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ch 15's. Fathurs

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"Rully.."

Fathur called Rara from outside the room door.

"Lu's fine, right?"

Ask Fathur worriedly.

"I.iya.iya is fine"

Sahut Rara from the room.

Fathur awoke from his sleep when he heard something fall from his room. He thinks something happened to Rara. Worriedly the man immediately called Rara to make sure the girl was okay.

"Lu didn't sleep Ra? That's what fell? You fell Ra? Why?"

Ask again.

Fathur kept knocking on the door. Because, he can't wait for Rara to open the door for her.

Slowly the door opened, Fathur looked at Rara as if he were frightened.

"Why the hell? What fell down?"

Ask again.

"I. that's. the book fell. I can't sleep, so I'm trying to get your book to read. Some fell down a few"

Rara did not dare to look Fathur in the eyes while talking to the man.

"Oh. I guess you're why-why. Or fall out of bed"

Fathur sighed with relief.

Rara gives herself a look at Fathur's face.he tries to judge whether Fathur is a psychopath or not. Because Rara still does not understand why Fathur collects so many photos of himself.

"Pha.. The fa.. Fathur, I'm going home first huh"

rara said stammeredly.

"Kok home? Why Ra? Aren't we going to Andreas' office again?"

Fathur asked with his puzzled face.

"Gu.gue is not feeling well"

Rara replied, the girl's body started to look shaky.

"Not feeling well? Why suddenly? Want me anterin?"

Fathur placed the back of his hand on Rara's forehead. Rara quickly brushed Fathur's hand off her forehead.

"Gue go home!"

Rara said, like a frightened person, then ran out of Fathur's house and went straight into his car.

"Pbu....! Why the hell?"

Fathur follows Rara to her yard. But the girl immediately drove her car quickly leaving Fathur's house.

Fathur fell silent confused at Rara's strange demeanor. Fathur was sitting limp on his living room couch.

He was not inexhaustible with Rara's attitude just now.

He kept wondering why Rara was acting like that to him. Since this morning, Rara has been fine. Fathur went straight into her room, and checked Rara's photo in her wardrobe. The photo was just like the time he left it in the closet.

Then Fathur looked up at his bookshelf. The black box was still in position. There is no way Rara can reach the box, because Rara's height will not be able to reach the box.

Fathur sat on the bed with questions in his heart.

...

Rara had just arrived at her house, she saw Andreas' car parked in her yard.

"That's Rara coming home"

Rara's mother pointed at her daughter who had just gotten out of the car.

"Auntie lives yes"

Rara's mother smiled at Andreas, her favorite daughter-in-law.

"Yes aunt, thank you"

Andreas returned Rara's mother's smile politely.

"Whenever here?"

Rara asked tightly as Andreas smiled at her.

"Well, how is that talking, baby? the husband-to-be came even asked that?"

Andreas looked at Rara in disbelief.

"Why did he come here? Isn't it work?"

Rara's down the tone.

"I miss, that's why I'm here. Why are you, baby? How weird is that attitude the same as mine?"

"I'm tired again."

Rara answered, pretending.

"We go for a walk yuk"

"Where?"

Ask Rara flatly.

"Where are you going?"

"I hate the same guy who takes a walk but does not know where to go, instead ask for an idea of where the same girl. I'm tired already..! I'm gonna take a break..!"

Rara passes leaving Andreas alone on the porch of her house.

"Pbu...!"

Andreas calls Rara, but Rara ignores him. Then go upstairs where the room is.

Rara went into the room and locked the door. He went straight to the window of his room and saw Andreas' car parked in the yard.

Rara sees the man walking towards her car with a grumble and leaves Rara's house.

Rara breathed her heavily. He wanted to tell Andreas that their marriage was better off. But his lips were locked when he saw the man.

Rara still loves Andreas. However, one side of his hatred for Andreas is also very big.

"humfff"

Rara shook her head to cast Andreas' shadow out of her mind.

Suddenly Rara remembered about Fathur's letter written on the cover of the letter. Then Rara took the letters from her bag, and began to open the letter.

***Dear Rara..

I don't know why this feeling was so uncontrollable the first time I met you when we were MOS in school.

So, I ventured to get acquainted with you.

Ra.. maybe you just think I'm a friend, but I have more than just a friend of Ra..!

I would love to tell you directly, but I don't have that courage. Through this letter, I hope you understand what is in my heart.

Ra... will you be my girlfriend***?"

Rara was pensive as she finished reading the worn out letter.

It turned out that the letter had been made by Fathur since several months they met at school.

Then Rara opened Fathur's second letter.

***Ra, I hope you forgive me after reading this letter.

I just wanted to tell you, that I was so jealous when I saw you close to Jhonson, the son of the economics faculty.

I know Ra, you just think of me as a friend. But you need to know Ra, I like you Ra..!

I want more than just Ra's best friend..! I've been holding this feeling for years since we just got acquainted in first grade High School.

but I never had the courage to say it Ra..!

I feel tormented by this feeling. I want to be honest with you. If you can't accept all this, I accept that you stay away from me Ra..

I love you, Ra.. Love you so much as sincerely as I do***.

For some reason, Rara felt sadness while reading the letters that never reached her.

Still curious, Rara also opened the last letter that he had tucked into his bag when he was in Fathur's room.

***Ra, congratulations on the engagement.

Sorry I couldn't come. I reasoned I had the flu, but it wasn't Ra. I don't have the flu, I just can't see you with Andreas tying a promise to get married.

My heart is broken Ra..!

You asked me once, why I never dated at school, and not seriously when approaching women. It's all because I can't forget my first love Ra. You are my first love.

Even if you consider me just a friend. But these feelings I can't control are just friends.

Every time you cry in my arms, I always feel sad and happy. I am sad to see you sad, and I am happy when you hug me.

Even if you only come crying into my arms. But I'm so grateful, at least I'm the first person you remember when you needed strength. I feel so flattered when you remember me when you're sad.

Ra. Now you've made sure you're going to be Andreas' wife, and my purpose for writing this letter is not to bother you. I just want you to know, if you change your mind or you get let down by Andreas, keep remembering me. I'll always be here waiting for you, supporting you and continuing to love you.

Sorry for this meaningless letter.

Ah... I'm really ashamed of my self-informed feelings***. "

Rara closed the letter with tears on her cheeks. He did not expect all this time the attitude and sincerity of Fathur is not as a friend. But Fathur secretly gave it all away because Fathur loved himself so sincerely.

He recalled how good Fathur had been all this time, and how bad Rara had treated him. Rara only comes in when she is injured, then leaves in a happy moment with another man she loves.

Now, when he accepted the reality of Andreas' betrayal, Again Fathur was the port of Rara when the storm hit him.

Rara was crying on the edge of her bed. He regretted how evil he had been to Fathur being sincere to him.

Eleven years of love? who will be strong? but in fact the man was able to do it.