences after parting with mas Wanto whatever will happen after I am ready to accept it." I say with lirih.


" but mba, are you sure you're ready for everything? mba will lose everything mba will also be separated from the children mba and most importantly mba do not pity with children mba at a relatively young age and still desperately need affection attention from intact parents.I can not imagine how their fate mba. what powerful reason makes mba want to part with mas Surya? is there a third person present in your household?" ask Wanto a little bit.


I also fell silent because I was confused to answer what.karna indeed honestly I had betrayed Surya mas with other men. although I always tell about my household to Wanto but until now Wanto never knew if I had a relationship with Hendro mas behind the solar mas.not all my secrets I told Wanto.I am very clever cover up my affair with Hendro mas for 2 years but maybe it's time for all his to be uncovered.


" honestly Wanto I am currently in a relationship with another man named Mas Hendro my relationship has been running for 2 years but now mas Surya already know it so we had a big fight and I decided to part with surya Mas. I don't know where Surya knows my affair with Hendro mas but I don't care where he knows I'm cheating because anyway I cover my affair everything will still be exposed. now I just want to ask you for help for a while can I stay at your house first wan? and I also ask that Surya find me here please don't tell him if I live here" I said to Wanto with a soft look


Wanto was just silent not flinching maybe he was very surprised to hear my story, but this is the time I tell everything because my household will end.


" so Nina has betrayed Surya? do you not think about the feelings of the children with the decisions that have been taken? do you not think about the feelings of your children when you decide to cheat? is it not a pity to let go of a household that has been building for 15 years just to choose a man who just knows 2 years and there is no clarity as to what in the future???" ask Wanto.


so many of the wanto questions that I worried back with my decision to part with Surya mas. but it's too late I've gone too far nowa I decided to stick around and beg Surya to forgive me everything will not go back as good as before the rupture will not be intact again.


" i've been round to parting with Surya wan mas, whatever the risk I'm ready to accept it. It's my fault and I should be able to accept the consequences of what I've done." I replied to Wanto in a clean manner.


" yes already if you already want to part with mas Surya and mba also have thought of the worst thing that will happen after the breakup I will not ask much and will not hinder mba because mba is no longer a child anymore jd I am sure maybe it is the best decision to mba. and I will not tell Surya if he is looking for mba here. mba may stay here for a while but I ask not to bring a man named Hendro here because I do not want to be involved in household problems mba especially here mba who has cheated."


CHAPTER XlV


I just fell silent not flinching with the words of my sister Wanto is indeed all this my fault.maybe I was selfish to decide to cheat when my household was not okay. honestly I regret this but all has already happened I have to keep going because everything has happened.I can not imagine how my fate must be far from my children. but I try to be strong and strong with the decision I have taken.


" yes, I have realized my mistake and will accept all the consequences" I told Wanto.


" yes already have a break first.kalo want to eat mba just do not hesitate." exclaimed Wanto and Dea.


" yes thank you." I reply.


I immediately called Hendro and told him I was out of the house and for a while would stay with my sister until everything was fine and until Hendro finished his business with his wife and take me away from here.


( PROV. HENDRO )


my name is Hendro I'm married to my wife named Ika. Ika is a teacher and I work as a contractor. We have 1 daughter named gia. the age of my marriage with my wife has turned 20 years. gia has just graduated High School and is going on to college. my marriage to my wife is not okay there is often a quarrel with her she is a wife who can never appreciate me she always feels herself independent and has her own income. even he never served me even always I served him.from start taking care of the household to take care of the needs of my son. Initially I did not matter but the longer I got sick of all the treatment. so that finally began to pay attention to another woman.The woman named Nina she is a housewife I often see her when I want to visit my cousin hafiz house. the first time I saw her I was so attracted to her that I tried to approach her through my cousin. I never thought she would respond to me because she was married. but at the beginning of our introduction he was immediately welcome and it seems he was interested in me until finally we got closer and we started to feel comfortable with each other. at first I was afraid and doubtful about the dark relationship we had but the comfort of beating everything for 2 years I was in love secretly and finally now everything must be revealed Nina's husband already knowing our relationship and Nina decided to divorce her husband, she asked me to separate from my wife and marry her. I also do not mind because I have no intention to play tricks on him I will marry him after my business with my wife is finished. I will divorce my wife first and get out of the house because indeed the house we occupy is the house of Ika's parents.maybe I will also leave my car for my son's school fees. I'll leave without bringing anything.


tring...tring..tring..my phone rang. when I saw Nina called.


" assalamualaikum..hallo Nina?" I said to Nina.


" wa'alaikumsalam salam mas, mas I'm out of the house and now I live in the house of my sister Wanto. I've been roundly going to part with Surya mas maybe for a while I will stay at my sister's house Wanto. I've been telling you about our relationship, it's just that he doesn't allow you to come here maybe if we want to meet we want to meet we can meet outside mas." I told Mas Hendro.


" so you're out of the house? your husband knows you're out of the house? how do your kids?" ask Hendro to me.


" my husband doesn't know that I'm out of the house, but when I had a fight with him I told him I was going out of the house and I asked him for a divorce. if my children do not know I am traveling from home even they do not know if I often quarrel with his papa. I can not imagine how Meraka when he knew I went from home. but everything has happened I have gone too far mas.I will accept the consequences if my children hate me but one day I am sure they will come to me." I said softly.


" yes you are calm y nin, you don't have to worry I will stay with you and will never leave you no matter what. we've been together step I love and love you so much Nina. continue what about your parents and your family Nina?" ask me Hendro.


" my family no one knows, including my parents, is just my sister Wanto I told you about. maybe Surya and the children will find me at my mother's house and by then my mother will know everything that happens in my household." I replied to Mas Hendro.


" yes, nin, you calm down everything will be fine. I'll finish my business with my wife after that I'll pick you up and we'll go out of town together and we'll get married there and live there. How do you agree nin?" ask Hendro to me.


" well, I agree with your plan.I will wait for you here.I hope you will not be long to take care of your business with your wife." I told Mas Hendro.


" yes, yes already so I close the phone first yes I am working." said mas Hendro.


" well mas. assalammualaikum." I said to mas Hendro.


" wa'alaikumsalam.." replied Hendro.


no time was approaching magrib.and suddenly there were guests who came to Wanto's house. and it turns out that Surya who came was right he was looking for me at the house of Wanto fortunately I told him not to tell Surya mas if while I was going to stay at the house of Wanto. I listened to Surya's chat with Wanto mas Surya asking for my whereabouts and telling him everything that had happened in our household. and mas Surya also told me that I had an affair then mas Wanto also told me about the children continue to ask my whereabouts and look for me. mas surya said now the children are waiting at the mother's house. mas Surya also said that he would keep our household trying to accept and forgive me for the sake of the children.


I was very sad to hear Surya's words but I could not continue my household I was already comfortable with Hendro mas and I was also afraid that if continued mas Surya will not fully forgive me. so I was round to part even though honestly my heart was very broken to have to part with my children. eventually mas Surya also say goodbye because Wanto did not tell him if I was here.


" mba mas Surya has come home, he is looking for you because the children are waiting for the mummy. he said he would defend your household for the sake of the children and would try to accept and forgive you back. try to think again whether it is not better to just go back to the husband and children mba.they still really need you mba. Do not be selfish in making decisions because now you do not live alone there are children who will receive the impact of this decision mba. try to soften your heart mba, the separation based on the affair will only leave pain and misery mba. although mas Hendro is ready to marry mba and mba currently feel confident with mas Hendro that he can make mba happy all will not guarantee after mba married later because of every bad deed there will definitely be a reply mba." said Wanto advised me.


" I know my woman was wrong and maybe God will punish me for my actions but the rice has become porridge has all happened and now I go back to Surya mas and start from the beginning everything is not it will be as good as before because I have scratched the wound in his heart and I have betrayed it so it is better to finish now than later it will be more sick and complicated than now" I replied to Wanto.


" yes already if indeed mba keukeuh want to stay divorced with mas Surya. I can not say anymore because it was a decision mba. I can only pray for the best to mba.maybe always happy." replied Wanto.


" yes, thank you wan.sorry if I trouble you and Dea because they live here" I said to Wanto.


" it's okay me and Dea don't mind if you'll stay here for a while. because I also owe services to mba and mas Surya if not because you guys maybe I will not be what I am today" said Wanto.


I was silent, and I said goodbye to rest, and Surya went home to his mother-in-law to pick up his children.


tock.tok..


" assalamualaik...Ma?" exciting Surya.


" wa'alaikumsalam." answered my mother-in-law as she opened the door.


I entered with a giant step.I was really tired of my feelings at this time very mixed, between annoyed, angry, hate, but honestly I was still very loving and loving my wife. but I never thought he would betray me with another man.I realized I was not a sensitive man who could always understand what he wanted without him talking. I am not a gentle man nor am I a man who always speaks sweet words to my wife.but deep down I love and love my wife very much. I always try to always obey and give what he wants. Maybe because of my shortcomings he could betray me. I was really disappointed in Nina. no matter how I can still accept and forgive him I don't know but right now all I think about is the fate and feelings of my children. I will try to keep my household from eliminating all my ego for the sake of my children.


" how did Sur have Nina at Wanto's?" ask in-laws.


" no ma'am, just now Wanto said Nina was not there to her house even the lady did not know if Nina went from the house because Nina did not tell her. is it possible he's already gone with the wedge man***n it!" I cried to mom.


" you mean the wedge man***n who?? Nina Nina's having an affair?" ask mom in shock.


" i'm sorry Mom I have to be honest, actually Nina left the house because she had an affair with a man named Hendro. we had a big fight and finally Nina asked for a divorce and said I would leave the house.I did not respond to her because I thought it was just her talk when she was emotional then I left her to the office. but after I came home from work Nina was no longer at home Mom even the children were confused looking for her. earlier I did not want to tell all this to mother but I was confused to say what the same mother.I now must how Mom? I'm really confused. Do I have to accept Nina's request for a divorce? but I feel sorry for Mom's children they still need Nina very much" Surya told her mother-in-law in a soft tone.


the mother-in-law just kept silent not shaking her tears flowing profusely maybe she was sad with her son's household problems.


CHAPTER XV


mother just crying may be the mother is very hit with this incident.the mother is very shocked to hear her son has had an affair.


" pardon Sur's mother's son, I never thought he would dare to do this. Do you know the man? mom is really disappointed with Nina. she also never told anything. continue how the fate of your children if until you divorced? mother please be kind to you Surya please forgive mother's child. Please give her another 1 time to fix it. I'm sure deep down Nina is very sorry for betraying you and she never wanted a divorce. She asked for a divorce because she was afraid that you would never accept it again. maybe Nina is khilaf Sur mother please forgive Nina. not mother defend mother's child but mother does not want you to separate try you see your children how she feels if until you separated? I'm sure that until you separate your children will be the victims and the ones who will be hurt the most. because if until you split up I'm sure you will definitely marry another one be it you atopun Nina because you are still young obviously still really need a companion. and if until that happens, I'm very sure that your two children will be neglected because you will definitely be busy with your new life.Do you not feel sorry for them? try to think about it again." said the mother with a cry.


I was silent at the thought of mother's words, and I confirmed all mother's words. lest until I parted with Nina no one would love my children as sincerely as the affection of her biological mother. I'm really in a dilemma with all this.


" yes Mom mother's words are true.I've been trying to defend my household but what if Nina has been round to want a divorce with me? I can't do anything Mom. Now the decision is in Nina if Nina wants to come back with me and fix everything I will accept it. but if Nina had made up her mind about her decision to part with me I wouldn't force it." I told my mother.


" yes Sur mother who will talk to Nina. I hope you really sincerely want to accept Nina back." said mother to me.


" yeah ma'am God willing I will accept and forgive Nina back and I will defend our household for the sake of the children.I'm sorry ma'am can't be a good husband and daughter-in-law." I say with lirih.


" you've tried Sur, it's just the mother's child who does not know himself. Mother is really disappointed in Nina" said the mother with a soft word.


" yes already Ma'am I will say goodbye to home and bring the children home.Tomorrow the children must go to school.please pray the best for us yes ma'am." I said to mother.


" yes already if you want to go home, I wake the children first they slept quickly.yes Sur mother will always pray for the best for you." said mother.


then the mother passed by to call the children.


" ndo.ndo.wake up your papa has come to pick you up."


" with mommy?" ask Natasya.


" your mother has not met ndo.maybe tomorrow your mother will come home.you are patient yes grandma sure you are strong children.said grandma while stroking Natasha's hair.


Natasha was crying in her grandmother's lap.


" but I just want mom to come home and regroup with us. I don't want dad and mom to split up.please help us grandma please come to them not to divorce." natasha said to her grandmother.


" yes baby, later grandma will talk to your mother so they do not become separated. yes already wake your sister pity your father is tired of going to rest. you also get schooled tomorrow ndo?" grandma told Natasha.


" Lang..Lang.ayo wake up dad has been waiting for us let's go to school tomorrow we have to go to school." I told Gilang.


" i'm sleepy brother, Daddy's coming home with mom sister? " ask Gilang.


" no Gilang, I don't find mom.Maybe tomorrow mom will come home here.and grandma will talk to mommy so as not to part with dad.maybe grandma succeed and mom don't get divorced with dad." answer me to Gilang.


" yes, brother, let's go home."


we also went to see Dad.


" dad.ayo we go home." we cried to Dad.


" let's go, son," replied Dad.


finally, we asked Grandma to go home.


" have you eaten?" ask Aya to us.


" has dad, has he eaten?"


" dad wasn't hungry, daddy was just tired and wanted to rest" he said


finally we arrived home.we did not talk much.I and Gilang did not ask father much because I felt sorry to see Aya as very tired. you go straight to each room we finally rest.


" Natasha, Gilang, wake up in the afternoon, you have to go to school." call Surya to the kids.


" yes my father is awake and preparing, Gilang is also awake yah." replied Natasya.


" yes we will leave soon, then buy breakfast at school yes son.ayah did not have time to make breakfast because I have to apple morning" said the father to Natasha.


" yes, father," replied Natasha.


we finished getting ready and we went in between by dad. while Gilang went to school on foot because indeed the distance of Gilang school is very close to Gilang school house is still in our residential complex.


I arrived at school and then I said goodbye and kissed my father on the back.


" i went in first Dad, assalammualaikum" I told my father.


" yes, son, learn the real thing." replied the father to Natasha.


I also went into class there were many of my friends gathered. Suddenly my best friend Nia surprised me.


" hey Nat, early in the morning was dumb. Come join today we will be divided into dance groups, Nia told Natasya.


" ih you Nia ngagetin aja deh.oh yes today dance art lessons. waduh where I forgot not to bring a shawl. how dong this. I must have reprimanded Miss Ida, she's a bit judes." I told Nia.


" do you see the schedule? pake forget everything.so early in the morning do not be dumb continue so someone is left behind right!" nia exclaims to Natasha.


" yes the name is also people forget, yes already take me to borrow to another class yu. kaya si mika today there is also a dance art schedule deh after our hours are finished. so I can borrow the shawl first." take me to Nia.


" yes, let's go before class." replied Nia.


we rushed to the mika class at the end of my class, and finally I was given a loan by mika.


" uh Nat, you why the hell do ko kanya bengong keep rich again gk focus. you again have a problem huh?? or not given a big stock with your mother." asked Nia while chuckling.


" that's not Nia.I have a problem again but not a supply problem but my parents' problem." I answered softly.


" do you mean you have a problem with your parents? what did you make wrong, Nat? that's why that kid don't be badel!!" said Nia.


" it's good.I'm not a wayward ko is not me anymore there is a problem with my parents but my father and mother who are in trouble. I'll tell you Nia but you promise not to tell the friends I'm ashamed and will be very sad." I told Nia softly.


" yes Nat I'll tell anyone the same story.we'll be friends let's tell you the same story with me, I won't tell anyone." said Nia reassured me.


" i believe Nia is with you, I'm sad Nia my parents are going to divorce.My mother left the house from yesterday.has been looking at grandma's house and home om but mother is not there. I was confused Nia had to find my mother where else.I was also afraid that my father and mother would really get divorced. I can't imagine what my fate and my sister's will be until mom and dad get divorced.I'm confused about who to go with because I can't choose any of them. especially if until they get divorced and then they remarry how lucky I am and my sister Nia, if they already have a new family, they will no longer fully love us, they will definitely focus on their new family" Natasya said with tears in her eyes.


Nia was very shocked to hear Natasha's story because she knew very well that Natasha's parents almost never quarreled because she often played at home natasha even not infrequently during school holidays Nia often stayed at home natasha. even Nia's tears did not feel soaked in her cheeks because she felt sad to hear the story of her best friend, she imagined if all that happened to her maybe she would never be able to live again.


" jeez Nat, I'm really shocked to hear your story. I'm also very sad Nat, you are patient Nat everything will definitely be fine, all will be fine, may Allah soften your mother's heart to open your mother's heart so that she will come back with you Nat." Nia told Natasha.


" thank you, Nia, the best prayer for my parents' household is Nia so they do not become divorced" said Natasha softly.


finally the doorbell rang Natasha and Nia rushed into the class to pick up the shawl and then immediately rushed to the dance art room because today the schedule of dance practice.


finally the lesson was finished today they came home quickly because the teachers will have a meeting so the children are returned.


" Nat you want to go home? do you want to go to my house first?" ask Nia.


" it's good that I go straight home, what's the first play at your house, huh Nia?" natasha asked back to Nia.


" yes already mending you to my house.we chat let you not sad again.anything if you come home surely you will be sad again.at this time your father has not returned Nat." said Nia.


" right too.I must be alone at home but my sister how do you feel sorry she is alone at home.where she is still SD. kaya I turned back to Nia." said Natasha again.


" yes, what if I put you in your house until your father comes home.Let you not be lonely and not sad anymore, but we first let my mother ya let him not be confused looking for me." nia said there was Natasha.


" yes let's say goodbye to your mother" replied Natasya.


they also rushed to the school koprasi to say goodbye to Nia's mother because Nia's mother worked at the school's copration.


" Mom today I want to go to Natasya's house, Mom.mau nemenin him..can you?" ask Nia to her mother.


" may boy, but do not be naughty and macem-macem yes at home just do not wander anywhere. indeed Natasya's father and mother where?" nia's mother asked us back.


" my mom and dad are probably going home from the mall, Mom, so I asked Nia to wait" I replied to Nia's mother.


" oh so.ya you guys are careful yeah don't be naughty." exclaimed Nia's mother.


" yeah we say yes ma'am." said Nia and I say goodbye to Nia's mother.


" yes be careful, son, greetings to your mother Nat." exclaimed Nia's mother.


we also say goodbye and passed.we went home to ride a rickshaw. because my school loot with the house quite far. finally we arrived at my home. my house was very quiet I was very sad when I was going to enter the house because I remembered my mother and then I opened the door it was already my sister with her friends was playing PS. I immediately invited Nia into my room.


" let's go in, Nia, you go straight into my room" I told Nia.


" yes Nat, I'm in." answered Nia.


" you've been home since Lang? have you eaten yet?" ask my sister.


" just not long ago, brother, I invited my friends to play PS so it is not quiet at home.I had bought a noodle kak at the shop Bu Anwar." replied Gilang my sister.


" yes it's okay to invite friends to the house, but be careful not to be naughty ya. ya thank God if you have eaten. Hungry brother where there is no rice, yes already deh brother also mw buy lontong pecel to Bu Anwar." I told Gilang .


" Nia..are you a laper? I laper nih..we buy lontong pecel yu. later let me treat..hehe." invite me to Nia.


" yes, come on, I'm also a very laper." replied Nia.


we went to Bu Anwar's shop to buy pecels.


" ah neng Natasya.mau buy what neng?" ask nu Anwar.


" Mum lontong pecelnya still there? make two yes Mom but don't care." I told Bu Anwar.


" oh yaa neng wait a minute yes mother make it first. oh yes neng said your mother went from home yes from yesterday?" suddenly Bu Anwar asked about my mother to remind me of the passing of my mother.


" yes, ma'am.but I'm looking for a prayer that my mother will return home soon." I replied softly.


" yes neng I pray that your mother quickly returns home yes.neng do not be sad who is patient .neng strong...if neng need anything, do not hesitate if you want to ask for help with mother." said Bu Anwar to me.


" well thank you" I replied softly.


anwar's words made me sad I was really sad my heart was broken because my mother could leave me without a message without telling her where she was going. what is my fault, God, why my parents had to separate when I really needed them.


" hey Nat don't daydream." said Nia.


" ah I don't just remember my mother" I replied to Nia.


" yes I understand Nat, but you do not daydream continue dong you must be strong.Your mother must also be thinking of you at this time remember you same you." exclaimed Nia to me.


" if my mom loves me and my sister why she has to go home, if she thinks about me I remember why she left me without a message and without telling me. I'm really very sad and disappointed in my mother" I told Nia.


" hey can't you hate your mother because after all she's the one who gave birth to you. You still have to respect her and love her." Nia told me .


I just fell silent with the cry because I was embarrassed by Nia and Bu Anwar. finally lontong pecel was wrapped.


" this neng is done. don't daydream or neng don't be moody so don't be too thought of later neng pain try." said Bu Anwar to me.


" yes, ma'am.cuma again just same mother.yes already ma'am excuse me." I told Bu Anwar.


" yes mango neng, beware yes do not melamu if quiet at home play here there is Fuji" said Bu Anwar to me, Fuji is the son of Bu Anwar he is still under my age.


" yes ma'am thank you." I replied to Ms. Anwar. I rushed to go home because my stomach was already very hungry. When I arrived home Nia and I immediately devoured it because it was very hungry.


" Nia if you stay at my house on my permission, not your mother? I don't have any friends with Nia." I told Nia.


" yes, I'll have permission from my mother first, but the wealth is permitted" replied Nia.


" yes, I'll wait for my father to come home, let my father have the same permission as your mother and if you change clothes, let me just wear my clothes" I told Nia.


" yes okay deh, for the sake of my dear friend.tspi promise yes don't be sad anymore don't daydream.there I will always be there for you.hehehe.." said Nia to me.


" hmmmm..I'm very moved Nia you are my best friend.thank you Nia." I told Nia.


" yes, both my dear friends." replied Nia and we embraced.


I could not feel my tears falling down my cheeks and hitting Nia's shoulder.


" hey you crying again Nat? I told you not to be sad don't cry later I follow sad you know." Nia said to me.


" i'm sad Nia, I miss mom. Can I still meet my mom?am I really going to break up with my mom?" I said to Nia.


" yeah I understand Nat, but how else dong we can only be patient and accept sure God's plan must be much more beautiful and better than our plan. I'm sure you are strong you can certainly get through this all. If you don't break up praying that your mother returns again I will help with Nat's prayer, but if your mom and dad are separated, you have to be strong, Nat." Nia told me.


" yes Nia thank you, I will try to be strong and will not cry on" I told Nia.


after much time, Nia and I fell asleep.


CHAPTER XVI


it didn't feel like Nia and I were asleep for long enough.We woke up almost magrib time.


I also went out of the room turned out that my father had come home and Gilang was preparing to teach at the place of the Ghozali Ustadzah.


" you just woke up Nat?" ask dad to me.


" yes, the father fell asleep no longer felt late in the afternoon. there is also Nia yah play here I ask him to nemenin me here.The plan he will stay here nemenin I will tomorrow holiday well. please dad call his mother Nia yeah please help meintain permission with his mother." I told dad.


" yes, I'll take permission to Nia's mother where I ask for her phone number" exclaimed my father.


" well dad later I mintain k Nia y...oh yes Aya has there been any news about mom? have you searched again where mom. I miss well, like I can't if you have to part with mom. I beg you to look for mom until you meet dad. I don't want you divorced with mom.I don't want to part with you guys, I don't want to choose between you. Don't make me ruined dad, just make me confused to choose dad." I said with a cry that I could not hide anymore.


dad was just silent not flinching, but I could see that he was also very hit with my words, father's eyes began to dewy but as if held maybe I did not want to show that he was very fragile.


" here son I want to talk, you should know father is the same as you do not want to happen separation, father does not want a divorce with your mother. I've been looking for your mother but until now I haven't found your mother.I hope you can be patient until I find your mother.I hope you're still in town. don't go far from this town." Dad told me.


" but Dad I still can't if I have to be away from mom I don't want to either until you guys split up. I'm afraid dad, I'm, to imagine it, I was afraid of Aya especially if it really happened. I was afraid that until father and mother divorced and then you married again how my fate and Gilang father. you must be busy with your new family, and maybe later have a child surely all your attention will only be focused on your new child while we are how dad?we will definitely be neglected.I'm afraid of Dad." Natasha told her father with tears and tears.


" it is not necessary to think too far, for sure whatever happens later father will still love you and Gilang will not be able to change the affection in the heart of father to you." said father to nastasya.


" yes, father, but I beg you never to part with mother.


father just kept silent not answering, I also passed into my room again to ask for no phone Nia's mother. After that I told father to ask permission for Nia's mother to stay with me. and Nia's mother allowed Nia to stay at my house.


I don't feel like I've been away from home and left us for 2 months I've given up looking for mom. because it's been looking here and there still do not meet until I think mom has gone with her cheating man out of town. Dad gave up on maintaining his household Dad has decided to divorce. although I was actually very sad, beaten, angry, and disappointed, but I could not do anything because the decision was in their hands. I can only hope that one day father and mother will reunite and we can get together again like dlu.


PROV (NINE )


it does not feel like I have been away from home for 2 months, said Surya's mother has often come to my mother's house to find me. but now he has rarely come again, maybe Surya was desperate and mengikhlaskan my departure. eventually mother also found out my affair with mas Hendro maybe mas Surya who told mom. mother was very angry and disappointed in me because I had made a mistake mother.which I regret because my marriage has 15 years had to separate because my ego can not hold my lust. I left my children and everything just for Hendro's sake.but no matter how angry my mother was to me no matter how much mother to me mother still gave her attention to me mother still cares for me. I still live in the Wanto house because Hendro still can't finish his business with his wife and his work business.so we still can't go together. I also patiently wait for Hendro mas because I am sure mas Hendro will not renege on his promise. today I decided to go home mommy maybe there I will be more comfortable because I feel bad with Dea if too long hitchhiking at home.though Dea does not mind me staying at home until the situation returns normals.


" assalammualaikum's chat...Ma?" I said while opening the door to my mother's house.


it turns out that mom is in the kitchen, even though she is old, she is still diligent in cooking. Mom deliberately cooked because she knows today I will come.


" Sir, I called my mother not to answer that she was here" I told my mother.


" have you come, have you reached nin? mom doesn't hear you call mom's understanding is old so I'm not listening. Mom is cooking your favorite food nin." said mom to me while busy cooking.


" yes Mom is okay even though I don't have to bother masakin Nina, Nina can buy laper" I said to mother.


" owalah just cook begian yes no cape to nin, indeed you do not want what mom masakin" said mother to me.


" it's not so Mom, Nina just doesn't want the mother's soy sauce is old mother should be much rest, but this mother even continue to be repotinated with Nina" I replied to mother.


" yes, you wait in front, let me finish the cooking first, after that you eat and we talk. Mom will be fine soon." said the mother to me.


" well Mom, thank you, Mom, you've always paid attention to Nina" I told my mom.


" you're talking about being rich and open with your mother." said my mother to me.


I smiled and left the kitchen.


shortly after, she called me to eat. Mom had finished cooking.


" nin let's eat, mom's done cooking. It's got your favorite sauce and breakfast.let's eat now." call mom to me.


" yes, ma'am." I replied.


and we ate together. Mom never changed always love and attention to me still treat me like when I was a child. so no wonder my brothers always envied me if my mother always chose love.I really enjoy mother's cooking for a long time I did not eat like this, the end of the meal was finished. then mom took me to the living room to invite me to talk. I know for sure you want clarity from me, until now you have not known the real problem.


" let's go ahead, I want to talk to you." take mom to me.


" yes, ma'am," I answered.


" nin has long wanted to talk directly like this. try to explain to mother what really happened, why it should be like this? why do you have to have an affair with another man?" ask mom in great detail.


" yes Miss Nina will tell everything to mom, but I promise you don't be a mind and sick. Yes, Ms. Nina has made a fatal mistake. Nina has betrayed Surya mas with another man.the man named Mas Hendro Nina has 2 years of relationship with Hendro mas behind Surya, mas Hendro already has a wife and son Bu..but now he is taking care of his divorce with his wife then will marry me and we will go out of town and live there Mom. I hope mother bless my relationship with Mas Hendro ya Bu. I'm sorry Nina has let my mother down." I said to my mother softly.


" mommy is really disappointed Nina!!!why would you make such a fatal mistake? where are your heart and mind??don't you even think about your children's feelings??? you know not Nina, Surya is ready-times come here just to look for you, he wants to defend your household.he does not want to part with you but you are even like this Nina, Nina, you will regret if you continue to obey your ego! you will lose everything Nina!! you are not grateful, you have been blessed with 2 children not everyone can have children Nina, he said, you have been given a life that is not lacking, not everyone can live well not lacking Nina many who live hard lives but they never complain. you have been given enough life to be given offspring but you are still not satisfied you are still cheating with other men.Even men who have married where your mind is Nina?? you really have been blinded by your lust Nina. If you parted with Surya and married a man named Hendro it is not necessarily your life as good as it is today. mom is really disappointed with you Nina! you said you were going to ride with Hendro and go out of town aren't you thinking about your kids?are you going to take your hands off and throw them away to live with that man?" mother said with anger to me.


" mum Jang's emotions later mom's tension can rise again.yes I know Mom I've been very wrong. and I'm sorry I made this mistake but it's too late Mom I've gone too far!!! I hope you can understand, yes maybe I am too stupid and can not be grateful for what I have at this time. but mother does not feel how I feel when married with Surya mas.he is good has given a good life for me.but not all things can be measured with money. I need a love of peace of heart comfort Mom with mas Surya I don't get it all." I replied


mother still can not accept my reasons which according to mother is a reason that is too childish.and mother still does not want me to divorce with mas Surya.


" owalah nin your reason according to mother does not make sense.you are really blinded by your love for the Hendro. anyway mother does not want you divorced with Surya!!come back to your husband and children.If you do not obey your mother you will regret Nina!! do you know what you did was a sinful Nina! you have betrayed your husband and it is a great sin, you have also taken the husband from others you have destroyed the household of others.it is the great sin of Nina! where are your thoughts and feelings Nina? Do not let Allah be angry with your deeds repent before it is too late.do you not feel sorry for your old mother?" my mother said with anger.


" i'm sorry your son is mom, but I'm not happy living with Surya Bu. I know I'm very sinful but all this just happened Mom. I love Hendro Bu mas. and I want to live with her. After I married Hendro mas I promise I will repent and organize your life for the better. and I will make up for all my mistakes by always doing good.I will also invite my children to stay with me. I love them so much I can't part with Meraka either but I've stepped up and I'll accept all the consequences Mom." I told my mom.


" you said you weren't happy living with Surya? after living the household for 15 years now you say that you are not happy with Surya? keep going for the last 15 years, where have you been Nina? why is it only now that there is Hendro you just said that you are not happy? you are now being blinded and lulled by Hendro's talk so you say you are not happy with Surya!" mom said to me.


" mum is enough, my decision remains the same I will still divorce Surya mas and I am ready to accept all the consequences.whatever happens I will accept it Mom." I replied to my mother.


" yes it's up to you Nin, if indeed you do not want to obey your mother's advice. I talk like this because I love you mother does not want you to regret and suffer." mother said while leaving me.


I was silent.I thought it might be true that my mother said I was too blinded by my lust and selfishness.but I was unanimous in my decision to divorce Surya and marry Hendro mas.


I now live in my mother's house since I lived in my mother's house, there has never been a mas Surya come to the house maybe mas Surya has given up and has agreed to divorce.


a week later suddenly someone came when I peeked out of the window it was Surya who came he came without children. I immediately called my mother without opening the door first. I told mom not to tell her I was here.


" assalamualaikum...Ma?" call Surya to mom.


" wa'alaikumsalam...eh Surya just came here again...where do the children of mothers miss them. You are still looking for Nina?" ask the mother to Surya mas while allowing the Surya mas in.


" i'm sorry Mom it turns out that up to this point I still haven't found Nina. I thought maybe Nina had gone out of town with that guy. And now I'm here to talk to mom." say Surya to mom.


" yes Sur, just talk. Mom is ready to listen." replied the mother.


" i'm sorry maybe I'm not a good husband, I've also neglected to take care of my mother's children. I'm sorry ma'am couldn't make my mother's child happy until she decided to leave the house leaving me and the kids. all this time I've been trying to find but until this very second I haven't been able to find Nina. Today I have decided to stop looking for Nina and continue my life with the children without Nina. I have classified Nina. maybe I will also immediately take care of our farewell letter.I'm sorry Mom because she has decided to part with the mother's child.I hope you can understand my decision. maybe that's all I want to say. I say yes Ma'am. assalammualaikum.." said mas Surya to mother.


" yes it's Sur, if it is your decision, you can't do anything else, you can only pray for the best for you. on behalf of Nina, I apologize because my son has done something wrong. thank you for taking care of your children for 15 years this is just one message mothers do not ignore your children even though you and Nina will have a new partner again. children are still children so they remain your responsibility" said the mother to Surya


I eavesdrop on all the chatter of mother and mas surya.real mas Surya came not to look for me but to return me to my mother. isn't this what I expected I wanted a divorce with mas Surya but why when I heard that Surya will divorce me I even feel very sad and heartbroken if maybe I still love Surya mas. but I have chosen my path.I must be able to let go of all this because there is no hope of improving everything.


suddenly my mother came to me while I was thinking about all Surya's words.


" nin have you heard everything? now that you are satisfied, Surya will now divorce you? is this what you want Nina? I'm really disappointed in you." said the mother with a disappointed look at me.


I didn't answer what Mom said, and she left me.


CHAPTER XVII


the next day suddenly someone came to my mother's house and I immediately called my mother because at this time I did not dare to open the door afraid of Surya or the children who came because I was honest not ready to meet them, I was not ready to meet my children I could not answer when they asked why I left the house and left Meraka. my mother rushed to open the door and it turned out that what came was my former neighbor in the residential complex where I lived he was pa Engkus.he was an Amil. and I certainly already know the purpose and purpose of him coming here he must be told by Surya mas to take care of my divorce papers with him.


" assalammualaikum..assalammualaikum.." said Mr. Engkus.


" wa'alaikumsalam..please enter this father's apologies sir who is yes and what needs?" asked my mother while letting Engkus in.


" sorry mother if my arrival interrupts the time of mother.introduces me father Engkus I am the caretaker and Amil in the housing complex of Mr. Surya. what is true this with the house of Nina's parents." said Mr. Engkus while introducing himself.


" oh right, and I'm Nina's mother.but I'm sorry Mr. Nina is not here.so you can talk through me." answered my mother.


" well Mom if I was straight to the point father, yes ma'am, so yesterday Mr. Surya came to me he asked for help to take care of the divorce papers with Nina's mother..with the reason that Nina's mother has been away from the slama house for approximately 2 months, so here I want to ask for approval from Nina's mother to divorce Surya sir, if Nina's mother is willing to divorce please Nina's mother signs this letter because this letter cannot be represented so I leave it to the mother to give to Nina's mother. please mom say yes Mom later 3 days later I will come again here to pick up the letter that has been signed by Bu Nina." said Mr. Engkus explained to mother.


" yes sir I understand, I will tell Nina later." replied the mother.


" yes already so I immediately say yes ma'am, again I apologize for interrupting mother's time.I say yes ma'am.assalammualaikum." said pak Engkus to mother.


" yes please sir. wa'alaikumsalam.." replied the mother.


then the mother drove Mr. Engkus to the front of the house and immediately rushed to meet me. I who had heard all the chatter Mr. Engkus with the mother just quietly did not ask much mother. honestly this heart is very sick when I heard that Surya has taken care of our divorce papers.I don't know why this feeling arises when Surya has filed for divorce.


" have you heard everything Nina?" mother asked me while holding the paper given by pa Engkus.


" yes, ma'am, where's the letter let me sign. Maybe sooner is better Mom." I replied to my mother with broken feelings.


" this is nin, he said in 3 days he'll be back to get this letter.and maybe soon you'll be officially divorced. once again I ask is it true that you are sure you want to part with Surya? if you are still in doubt do not force nin let the mother who spoke with Surya to withdraw cancel this divorce. mother does not want you to regret later on..because regret will not come at the beginning but at the end. I love you Nina mother does not want you to regret and tormented because you are your own nin" said mother to me


I'm really sorry and I want to put things back the way they were. I want to go back to how they used to be, but I can't tell you the truth because I'm ashamed. so I try to look tough pretending to be ordinary even though this heart is so broken!!!


" it's all happened, ma'am, and I'm done with my decision, whatever happens in the future I'm ready Mom" I assured my mother.


I signed the divorce papers and gave the letter back to my mother.


" may your heart be softened, may Allah always protect you and give you happiness" said the mother softly.


my mother left me. I locked the door to my room and cried.


three days later, Engkus came back to pick up the divorce papers that I had signed. Mother immediately gave to Engkus. eventually soon I will officially divorce with Surya mas. I also contacted Hendro.


Tut's...Tut's...Tut.


" hello mas? are you busy?" I asked Hendro.


" hello Nina.no ko.maaf I rarely contact you now I am busy taking care of the project. if this project is in order I will pick you up soon and we will stay together." said Surya to me.


" yes, I hope your business is done soon.mas I want to talk to you. mas Surya has divorced me he has taken care of all of it and I have signed the letter maybe soon we will get divorced." I said to Hendro.


" seriously nin??? yes it's better we can be together quickly, I have registered my divorce with my wife and maybe soon there will be a first court call.but I will not attend." said Hendro to me.


" yes, mas, hopefully everything will be finished quickly yes." I said to mas Hendro.


" you why are the rich nin ko not so excited?are you sorry you have? don't you want to divorce Surya? " ask Hendro.


" no ko mas I'm happy I finally get a divorce with mas Surya and can soon live with you mas. hopefully our problems quickly solved ya mas."


" yes, yes, I hope so too, but nin there are things I need to talk to you about" said Mas Hendro.


" what is mas? just talk." I replied.


" nine maybe later when I leave the house I will not bring anything nin. Maybe the car I am now wearing this will I give to my son for his tuition fee, and the house also belongs to my in-laws.so maybe I'll leave without bringing anything. would you mind living with me starting from scratch again???" said Hendro to me.


I'm honestly shocked to hear all this,because I think Hendro mas it has everything more than what is in the solar mas.karna during contact with me he was always royal and gave whatever I asked so that I was lulled and I darkened my eyes. until I was willing to lose everything, but I have to how else the rice has become porridge has all happened and cannot be restored as before.


" hello Nina? you still there?" ask me Hendro.


the sound of Mas Hendro shocked me and broke all my daydreams.


" hello yaa mas still ko.." I replied.


" why are you silent? you regret that Nin chose me? because now you know I'm like this?" ask Hendro to me.


" eummmm.enggak ko mas.i was listening to you not being daydreaming.I will stay with you whatever happens." my words convinced mas hendro, when I myself now began to be unsure of my feelings.


" well, thank goodness that's it...sorry nin I gave my car to my son because I am just a self-employed job so it does not always get a large income.kalo there is a project maybe I will get a large income but if it is empty project I also will not have any income, so I give my car for sale and the money for the cost of him to go to college so I do not pursue the cost and the living of my son nin. hopefully we can understand ya nin." said mas Hendro to me.


" yes mas I understand. yes already mas if that I want to rest first yes mas." said I to mas Surya.


" yes already, thank you nin you already want to understand my condition.I hope you will always be like this" said mas Hendro.


" yes, mas. assalammualaikum." I said.


" wa'alaikumsalam." replied Mas Hendro while turning off the phone.


I was really in a dilemma after hearing the explanation from Hendro, mas,,,I became more and more hesitant with Hendro whether he could meet my needs while going with me without bringing anything and will start again from scratch. I'm really sorry to have chosen Hendro mas which I thought had everything. But the rice has become porridge I couldn't possibly decide Hendro mas because only because he has nothing. maybe this is a punishment because I have left my husband and children only because tempted by other men.I can only lament my life now after being completely divorced with Surya mas. because mas Surya will not give me Gono gini treasure on the grounds that I came out of the house. I know he didn't give me a dime because he was afraid of the treasure I was wearing with Hendro's mas.


(PROV Natasha )


it didn't feel like my mom had been away from home for 3 months, and I didn't expect it to turn out that Aya would divorce my mom. dad hasn't told me that you're going to divorce mom yet but I overheard a conversation with my neighbor Engkus who works at the religious court.


I was really sad and devastated to hear that my father was going to divorce my mother because it meant that I would be separated forever even if I didn't know where my mother was now. because until now the mother did not tell. mother really disappeared like swallowed by the earth. actually I want to visit the grandmother's house and ask the mother.I also miss the grandmother. but I'm afraid you're angry, Dad,because ever since I couldn't find my mother like really showing hatred for my mother even my father has been frank that Dad does not allow me and Gilang to meet with my grandmother or with my mother's family the other one, while I was pensive in my room, suddenly dad knocked on my door and then walked in.


" nats...Natasha ..can you come in?" ask my father.


" yeah, come in." I replied to Dad.


" Dad to talk, are you relaxed?" ask dad again.


" yes, I'm talking, I'm done working on pr." I replied to my father.


" previous father apologized son.karn father can not keep the promise to bring your mother back to gather with us, but you must know that I have done everything possible to find your mother. but until now I didn't find your mother until I was completely desperate. I gave up trying to find your mother and I decided to end our household.I'm sorry I was too selfish but I'm just a human. hopefully you can understand and accept this fact because I take care of your father's divorce papers with your mother through pa Engkus and maybe soon your father and mother will officially divorce." said my father to me.


I just kept quiet not flinching not knowing what to answer, right now I just want to cry as loud as possible.


" Nat you cry? forgive me son. But I promise you I will take care of you and your sister seriously.You also do not fear the lack of affection from my father because until whenever you are the flesh and blood of my father. so there's no way I'm gonna ignore you" Dad assured me.


" yeah father.I will try to accept this fact, but I'm just afraid that if you change you won't love me and Gilang. especially if you get married again I'm afraid you'll forget us and focus on your new family.I'm not dad.." I told you with a cry.


" it will not be like that, son, I promise if one day father remarries father make sure father will find a new mother who can love father's children like love his own biological children. don't be afraid, son, you're a strong father's son." said the father to me.


" is Dad going to get married again? or do you have a new mom?" ask me dad.


" no son.dad has not thought to marry again.at this time I just want to focus on taking care of you, but I ask from now on you or Gilang never again visit your grandmother's house. because I don't want Aya to dislike me." said my father to me.


" but dad why can't we meet Grandma? isn't grandma innocent? who blames mommy?!" I said to my father in a very disappointed tone.


" no boy, I don't want you to go there because I don't want you to be seduced and advised by them so you don't obey me anymore!" exclaim father with a high tone.


" but how could that be dad???? that's not fair!!! I'm disappointed in dad!!" I answered my father while crying.


" if the word father does not mean not Natasha!!!don't make me mad at you!!!!"father said in a high voice and then he left me.


CHAPTER XVIII


it's been 3 days I didn't talk to dad, because I'm still upset with my dad. Dad took care of me and my brother Gilang. From eating, washing clothes, ironing our clothes, and,until teaching us when we do PR, but still this heart is very upset with my father because Dad has forbidden us to see Grandma.


as usual I went to school in between by my father. When I arrived at school suddenly There was ayu my schoolmate approached me. I was very surprised because we were different classes and not familiar he was my grandmother's neighbor.


" nats...Natasya.wait" yelled ayu to me.


I stopped my steps and he came straight to me.


" uh ayu what's up yu?" I asked ayu.


" it's Nat I got it from your mom, but your mom said don't tell your dad that your mom left this for you" she told me.


I was really very surprised like a dream mother left me a letter because it has been almost 3 months mother really disappeared without news. but today was really like a dream I got a letter from my mother.although only by letter but I was very happy because mother finally told me. I really felt mother has been present again in my life.


" oh yes, yu, thank you very much yes." I said to ayu.


" yes Nat equally.I first yes Nat." said ayu while passing away.


I was very impatient to open and read the contents of the letter from my mother.His heart was pounding.I really missed mom. I did not feel my tears on my cheeks because I was really very happy.I also could not wait to open a letter from my mother.


(LETTER FROM MOTHER )


slowly I opened the envelope when I opened it turned out there was money and a piece of paper.then I immediately read it.


TO MY CHILDREN NATASYA AND GILANG.


" dear mother's children.With this letter the mother wants to convey the mother's apology .the mother apologizes deeply because the mother has left you, you must be upset, you must be disappointed in your mother.You can be angry, upset, upset, and disappointed in mother but mother please do not ever you hate mother because mother can not afford to be hated by the children of mothers who most mother love and love.you need to know son, son, mom here never forgets you for a second. Every second mom always remembers you mother longs to hug and kiss you. forgive mother's selfishness, forgive all mother's mistakes to you. although the mother is not with you at this time but here the mother always misses you you are always in the heart of the mother until at any time. I promise someday we will definitely be together again like before.mother will pick you up. May you guys always be healthy yes son.maybe you guys are always happy.keep yourself mom always miss you. this is money for both of you.I'm sorry mommy son can't be a good mom for you yet. I know maybe your father will forbid you to meet with mom.karna I understand very well the character of your father.but you do not be sad I will always leave a letter to your friend. to treat your longing for your dear mother".


I could not feel my tears falling down my cheeks.I really could not hold these tears.I wanted to feel like I was crying so much but I was embarrassed because I was in class. when I was pensive to myself suddenly Nia my best friend came to surprise me.


" hey Nat....morning is dumb!!!" yell Nia to me.


" ihhh.what the heck do you ngaggetin aja deh". replied me with annoyance.


" yes sorry you were called by diem aja.turns out you are being begong!!!ehh...do you cry Nat?" asked Nia in surprise.


" no ko, no, just a glint." I replied to Nia.


" a lie is so flickering but cheeks are on your shirt that wet!!!you must be crying huh!! why is Nat crying so early?? bullied by boys?? what's abis in your father's temper?" ask Nia.


" so you know.you're wrong!!! I cry but not because of that." I replied to Nia.


" keep what dong? come on Nat.'s story." said Nia curiously.


" just read it." I said while giving a letter from my mother to Nia.


" what is this? ko like a letter anyway?? you got a love letter?? hehe.." said Nia while chuckling.


" yeah you are long time more and more y nyebelin! just read first do not play guessing." I said with annoyance.


then Nia also read a letter from her mother.initially she was ordinary but soon her eyes began to dew. Maybe she was moved to read a letter from my mother. Nia read my mother's letter until it was over.


" jeez Nat I swear I was very moved to read a letter from your mother.so sad to swear...God will certainly soon meet you with your mother.You should not be sad anyway no matter what happens there is still I am your friend who will always be a good listener for you." said Nia to me.


I was very moved by Nia's words.she was indeed a true friend.she was always there when I needed her.she was always a good listener when I was in need of a confiding friend. I am so lucky to have a friend like him.


" yes, thank you Nia you have become my best friend" I told Nia.


then we embraced each other.


today the schedule is empty all the teachers are meeting so there are no subjects. I was just pensive to remember my mother.I really miss my mother. I felt lazy to go home. I finally went home to my brother from my father.Home is not far from my home.


" assalammualaikum...assalammualaikum.wa? " my words to uwa


" wa'alaikumsalam..eh no Natasya..here come in? tumben to uwa's house still wearing a uniform? haven't come home yet?" ask uwa.


" yet wa.tadi go home from school directly here.males go home.yeah already live here aja uwa. kasian you son." said uwa while stroking my hair.


" came to come here, didn't wa? no Nat, Gilang mah rarely here. whereas Deket." replied uwa.


" have you eaten Nat? incidentally uwa just finished cooking let's eat first." take uwa to me.


" no wa, I happen to be laper.hehe." I replied.


" i've got rice and side dishes, eat a lot of yes" Uwa told me


" yes, wa." I replied.


" what about Nat at home? dad cooks? what to buy cooked food?" ask uwa.


" bu keep wa..sometimes if you come home late like to buy at Bu Anwar's shop, I miss mom's cooking wa." I replied softly.


" don't be sad.sok want in what masakin or the same uwa to ngobatin feel miss you with your mother." said uwa to me.


" i want to cook chicken soy sauce wa.." I told uwa.


" yes tomorrow uwa masakin ya. now there you find Gilang first tell him to eat.all you copy change the uniform first, said uwa to me.


CHAPTER XLX


I went home to get a copy and look for Gilang. It turns out that the house is still in the key which means Dad has not come home and Gilang is not home. I want to tell Gilang if there is a letter from mother for us. I was quick to change my clothes and then went to find Gilang. I went to the house of Ivan Gilang's best friend, Gilang,because usually Gilang always play at Ivan's house.


" assalammualaikum.


" uh there's Natasya..seek Gilang huh?" said Ivan's mother.


" yes ma'am is Gilang here?" I asked Ivan's mother.


" there's Nat, I'll call you back for a second." said Ivan's mother.


I was waiting for Gilang outside, I couldn't wait to give a letter from my mother.


" what's up, brother? tumben's looking for me." said Gilang.


" let Lang go home first, someone wants you to show me" I told Gilang.


" what the hell? just be curious." replied Gilang.


" yes that's why let's go home first" I said to Gilang.


" yes, I have been saying goodbye to Ivan and his mother for a while" replied Gilang.


I also waited outside. After saying goodbye Gilang directly approached me. and we immediately went home.


" let's sister what do you want to show me?" silang.


" this is take and you read until it's finished" I told Gilang while giving the letter to Gilang.


" what is this paper? ko even gave me a paper and told me to read everything.males I brother, brother deh who read let me just listen." said Gilang to me


" let Gilang read first, after reading you must be happy." I said with a smile on Gilang.


" yes I have read." replied Gilang as he opened the letter.


" seriously this, brother??? Where did you get this letter from your mother?? the loving mother? where did you meet mom? let's take me to see mom, I miss you so much." said Gilang to me.


" suutttt...don't be noisy deck, later heard the father danger.sister has not met the mother, the letter the mother put on ayu school friend sister who is the neighbor grandmother . You know? and mom also leave this money for us.later we split two.but you promise not to tell dad.now you read the letter first." I told Gilang.


" yes, brother, I know that Dad knew he would be very angry because we are now not allowed to see his mother again.dad is stubborn." said Gilang to me.


" already the deck do not mengedumel aja.all has been arranged by God.now we can only accept and live alone.insya Allah God will always love us the way." I told Gilang.


" Yes, brother." replied Gilang.


Gilang continued to read the letter from his mother until it was finished, and his eyes began to dew. not felt now his tears fell down his cheeks.


" you why Lang? you cry? " ask Gilang.


" i'm sad sis. I remember mom, I really wanted to see mom. but is that still possible?" ask me.


" you must be sure deck, that we will definitely meet with mother and someday we will be together again mother." I answered Gilang.


" yes but how is it, brother?? and when is it???" ask Gilang again.


" God who will love his ways and ways, we can only pray and be patient on the deck. Brother is also equally sad but brother is trying to be strong because our lives still have to continue." I told Gilang.