Faithfulness Ratih And Darma
chapter 38

Inayah Pov's.

Ever since I met Mas Husni, I've felt like a very cherished woman. I feel like a very respected woman. Just this time there was a man who appreciated me and treated me very well.

Because the three men who have become my husband, make my mind always depressed. We were in the household in a matter of months.

My first husband, he was a businessman. He wanted to marry me because he wanted to enslave me. She wanted me just to be her maid.

Even in this household, I was often in the closet by him. He is very irritable and will not hesitate to play hands.

I've never been touched by him. I was just looking at her one eye. I'm like an unregarded wife. For what reason do I have to endure if my mind is tormented. I'm a girl too. Need love and attention. If only he would give me an inner living, I would not have sued him.

And after our divorce, I met a young doctor. He loves me so much. But our relationship had to run aground because my in-laws were always interfering with our relationship. They don't respect our relationship. Until finally, I sued him. I can't have a relationship without the parents' blessing.

It will not bring us joy in our lives.

And the third, it's worse than the first and the second.

She is a model. But he is a playboy. He always took his girlfriends to come to our house.

He even said he would remarry a top artist. How my heart doesn't hurt hearing all that. I am a woman after all. I don't want honey either.

I want to be happy with the people I love and love me.

I can't have a relationship like this. I finally sued him.

I was so flattered, with the attention of Mas Husni, his chivalry, his politeness, it all amazed me and caused a feeling that I could not just throw away until now.

Although Mas Husni was younger than me, his maturity made me feel loved.

A month with him made me feel happy. Although happiness for a moment, but I will enjoy it. Being a woman I love is my desire.

And I want to get it from Mas Husni. But is it possible? while I know, Mas Husni loves his wife very much. They also just got married. Will I be a thorn in their home life. But I also want to have a husband like him. Religious husband, pious husband, and faithful husband, also a husband who always praises and flatters his wife.

But I realized it wouldn't be possible. I always wanted to shake that feeling. But I can't either.

How hard it was to live my life in childhood.

I'm a kid who was dumped. I also had to hope that some parents would adopt me.

at that time there was a married couple who wanted to adopt me, I was adopted. Unfortunately, he adopted me just to use me. I was used to being a street beggar. But I can escape from them and go back to the home.

When a problem hit us, our house had to be riled up, because there was a businessman who wanted our vast parlour land.

"Please Sir. Don't drive us out of here. We don't have a place to live anymore." I asked a muscular, burly man, who was none other than a businessman who was going to forcefully buy the land of our home.

"Can't! You have to sell this parlour land to us. Big bosses want this land for the construction of his project." Said the big man.

"You need to vacate this house as soon as possible. Anyway we don't want to know. Otherwise, we will drag you down by force." Said another man looking at me with his sharp eyes full of intimidation.

I cried lamenting the incident. What about my brothers fate? Where should we stay? that house is our only place to live. Do we have to sleep on the streets like scavengers and street kids?

They forcibly kicked us out, until we were cast out and had no place to live.

And at that moment I met Vishnu. He was a big businessman who was willing to accommodate all the children of the orphanage. We even bought a new house.

And along with that, she married me. That Vishnu, he was my first husband who had never touched me an item.

After three months of living with her, I sued her. We, too, have to live a miserable life again. We sleep on the polluted streets.

And I accidentally met Miss Maryam. Miss Maryam is the kind woman I helped last time.

I am also very happy, because Miss Maryam is also a home mom. We children orphanage was finally accommodated by the orphanage Bu Maryam.

And our lives are prosperous. In the end, I also got a scholarship to continue my studies in Cairo. Perhaps this is the beginning of life that will lead us to well-being.

After returning from Cairo, I married a bachelor. But he already has a wife. She lied to me.

But our marriage was just a Siri wedding. So we are very easy to get divorced. We had a lot of bickering and he preferred his wife over me.

And now why, why should I love Mas Husni, who I clearly know he has a wife he loves very much. I've been widowed four times. Why should I fall in love again. Why is my love for Mas Husni growing more and more in my heart.

Maybe love is born of habituation. Well I'm used to Mas Husni at the moment.

Why, why is it so easy for my heart to fall in love. But I'm a girl. I also need a man who loves me, a man who will protect me. Moreover, all this time I never got happiness.

But why should my heart choose Mas Husni. Husni is a kind man. She is also a newlywed. Will I have to take away the happiness of his legal wife?

Do I not deserve to be happy, do I not deserve to get genuine love from a man. Where to the court.

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