Don'T Being Domesticated
Dreamtime
That night Ryujin was really taken away by Heeseung, not a good place just now on the road a lot of who came and competed the night. Yes racing motor wild.
Heeseung told her that she was not a good student like most children in school. In fact, he's a brand-name kid if he's out of school, or if he's a gangster in the area, not just him, Taehyun, Jungwon, even Yuna are the kids who join him.
Somehow he can leak all that to her, Ryujin just just know and do not want to interfere.
Now Ryujin just arrived at his mansion, entering by settling the sediment. Just going up the stairs to his room, the dark room was immediately bright and the culprit was Jackson.
Ryujin cursed in his heart, he was caught. Trying to be normal Ryujin finally opened his voice because from then on Jackson just stared at him from afar.
"Dad not slept?".
"You see that clock?". Instead of answering Jackson asked back while pointing at the large wall clock on the wall up there. "Where have you been?". It's really not a friendly tone of voice.
"I just went for a walk and stopped by the minimarket, dad". Ryujin answered honestly but not.
"At least take Kai with you, not even Kai knows where you're going. Where's your phone?".
Ryujin looked down, he remembered throwing his phone into the river so Kai could not track it later. "I threw". Ryujin squeaked almost inaudibly.
"Hahh. you're this..". Jackson narrowed his distance to the child.
"Dad's just worried about you Uji, at least tell me..".
"I'm sorry". Still faithful to sit.
"Yeah, this quick resting test is late".
Ryujin nodded, then took wide steps up the stairs. Entering the room, taking off his original shoes, Ryujin immediately laid himself on the bed.
"You know, I wasn't like this. Because of a girl, I was once very ambitious to be in everything. But because of that girl too, I'm like this".
"Isn't he bad enough for you to make you like this?".
"No, she remains my favorite girl".
Suddenly the conversation between him and Heeseung was passing by him. Ryujin screeched funny, why could a gangster leader was so open with him that he had just become acquainted.
Not wanting to think too much about it, Ryujin secured his lying position to fetch into his dream realm.
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Ryujin has not asked Jackson for permission to take him off the mission, so maybe this is his last day of school here he will definitely miss his friends.
Ryujin went down his big motorbike and walked while confirming his messy hairdo at times yawned feeling still sleepy, until a young man equaled a step beside him, which he did, Ryujin thought it was Kai but when he spoke it was certain that he was not Kai's friend.
"Ryujin's sleep deprivation?".
"It's none of your business".
"Err.. I'd like to treat you to the canteen later, as my apology for the one we saw yesterday".
"No need".
"But I forced".
"I said no need, Beomgyu-sii".
"Oh come on. I won't calm down if you don't forgive me".
And so many of Beomgyu's invitations and appeals, perhaps now Ryujin's ears are numb. Up in front of Ryujin's class he is still chattering, Ryujin enters the class leaving Beomgyu out of a fool's way if Beomgyu starts to get upset with him. Because it's better.
"I'll be back in bed for a break!". Unexpectedly Beomgyu spoke loudly at the door of his class and ran from there with a cheerful face.
"You're close to Beomgyu's brother?". Ask Lia beside him.
"No".
"Then what was that? He's taking you out for a break?".
"Hahh. I don't know, he's been acting weird from the start". Ryujin put his head to bed on his desk.
Yuna seemed to ask what was without a voice to Lia and was answered by her, then shortly Kai entered the class saw Ryujin already there, he intended to invite her to talk.
"Ryujini". Lia quickly stops Kai from approaching Ryujin.
"Don't bother him this time".
By forcing Kai to abandon his intentions, and sitting in his chair, he might talk to Ryujin later.
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Not as Ryujin expected, the break time arrived faster and faster the Beomgyu who was in front of Ryujin's class now. Lazy to deal with his older brother again, Ryujin was forced to endure hunger and keep silent in his class.
Beomgyu initially whistled loudly to continue waiting for Ryujin to come out, but somehow with what trickery Lia did so that the young man could leave from there.
Ryujin had just calmed down, as he felt someone standing next to his desk. At first he didn't want to care but when he heard the voice, Ryujin straightened up.
He Heeseung, was brave enough to enter another class even though this was only a younger class of his level. But the presence of Heeseung got suspicious attention from Kai who had noticed Ryujin at his spell, he stopped Heeseung from getting closer to Ryujin.
"Ryujini".
"What do you need?". Not Ryujin, but Kai answered.
"I have an interest in Ryujin". Heeseung answered, looking back at Kai.
"You can come back later, he's been tid-". Not done talking, Kai speech interrupted by the voice of the girl Kai behind.
"Not what Kai. What's up, brother?". Ryujin is now the mediator of both.
"Just come with me". The remark made Kai look at Heeseung suspiciously and then take turns to look at Ryujin warning him not to obey the will of his upperclassman.
"okay". Heeseung walks over, and Ryujin catches up before actually leaving from there Kai blocks his hand.
"Don't trust strangers". Although he does not understand the hidden meaning of what Kai is talking about but still in 'it's not by Ryujin.
Kai looked at Ryujin's narrow body, which was moving away from his sight. To think that what he did all this time was a mistake.
[Some days before]
"Kai!".
"You're right Jung Kai turned out". Heeseung glanced at Kai's uniformed name tag.
"Do you remember me?". Heeseung asked, because he got a forehead squeak from his younger brother. Heeseung chuckled and continued his words.
"I used to be your upperclassman in elementary school, who wore round glasses, it was me".
"That's been a long time, sorry I didn't recognize you".
"It's okay. You know, I don't like being stale". Heeseung's words started to get serious.
"I remember you and Ryujin disappeared 3 years ago, and now I'm meeting you again. Ryujin, is Wang Ryujin the same person as the girl named Kim Ryujin that I used to love?".
The world is narrow, divided and united. And whatever we try to bury in something, there will be those who dig it deeper or even come out by itself to the surface.
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Heeseung leads Ryujin to the school's rooftop, the same place where he and Beomgyu first met, and fortunately there is no Beomgyu. Heeseung hands Ryujin a piece of paper, puzzled that Ryujin took it.
"Goodoo?".
"Yes.. Do you know Ryujin's address?".
"You called me here just to ask for an address?". Ryujin asked back.
"No, that's not what it means".
"Then?".
"Do you remember the girl I told you about? It was his old home tool".
"Then what's the deal with me?".
"Hem?. You'll know when it's time".
"Unclear". Heeseung chuckled at hearing that
Ignoring the sound of the bell that had been reverberating, the two even sat on the long bench that was there, only the wind became the distance between the two. Ryujin didn't care if his teacher would label him bad, he would never go to school again tomorrow.
"Ryujini". Ryujin who was closing his eyes cleared his throat in return.
"Do you want to hear my story again?". Ryujin just kept quiet as a response but still listened to the young man beside him, because there was no reason for Ryujin not to tell a story.
"You already know about the girl I liked from a long time ago until now. You know, I once gave chocolate and a letter in which was an expression of my heart, I was too cute at that time. However, whether he had checked the paper or not. I'm still waiting for answers from him".
"Are you really that in love with her?". Now Ryujin started to look at Heeseung in search of the truth.
"Yes, of course". Heeseung returned the gaze confidently not one bit Ryujin caught the lie in his eyes.
"He's been missing a long time, isn't he, then why don't you go look for him? Have you given up on him?".
Ryujin does not know what about romance, I don't know Ryujin just follow his conscience.
"I've tried. And almost gave up almost went deeper into the bad stuff. But now no, I think there's still a little bit of hope ahead".
Whether this was just his feeling or what, but Heeseung looked at him as if he was the person he was referring to in his words just now.
"I swear, if I've found it. I'm not gonna let go easily, anymore".
And again Ryujin was made speechless by the words of Heeseung just now.
After spending a very long time on the roof until it did not feel like the bell had rung, the two separated at a crossroads to go to their respective classes and return to their original habitat.
Ryujin still ignored Kai who had kept asking about him and Heeseung did, of course not hounded by Ryujin. Kai unsuccessfully tries to persuade Ryujin to come back and solve his problems with Jay.
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"Dad".
"Hem?".
"Is there any other mission I can do?". Jackson put the cutlery he held.
"What happened to your mission this time?". Ask her back.
"It's okay.just maybe Test doesn't fit in that dad's side". Because Jackson was silent, Ryujin continued. "I want out of the mission".
"What about the other members?".
"They will agree.. And get me out of school too".
"Are you sure?". Ryujin nodded steadily.
Jackson sighed, not wanting to extend it because his daughter Jackson's will nodded "Well, I'll have Yoongi take care of it".
"Thank you".
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This morning he should have been preparing to go to school, but due to his decision last night Ryujin did not do the activity again. He is now in the field of headquarters to learn to shoot, he has long not held the firearm.
Ryujin is ready, in line he stands far ahead there is a target that resembles someone he must aim the bullet there. When he was focused on the target, Ryujin released a bullet from the gun he was holding, the sound released was not loud enough but according to Ryujin it was too loud in his hearing.
"AAC". By reflex Ryujin dropped the pistol he was holding and squeezed his head hair tight while throbbing pain along with the sound of the gun echoing earlier.
Hoseok, who had accidentally seen Ryujin practicing, decided to watch the boy train while he was not busy, but the unexpected happened with Ryujin suddenly squealing in pain and then in a panic Hoseok ran over.
"Yujin! What's up?!".
Ryujin did not answer, he continued to dig his hair hard trying to expel the pain in his head, his breathing roaring irregularly.
"Stop pulling your hair! Ryujin!".
Hoseok panicked because Ryujin still grabbed his own hair firmly. Inevitably he took Ryujin to go to his room.
Once there, Hoseok immediately gave him a sedative and soon Ryujin took off a grin on his hair, drowning on the sofa in the room.
Hoseok breathed in a huff, he put his palm on Ryujin's forehead and neck but his body temperature was still normal. Is this maybe the time? No way, if it was a fast time.
But soon, Ryujin wakes up from his sleep and tries to get up with the help of Hoseok.
"How are you Ryujin?".
"W-what happened?".
"So uncle found you at the shooting practice, you seem to be in pain, what happened?".
"Huh. I don't know". Ryujin suddenly lowered his head gloomily. "I-I'm going home". Ryujin got up trying to walk out even though he staggered a little.
"Let uncle interracial".
"No need, I can do it myself. Thank you, uncle". Final Ryujin shut the door of Hoseok's room.
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Ryujin forced his slightly weak body into the mansion on his motorbike, hurriedly entering the mansion, climbing the stairs and breaking into Jackson's room without permission.
The room was not there, did not forget he locked the door from the inside so he could freely find something there. Opening cabinets, drawers and others in a hurry, and finally a trim in a wooden cabinet in the corner of the room becomes the only hope.
Not money, but something that concerns his life. Of course a safe will always be locked and Ryujin does not know it. With his breath still severed, Ryujin approached the vault.
He attached his ear to the wall of the safe, turned the safe code there to find the 'crack' sound on the code. After a while Ryujin struggled with the spinning object, the sound of the key hinge that opened made his heart cheer and thank Minho who had taught him this.
Right, it's not filled in there with piles of money. But a box in red ati that became the only item there. Ryujin picked it up with trembling hands, Ryujin knew this was not the right move. But he has to convince something.
When the lid was opened, Ryujin reflex closed his mouth in disbelief. Take a small frame there, observe it closely.
There, in the family photo. There was Jackson and his wife who Ryujin never knew, but also a girl between the two. Of course it was not her, unable to hold back her tears, the clear crystal also fell from her nest.
Ryujin wiped his tears violently, took the photo from the frame and then pocketed it on the leather jacket he was wearing, returning the frame and the box to the trim.
Ryujin ran out of Jackson's room into his room, grabbed the pocket of his bomber jacket hanging in the corner of the room, picked up a piece of paper he once thought was useless.
Not wanting to waste time, Ryujin ran back to his motorbike and rushed at high speed to the place indicated by the piece of paper.
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Ryujin stopped at a house, which was a little familiar. He turned his head to the right and left, believing that this was indeed the place the paper meant.
Ryujin clucked from behind a large window there but there was no sign of life inside, grabbing the doorknob to open it but it was locked, with the rest of Ryujin's power breaking the door but Ryujin snorted, his power is exhausted.
Ryujin desperately picked up the big stone in the yard, and unceremoniously laid it on the big window. Making the sound of broken glass echo in the room.
Ryujin enters the house slowly, but when his entire body has safely entered. The surface of his hand was scratched small by the end of the window glass, Ryujin grimaced small. Just about to suck his blood out, Ryujin was made dumbfounded as the wound closed.
Wound's gone. Without a trace, the pain he felt earlier did not feel back, Ryujin rubbed his arms in disbelief.
"Oh my god, what the hell is this?".
His startled activities interrupted by the ringing sound from his phone, Ryujin took the lazy flat object out of his pants pocket. Heeseung's name was written there, and some missed calls from friends and some members of the headquarters.
Ryujin pensively before the green button he sliding.
"Ryu! Where're you? You're not in school?".
"I'm out of school, so can you come here".
"Huh?. a-what do you mean, where are you now?".
"The address you gave me".
A little silence across there. "Okay, wait for me". Unilateral disconnected calls, Ryujin throws his phone on the floor loud enough to make the phone instantly die.
As if not satisfied, Ryujin took a hammer hanging from the kitchen wall and hit his new phone many times like a possessed person.
Once satisfied, Ryujin threw the hammer in any direction. Comb his long hair and walk straight up the stairs, riding one by one with legs that have run out of strength.
There is still some time for Heeseung to come there. Ryujin's legs force him to step into one of the rooms at the end of the hall, the more he approaches the more he is convinced that the room is his.
Ryujin finally touched the door knob, pressed it down, pushing the door weakly. His room, his, but where all his belongings are, the room is empty.
Ryujin flirting, where's all the stuff. Ryujin ran across the room, which belonged to both parents, in contrast to his empty room. The room was still filled with some stuff, of course Ryujin knew there were some items missing there.
Her family's pigura on the missing nightstand, Ryujin again did the same thing when she searched Jackson's room but found nothing. Desperate, Ryujin again gets a flash of his childhood memories.
Run towards the big cupboard that is there, enter it and breathe a sigh of relief when you find something that is engraved clearly on the wooden wall. Something written using a color marker that contains
"Kim So Hee is my mother, she is my favorite woman, Kim Namjoon is my father, she is the man who became my first love".
Ryujin funny grunt also had to reread the graffiti of his childhood at that time was playing hide and seek with his father, he was hiding in the wardrobe of his parents, he was hiding in the closet, feeling bored because Namjoon never came to see him and happened to be Ryujin was holding a color marker
Be he wrote it there although far from neat because of the minimal light that enters. But it can still be read by him until now, and some additional images there that have not been completed drawn because Namjoon who has found it.
Ryujin smiled as he recalled his good memory, it was enough to make Ryujin a little quieter than before. Ryujin got up but suddenly the sound of a loud buzzing shot in his ear plus a picture of So Hee falling while being shot and blood flowing out of Namjoon's body.
"BADDUR". Ryujin covered his ears in frustration.
"STOP!".
"RY!". Heeseung came just in time.
Heeseung immediately grabbed the narrow shoulder he was grasping. "What's wrong?!". Instead of answering Ryujin instead continued to rummage indistinctly making Heeseung confused.
"Shh... Hey, relax.it's me". Heeseung said soothingly.
"Please!"
"Me-they.they're soaring.noah, my parents, k-sister". Ryujin said beheaded.
"Calm down first, I'm here... You're safe". Heeseung brought Ryujin to his arms.
"Not to worry... I'll punish them for you".
...[.RYUJIN POV ON]...
I walked in fear towards the door when I finished calling someone on the phone, I clasped a gun that looked bigger than the palm of my small hand. But suddenly the sound of gunfire filled my hearing senses forcefully, making my sheep throbbing pain.
No, it wasn't from the sound of the gun I was holding.
But in my heart it's not the most painful, it's the crumbling of my heart when my pair of neutrals catches a flash of someone shot in the head. I don't know who it is, but I feel a deep pain in my heart, a pain.
"NO!". Ryujin sat down from his sleep.
"That dream again". I rubbed my face that was already sweating coldly.
It's not the first time I've had such a scary dream after all this time, at first it wasn't the kind of dream I've seen, I've been dreaming.
Dining table, very nice birthday cake, the sound of laughter happiness. It all feels real, in a minimalist kitchen only three but can make the atmosphere around it happy. But one time, suddenly the sound of gunfire echoed making me sting and scream very strong, while looking for the whereabouts of the two people, I lost them.
As I walked, the white floor instantly became blood red. The white sandals were stained with the blood, I quickly ran up the stairs. Banging on the door of the room but there was no answer, suddenly I was holding the same gun when I was in the dream, from his snout came smoke and then the sound of police sirens taking me away from the nightmare.
The dream was always there every night haunting me and waking up in a state of rage, it all felt real chest pain was still clearly felt, tears were flowing in my cheeks, I felt everything.
Ryujin wiped his face, not wanting to get too washed away in his nightmares. I'd better clean up and go to headquarters to practice, the monologue.
But unfortunately, in the middle of training I again felt pain in my head. And those many things appeared more clearly, making some of the memory memories in my brain burst out.
The one thing I caught from that shit is, my place isn't here...
...[.RYUJIN POV OFF]...