
Imagine if you were a child differentiated among your other siblings, how would you feel? The difference is very clear but not realized by parents, when you ask for money, when you are told this, and when you talk.
Ranizi Liszila or just call me Ran. He is the second child of a simple family that is still complete, there is a mother, papa, also one older brother named Pasha Ina, and a younger brother who is still Junior High named Aditya Karna, who is still in high school, Ran is the middle child among his brothers.
They are brothers but Pasha does not like Ran, her own sister. Wh why? The reason is because in school Ran is known as Pick me girl who is very hated in school. I am ashamed to have such a sister. They are one campus only different classes and majors only.
“He wears how much perfume? Perfume bath, huh? Stung very fragrant, rich I dong little so people will not be disturbed.”
See right? Ran always felt that he was different from any girl or woman. That is what makes people disgusted with him including Pasha the older brother.
“Sana you! Don't mind my business.”
“Hmm yes already no need to be angry, as a good sister I only give advice.”
Ran went out of Pasha's room, he saw in the living room there was Guren, Pasha's girlfriend.
Guren is the son of a judge whose name is fragrant in the city. His father wants Guren to be a great judge like himself, but Guren is not interested, even the man is good at Cyber security. He already works at his grandfather's company as IT.
“Eh no Kak Guren, hello Kak.” Ran sat next to his mother facing Guren. Sweet smile greets Guren. Not that flirtatious, but this is his sister-in-law's candidate, is it wrong to be friendly?
Guren actually became one of the people who did not like Ran, but in front of Ran's parents he behaved in his perfunctory manner, not showing hatred or intimate pretentiousness.
“Ran make tea for Guren,” order Mama Salsa.
“Oh yes forgot, from earlier Mama did this here, time let Kak Guren face off with an empty table anyway.”
Ran moved from his seat. “Wait for ya Kak Guren,” Ran said before leaving.
Guren simply smiled clumsily in response.
While Ran went to make a drink, Pasha also came ready with his neat appearance.
“Aduh mama's most beautiful girl, more beautiful if it looks like this,” praise Salsa.
Guren and Pasha looked at each other and then Pasha looked down in shame. Guren smiled faintly looking at the timid Pasha so.
“Yuk ah go,” invite Pasha.
“Pah, Mah, his son I borrowed for a while, yes.”
“Iya, don't fuck around. Go home also do not be too late.”
Then they left, there was Ran who stood pecking on the spot with a hand that held an established. He stared sadly at the people there, including the old man who did not think Ran existed.
Aditya just came out of the room, Ran who just stared at the people near the door there made him sad, only the boy who understood the position of Ran who always felt alone.
He boldly insinuated. “My sister has made you drink, appreciate a little why?” adit's screams stole their attention.
“Adit! Huuus,” reprimand Ran.
“Kaka~”
“It's okay, if you don't want to drink now it can be stored in refrigerator.”
Guren hears Adit's reprimand but Mama and Pasha tell him not to care. So they just left without tasting a little of Ran's tea.
Ran returns to her room to complete her college assignments, including a bright and active student. Engg ... actually she is also very beautiful even many times beautiful compared to Pasha, just to the cover of annoying nature.
Many like Ran but they do not dare to say because Ran is a bulian material and insults in school, they can get bulian also if caught liking Ran.
“Tomorrow no dues, ask for money thanks not yes?” thought Ran, indeed his mother is stingy if the same Ran. Very different from Pasha who does not need to bother asking for money on Mama Salsa.
This is choosing love without being realized by parents, I don't know what makes them like that to Ran.
Adit opened the door, HP was in his hands, it was very clear that he was playing online games.
“Ngegame continues, is PR ready yet?” sindir Ran with a joking expression.
“Let's go, Brother come here what do you want?”
Ran checked the situation right-left could be dangerous if he had been heard by his mother, then in a soft voice he said, “Help big brother, Dit.”
“What help?”
“Seek money to mama for sister dues tomorrow. Adit knows alone that brother who asked mama rarely want to give.”
“Yah Kak, Adit had asked for money also for the camping fee. Ask again to mama, what reason would you use?”
Ran sighed heavily, Adit had already asked for the money turned out. If Adit asks again, the boy can be mistaken for lying by Salsa, yes even though he lied for Ran.
“Ya already brother try to ask yourself later.”
“Please ask, Kak.”
“Papa kan mama who holds.” With lethargic steps Ran went to look for his mother who was watching an Indian movie on TV.
The middle-aged woman seemed to focus on the spectacle, Ran sat on the sofa while waiting for the film to be an advertisement to easily talk to her mother.
“Ma,” call Ran after seeing ads on TV.
“What?”
“Ask money Mah for dues tomorrow.”
“What other rules? You are money keep, Ran! Mama is tired, can't ya you stop asking for money!”
“20,000 aja Mah, dues 50,000 let the rest use my money.”
“Engga!”
“But ...”
“Engga no mama's money, out!” press Salsa with her hand pushing Ran's body away from her.
Ran was silent then he stood up and left from the presence of Salsa, do not ask again what Ran felt, of course heartache. Maybe tomorrow he doesn't need to attend a college event.
At ten o'clock in the evening the sound of a car outside, Ran went out of the room to welcome his brother who had just returned home with a girlfriend. Usually Pasha always bring food when the road ends with Guren.
When out Ran can see Pasha is already sitting near his mother. Ran walked slowly because he wanted to peek at what Pasha was carrying.
“Ma, this Guren buy fruit, oh yes I forgot tomorrow there is a 50,000 dues for money, Mah.” Pasha held hands.
“Iya this take.” Salsa took fifty thousand money out of her pocket so lightly, but Ran asked but Salsa instead pushed Ran away.
Ran who looked there slowly retreated, he was no longer interested in the food Pasha brought. Ran returned to her room hiding her face under the pillow, she cried out loudly but the voice was muffled by the pillow.
Ran always swallowed the pain of his parents' favoritism. Ran is rarely noticed, it makes him always try to attract the attention of others.
It's okay to be hated by others, all Ran wants is a recognized existence.
“Here I am Ran. Did you guys see me? I exist and live on the same planet as you, please don't ignore me. I'm alone.” That word always Ran shouted in his heart.
Tonight he cried mutely, but believe me tomorrow he will appear with a cheerful face as if he were the happiest man on earth.
Seriate....