FANFIC: BOKU NO HERO ACADEMIA: IZAWA MY VILLAIN
The Chapter 114

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Naturally Izawa was angry , it felt like he was throwing away precious people , then it was the same what he had been struggling all along to be a joke .

Is Izawa going to accept all that ? ...

The answer is no .

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In a messy room, there were two girls who had similar faces arguing .

What distinguishes them from appearance is the color of the eyes, skin and also the height of the body as well as clothing .

It seems that one of them said a word that made the other angry and immediately pulled his collar .

They are Shizue and Izawa, they are currently fighting inside the subconscious .

[I was able to survive because of them, if not then I'd have killed myself a long time ago .

You must understand that we are the ones who return the favor to someone who really merits to us .

So I fought all this time as long as they were okay and kept them having a better future than us .

I don't want them to feel what I feel ]

Izawa snapped at Shizue .he said what she had been feeling .

He loved so much the people who had taken good care of him .the people who had made Izawa come back to feel what it was like to be loved .

The people who have given Izawa a place called home .

Izawa just wants them to get the best . He wanted them to live without worry . keeping the smiles and happiness that they feel on their faces .

Also to keep the kids there have a bright future , like Rika and Matsuri .

Izawa also learns that Matsuri has dreams of being a hero and Izawa supports her .

He will fight for them .

[But what about you ? ]

Shizue who had been pressed from earlier did not panic, he immediately released Izawa's hand from his collar.After escaping , he resumed his words .

[Are you not thinking of yourself ? ]

Hearing Shizue's question made Izawa amazed, because Shizue should have known that Izawa had been struggling with not caring about her all along .

Shizue went ahead and directly held onto Izawa's collar . Now it was Shizue's turn to suppress Izawa .

Indeed, if in the real world then Izawa is much stronger physically, but here is the subconscious, in other words the physical strength possessed in the real world does not affect anything .

Then Shizue said to Izawa in an emotional tone .

[As you say, although we are different but literally we are the same .

You are me and I am you .

We were originally one Shizue Izawa .

We were very rarely injured before, therefore we are used to it .

But suddenly we are tormented both mentally and physically .

What do you think happened to our souls ? ]

Shizue's words made Izawa grow even more astonished, Izawa who was usually smart to analyze something for the time being was confused to capture what Shizue meant .

It was only natural, because Izawa himself had never thought of himself .

Then Izawa said to answer Shizue's words, although he himself was less sure of the answer .

[May be shaken ...... ]

[Yes it shakes ]

But the answer that Izawa predicted was wrong turned out to be correct .

[All that suffering shakes our souls, coupled with your affection for the people in the orphanage makes you have to choose the path as Villain .

If it continues then our early personality is threatened with insanity .

For that as a form of self-protection a new personality is formed, that is you Izawa .

Don't you find it strange why you can adapt so easily ?

That's because right now it's not us who control the main body anymore, but you're Izawa .

Personality is made up of suffering ]

To be honest after hearing Shizue's long explanation she felt a little surprised . because it was only the first time she had thought of this .

He never thought of the reason why he was so adaptable, as if he had been born to do the thing he had passed .

Izawa also suddenly thought of the reason why he had a very different nature at the time when he had not been incarnated .

[Wait a minute, I just realized something . why do I barely remember the memory at the time when I have not been incarnated ? .

Even if not reminded again by Shizue then maybe I never know back Kanna ]

In light of her changed personality & it also had an impact on her memory .

He just reminded me that the reason he died was because of his friend, but did not remember the reason why his friend did it .

Even he forgot the name of his previous family member .

You could say Izawa's personality is now formed to make Izawa mempu live the path he has chosen .

But still .

[What is it? ? , If so then you should just keep it for yourself .

Why is it that if I am formed from suffering . after all it cannot change anything at the moment .

Even I'm fine with it , therefore do gang— ]

Earlier Izawa said his sentence , Shizue immediately looked at Izawa and lunged at him .

Izawa was surprised by what Shizue did .

He lowered his gaze down only to see Shizue suddenly hugging him, even seeing Shizue slightly crying .

[That's enough . I don't want to see her again ]

[ Hey what are you doing ?! quickly let go of me and remove those tears, to be honest it makes me feel uncomfortable ]

Izawa tries to let Shizue go, but he ignores her and instead hugs Izawa getting louder .

[I know it ]

[Knowing what ? ]

[Knowing how much pain you're going through]

More and more tears flowed from Shizue soaking Izawa's clothes .he didn't care about it and then resumed her words .

[As I said before that we are literally the same . That's why I know the pain you endure, be it physical or mental .

You actually want to complain, but you're trying not to do it to make it look okay .

You actually want to express your feelings freely, but you hold them back by deceiving your own feelings .

You actually want a friend to talk to, but you yourself always feel doubt .

Your true feelings want all of that, but your mind rejects them .

You are a strong criminal indeed, but you are also a sad girl ]

A strange feeling suddenly enveloped Izawa .it felt so strange , to the point that Izawa himself did not know it .

He tried to deny Shizue's words, but as if already knowing them, Shizue immediately cut off Izawa's words which left Izawa himself speechless .

[It's not ben— ]

[That's true, and the sad part is you yourself don't know your own feelings .

And also actually you had fun at the time in U.A., you looked happier at the time .

You actually want to be friends with them, but since you think you're a criminal then you can't .

You don't seem to care, but the real feeling is that you want it ]

Shizue was actually worried about Izawa . she was worried about Izawa constantly not caring about herself . it was only natural, because they were once one . it made me pay attention to Izawa .

During this time they become one, but it is because of the torment of AFO that puts pressure on their souls .

As a result those originally named must separate .

Although they were both tortured, but the one who felt his suffering was Izawa, whereas Shizue did not feel it .

He had been unable to do anything since the one controlling the main body was the personality of Izawa .

So now that Shizue wanted to take over the main body with the intention that Izawa could rest and not have to feel miserable anymore, Shizue did mean well .

By the time Izawa was still undercover in U.A., she was enjoying time together with them .

Izawa indeed from outside Izawa looked cold and uncaring .

But actually he felt happy, even he subconsciously considered Uraraka as his friend .

After a while , Izawa finally understood , he understood that Shizue really did intend to help him .

The aura they let out gradually diminished until it finally vanished .

[It is true that sometimes others understand you better than you .

Damn it, it's really a little sad ]

Izawa looked up with a slight smile, even subconsciously he said rudely but he did not care .

He really did not know how to deny the words of Shizue .

[Alright you better let me go first ]

Then Izawa tried to release Shizue, fortunately this time Shizue did not try to fight back, so he succeeded .

Occasional looks Shizue tears flowing from her eyes .

[Alright, since when did you become a crybaby? , you better stop those tears first ]

After Shizue became calmer, Izawa resumed the conversation .

[I feel happy and grateful for worrying about me .

I don't really want you to worry about me anymore ]

[Then— ]

*Wosh—!!

Shizue was already happy because her suggestion was accepted, but suddenly she widened her eyes in shock .

Lowering his gaze to his body, he saw a hole in the heart, but since the world was not real, so no blood was visible .

He raised his gaze only to see Izawa pointing right at his heart with some darkness covering his finger .

That's right, Izawa did it .

[That's my answer ..... ]

Hearing that Shizue knew that Izawa had rejected her suggestion .

[Why did you refuse ? ]

Shizue still did not accept with Izawa's reply, because according to him Izawa had already suffered a lot . but Izawa who heard that immediately shook his head .

[You know Shizue, I've gone too far and can't stop in the middle of the road .

If this is a story then the right role for me is a Villain .

And in a story will definitely end , then I who have started this story must play my role as a villain until this story is finished .

Therefore, sorry for making you sad because of my selfish decision ]

Izawa walked forward and hugged Shizue gently .

[So so ....... ]

Shizue understood , he knew that if Izawa had made a decision then it could not be contested . it was also the same as him if he had made a decision , so he understood .

[Since you've already decided it, then you should do it until Izawa finishes ]

[Of course , and want to just have to see it from inside me ]

Then Shizue's body gradually disappeared into a flake of light which was continued by the slowly crushing of the room .

After Shizue disappeared, Izawa kept silent for a while, without him noticing it, a few tears came down from his eyes .

[It's been a few times I've cried, although now it can be counted as crying or not because this is not real ]

Finally after a while , Izawa managed to calm himself down . then he wiped the tears that came down from his eyes .

After taking a deep breath, he prepared to return to the real world to resume his journey .

[Okay, bed time is over ]

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[Note \= There may be some readers who are a little confused on this chapter, because even the Author himself is a little confused to explain it .

But for the past arc Izawa is done .

Actually the Author for Arc this time is a little longer than what Author predicted .

But, good luck and see you ]