Enough In The Heart
Ayu Diary.

After dinner, Marco pulls Icha's hand into the bedroom. Icha's behavior toying with her adrenaline earlier made her have to avenge the beautiful woman.

Ninda just smiled and shook her head at the behavior of the father.

"They are romantic yes, non... From the beginning of marriage until now they were always romantic." Said Aunt Hartini, an old woman who had served the Guatalla family from before Marco and Icha were married. In fact he was a living witness to how the twists and turns of this household walked with their two children for decades. At the age of 63, he still serves Marco and Icha. He chose not to marry because he preferred to work and serve the Guatalla family. In fact, Icha always urged her to marry and have children, but she always refused for various reasons. The family in the village did not want to force and follow the decision of aunt Hartini. Moreover, Marco and Icha have been too much help the economy of the Hartini family in the village.

"Tales dong, bi... papa tuh mama how was it? Where is it found? How come you want to be like that cold papa?" Tanya Ninda was enthusiastic. He had never heard that story from his mother.

"huuuuu." Ledek aunty deliberately did not want the story of Marco and Icha's past. Hartini cleaned the dining table assisted by Lia, a young new housekeeper.

"Yeeee." Ninda manyun. "Let's dong, bi." Urge Ninda who paced back and forth following Hartini's steps.

"Tomorrow the story.it's time to rest. If aunty tells me that tomorrow morning will not run." Put auntie down while cleaning the tablecloth. "For sure.why aunt at home until old like this is still in this mansion, it's all because of the kindness of her mother non who finally the goodness is transmitted to her father non." Keep hartini looking at Ninda. "They're good people." Hartini whispered near Ninda's ear, deliberately making the kepo girl more curious.

"Wait..wait...wait..." Ninda held Hartini's hand as she was about to head to the kitchen. "So said aunt, the kindness of mama is transmitted to papa. So, papa wasn't good, was he?" Ask Ninda curious. Hartini laughed a little.

"The non-pa is good, it's just that cold and flat attitude covers his goodness." Hartini replied excitedly but suddenly he shut his mouth and looked left right. "Udah ah, non. do not invite aunt gossip, later can berabe if Mr. Marco knows" he said with a smoothed volume.

"Who's gossiping, bi? We're talking about reality." Refute Ninda. "Aunty should tell me tomorrow, yeah." Ninda's insistence was answered with a nod of Hartini's head.

Ninda went into her room and started to push her laptop while reading an article on youtube. He always read articles or news about mothers and children in the countryside even in the interior.

Cring.. cring...

There was a scream of Ninda's phone ringtone.

"Hello, neng geulis Dian Ayunda, her son aunt Rossa and Mang Haris, who is beautiful..." Instead of saying hello, instead Ninda greeted Ayu with a long sentence and sounded strange. However, having gotten used to it, Ayu just laughed funny from behind the phone.

"Can't you say hello first? Don't have to be that long, I'll forget to discuss what you're about." Omel Ayu with her smooth voice characteristic made Ninda laugh happily. "Well, now I'm talking first while you remember what you want to talk about. Ok?" Ninda was excited. "Gini, now I'm really happy, yu... Tomorrow morning around 3 or 4 am Leon's brother arrived at the mansion. Now brother Leon is again on his way from America to Indonesia, yu..." Ninda's story with passion. "I miss my sister very much.I can't wait to meet her." Ninda continued to chatter without knowing how Ayu's face changed there hearing the name. A name that has always been thrilling, but he closed tightly even since they were children.

"Yu....? Ayu?" Ninda called the caller because she didn't hear his voice at all.

"I. i. yes, yes, Nin." Sahut Ayu stammered. Fortunately they chatted through the air, if only now Ayu and Ninda faced each other surely Ninda would suspect a change in the look of her best friend's face. "Oh yes... Our proposal to Sintariang village has not been accepted yet?" Ayu turned her brain to change the subject.

"Oh.. sorry, I forgot to tell you Moniq." He jumped out of bed and took an envelope with a medical student's license, took a picture and sent it to Ayu. "I sent it. I'll see the letter tomorrow, yeah." His word.

"Ok deh. ya already, istrahat there. I'm going to sleep too. It's so sleepy." Ayu exclaimed while yawning wide until her voice was heard by Ninda.

"Yaaaah? Though I want to talk to you while waiting for the arrival of Leon's brother." Lirih Ninda is sad.

Hearing the name, Ayu closed her eyes and took a deep breath. The pull of the weight of the breath was like there was a heavy burden that he had been carrying himself. However, he continued to regulate his breathing and voice as normal as possible so that Ninda did not suspect.

"It's only nine o'clock, Nin. It's still a long time, Leon nyampe at the airport here." Ayu said slowly. "Mending you sleep first." He further advised Ninda to sleep. "pair an alarm so that she can wake up after Leon's arrival." His advice.

"Yes, that's it..." Seloroh Ninda limp. "Eh, wait... Since I told you about Leon's brother, but you still remember Leon's brother right?" Ninda asked because she felt Ayu's tone was mediocre to hear Leon's name, even though they were very familiar and close when they were children.

Again Ayu held her breath trying to relax and continued to respond to Ninda's questions.

"Yes still dong, Nin..." Answer Ayu accordingly. "Maybe Leon's brother won't remember my face." Slowly follow.

"hahahaha.it could be, Nin. Abis you are so different now. It's getting more beautiful and more auspicious." Ninda teased her best friend. Ayu also laughs at Ninda's mock praise.

"That's because of a piece of skincare you bought." Ayu Refutation. "Sampe I'm lazy with the clothes." Further. Indeed, these two lovebirds have always used the same product from the past. Ninda did not hesitate to buy the same item for Ayu, such as clothes, watches to skincare was the same. Initially ayu refused all the gifts Ninda let alone aabrek skincare with a famous brand that the price is quite draining the wallet.

"Udah ah. You'll be able to sleep if we keep talking." Ayu was already unable to repay Ninda's praise which she thought was excessive.

"Yes, hail bi Rossa, yes. Greetings roll the pineapple." Ninda disconnects the phone and starts setting the alarm at exactly three in the morning.

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While in the modest residence of aunt Rossa, former domestic assistant and baby sitter Leon as a baby, looks lonely. The simple house was illuminated by porch lights that were quite blinding to the eyes.

"Not sleeping, yu?" Rossa's sudden voice rang out from behind Ayu's room door making the girl slightly jerked in shock.

"Mothers... I'm surprised you." Ayu's protest remained with her delicate voice. Rossa smiled and stepped closer to her eldest daughter. "Not sleeping yet?" Rossa asked gently and sat down on the edge of Ayu's bed.

"For the preparation of the permit to enter Sintariang village, ma'am. Just called Ninda." Beber Ayu reported the order of the beautiful girl who really liked the cake made by aunt Rossa.

"hahaha.the kid always remembers his favorite cake." Seloroh Rossa was happy because her employer's son always liked the cake made. "Tomorrow I'll make a rollcake of pineapple, you deliver it." Keep Rossa.

"Yes, mom.." Sahut Ayu obeyed. "Oh yes, ma'am. said Ninda about three o'clock in the morning later, Mr. Leon me landed in Indonesia." Ayu tells her mother, who is Leon's former baby sitter and is also very close to Ninda's older sister.

"Oh yeah? Waaaah. I miss that kid." Excited Rossa pleased. "Later if Leon's already in the mansion you tell mom, yeah. I want to cook her favorite food." Rossa is excited. Ayu simply smiled and nodded in agreement.

Rossa noticed Ayu's change in countenance even though the girl tried to cover up with a cheerful smile.

"Are you okay, son?" Rossa asks who knows one big secret of her daughter, but for the sake of keeping Ayu feeling, she keeps the secret meeting.

Hearing Rossa's question, Ayu smiled again. He tried to calm down and did not show any strange attitude.

"It's okay, ma'am. Just imagine the situation in the village of Sintariang which is still quiet and far from modern technology. I can't wait to feel the cool air of the village." Sahut while imagining the fog and green of the countryside rice fields.

Rossa smiled. He stroked Ayu's head.

"Get yourself there, yeah." Imbuh Rossa soft and avenged nods Ayu's head. "Yes already. Now go to sleep. It's late." Decide Rossa while pressing off the room light switch and replace it with a violet light from the sleeping lights and then out of Ayu's room. Rossa realizes that Ayu wants to be alone.

After the mother closed the room door, Ayu took a deep breath. He stared at the ceiling of the room to keep the tears down and wet his cheeks. However, it didn't work. Still the tears flowed down with agility.

Ayu got out of bed and sat down on her study desk chair. He opened a small drawer that he always locked. He lifted a beautiful book in blue sky decorated with shiny gliter.

*Hai, Diary. I'm coming again. Don't get tired of hearing my complaints about him.

You know, the diary is now up in the air heading to Jakarta. You also know how this heart beat becomes faster than usual.

Longs....

but I also need to know myself. I can only miss him in silence. I had trouble forcing my heart to stop having this taste, but in vain.... 😢😢😢

My Diary... What should I do? This heart does not want to know about the difference between us.

This heart keeps forcing me to keep this love.

But, I can't. So that one day, when he finds his true love, I can give up sincerely.

sis... I can only love you in silence*.