HE'S MY SOUL MATE
anggara's heart and feelings.

the raging feeling in the soul of Anggara who now feels makes Anggara cold to hide all the feelings that are raging in his chest. Salma who sat before her noticed every inch of her eldest son's facial line left her without a second thought by bringing all her selfishness to let a seven-year-old suffer because he's a dozen years old.

salma's face turned sad.that was very excited to meet his eldest son but now it feels to talk it feels like something is stuck in his throat.

"are we just silent like this?!" Yusuf who had felt the awkward and cold situation could not bear to interrupt, breaking the silence in the midst of these five different people of this generation.Robert just wanted to speak up, he said, confine his intention because a waiters came with three glasses of orange juice and three bottles of mineral water.

"excuse me ladies and gentlemen"

the waiters put what he carried in the tray he held one by one onto the table very professionally complete with his friendly smile.

"thank you" said Salma Pelan, smiling faintly at the waiters, who responded with a nod and smiling kindly at everyone sitting around the table.The sea breeze hit their faces, because their position is sitting now approximately only ten meters from the beach with an exotic view.The waves added to the situation to be refreshing.but it seems that all of that is not felt by Anggara at this time. the air around her felt stifling to her. Anggara felt as if the air was difficult to enter his lung space the refreshing air felt cold and moist. he wanted to run to the beach and scream as loud as possible to release the sebak in his chest at this time. his eyes reddened as his gaze straightened towards the beautiful woman whose age was not young anymore. Anggara wants to hear first what will be said by the woman who holds the title as her birth mother.the longing that envelops her heart seems to be covered by a sense of disappointment that is very large. in a beautiful European woman berbaras blue similar to herself.

"bang, should you talk to your mom alone?"

Renita who feels awkward because she feels this is a family meeting that requires privacy and not just that. like her husband and her mother-in-law need to talk from heart to heart, right? so before Renita spoke to her husband Renita had coded Yusuf by looking at each other as if saying "let's get out of here to make room for her husband to talk by his name it's possible that Yusuf could mean from Renita's gaze on her. then Renita also stood up from her seat.Aggara of course shifted his attention to the wife.

"where are you going, baby?" anggara asked with both eyebrows clashing his hands holding one arm of the wife.

"i and Yusuf will be on the beach there, you need to talk from heart to heart with your mama" Renita said slowly and carefully.

Anggara shook his head quickly

"no, there's no need for you to get out of here. Stay here with me. privacy? for this matter you deserve to know because you're my wife so there's nothing to hide"

Anggara stared fixedly at the face of his wife who had stood up from her seat.

"but bang"

"nothing but, but you're here anyway" Anggara said gently with a loving look at the wife and pulled her hand back to sit beside her.

"alright" sounded resignedly said slowly Renita can only obey her husband's wishes and returned to sitting with an awkward smile. because according to him, the current situation is more exactly like meeting with clients to discuss business deals, than a family meeting that should seem intense.Otherwise someone who thinks is very important and special? Renita smiled wryly, but not with Joseph the man stood up and

"i should go there first mas" Yusuf's permission on Anggara his index finger pointed towards the gazebo not far from the beach. Anggara sighed in his eyes at Joseph.

"it's fine if it wants you" Anggara allowed Joseph yes.Maybe Joseph also felt the awkwardness of the moment and for Joseph, too, Anggara can understand who finally let his cousin's sister move to the gazebo that is not far from him at this time.

after Joseph left Anggara again confirmed his sitting position.

"Female" Salma opened her voice slowly, and Anggara still remained silent unmoved.

"sorry, Mama?" with a pleading gaze Salma spoke with a vibrating voice both hands Salma outstretched on the table towards Anggara may wish Anggara to welcome his helping hand. but it looks like it will not happen because the two hands Anggara actually currently clasped his wife's hand tightly with both hands above the thigh Anggara. yes Anggara sought the strength to calm himself by tightly grasping his wife's hand which he placed on his lap.

"sorry for what?" anggara's reply was still in a cold tone. Salma smiled faintly in response to Anggara's words.

"for all the mistakes you've made in your life, dear" however, the longing Anggara feels at this time over the figure of a mother is very large how short his breath saw the tears that pooled in his Mama's eyes. did not want to be carried away emotions, he did not want to be carried away, Anggara turned his face the other way. neutralizing the tantrum that squeezed his soul.then by taking a deep breath and exhaling it violently Anggara said with words that are able to make Salma, and then by taking a deep breath and exhaling it with roughness, Robert and Renita were shocked.

"why do you have to show up again? is not your status that has died makes you more comfortable without having to bother like this, to meet with children who may also have you considered dead" Anggara clucked after saying so because according to his facial expressions Salma and Robert according to his too excessive.

"bang?"

renita and Robert said at the same time.

"you don't know all this time your mama suffered so much from being so far away from you her only son!" Robert was forced to speak in a slightly high tone because he did not accept what Anggara had said earlier.

"Robert, darling's okay" Salma gave her shady smile to her husband to keep her calm. because he understood Anggara's words like that because he was very disappointed in him even though his heart ached hearing such a speech from his son.

Anggara laughed softly and blandly saw the interaction of a foreign man named Robert who is now the husband of a Salma.

love seems to radiate from the spotlight of his second eye and Anggara who does not know anything about the story Salma and Robert felt his mother was betraying his papa. she felt jealous because her mom forgot her papa, died her and chose to marry someone else very upset. anggara's eyes look disappointed at the two people who are now in front of him.

"like her. y'all love each other very much yes" there was a pause in Anggara's initial speech due to her emotions that she suppressed then continued her speech complete with her slanted smile.

conscious of the words of Anggara Salma and Robert turned his attention to Anggara. without letting go of his hand grip on Robert as if he wanted to show at once wanted to explain all what had happened that was not known by Anggara. Salma smiled before she spoke up again the woman looked at her son's handsome face. he had determined whatever the outcome of the story he would tell Anggara later he would accept because he knew his son was an adult to be able to judge what he would hear from the mouth nya.

"this man is Mama Anggara's first love"

anggara's eyes widened to hear an explanation of who Robert was.

he chuckled but not the gladness more precisely sounded like a sneering piety. Salma took a deep breath because of the attitude displayed by Anggara, but she tried to calm down in order to continue her story. Salma does not matter with the attitude of Anggara like that.yes the attitude of a person who is disappointed and heartbroken. Anggara is indeed heartbroken and disappointed with the woman who became his first love.

"can you go on with your mom's story? after this mama hope you can conclude and whatever your attitude to mama, will be accepted" said Salma reassured Anggara.and Anggara was silent as if to give time to Salma tell a story. look at that, see that, Salma began to tell all her stories from the beginning of her matchmaking with Rahman to her decision to leave her husband by giving false news about her death due to disappointment and deep wounds who was inscribed by her husband until his only child who became a victim here and Salma realized it, then it is appropriate if Anggara was disappointed, angry with him. but he is grateful at this time to see Anggara married and happy together with the woman of his choice which of course is based on the same love love no one claps one hand or mutually coercion as marriage his with Rahman. because at that time they each already have a lover.in the end of which there is only mutual hurt, each other,

on their household journey.

Anggara can only be silent and silent to hear every word for word that ejected from Salma's lips did not feel a circle of tears that had been he could not desperately hold so as not to fall, now without his permission finally the clear liquid was sliding also wet his jaw firmly. for men tears are very expensive and valuable things not just can be created and come out of the eyes of men.it takes a very clear reason for a man's tears to flow down. and like his Anggara today does have a reason that can explain how his tears just fall from the corner of his eyes. it was what he felt at this moment when he heard in silence what had happened to the household of his biological parents.that finally ended with attach importance to each other's feelings and selfishness. not only Anggara who shed his tears as well as Salma the woman sobbed in between her words.what about Renita? the woman could only duck deeply biting her lower lip holding back so she wouldn't cry out screaming. but the sadness of Renita is more to see her husband who has been known firmly and authoritative if in front of people but becomes very sweet and spoiled when being alone with her but now it is very painful to see the husband looks very sad Renita is sure at this time the state of her husband is very chaotic.his soul is hit with what has been heard by her.

Anggara himself did not believe what his mother had told him, but Anggara thought why only now he knew it? neither his papa nor all those closest to him have anyone told him the true state of whether this is a disgrace? what does he not need to know? that's what's on Anggara's mind. and finally Salma closed her story with tears and apologies repeatedly said from her mouth to the boy she had ignored all this time.

"can you apologize to my mom? mama will make amends for all the mistakes she's been neglecting you all along" Salma's face looked clear. Robert who sat beside her wiped away her wife's tears gently with both of her thumbs.

"but I'm not a kid anymore who's still whining for his parents' cradle. I've been married and of course there's a wife beside me who needs my protection but also give each other affection"

Salma smiled bitterly he understood the meaning of Anggara's speech which means Anggara no longer absolutely requires the full attention of his parents because he himself has become a married man who is certainly now all the attention and his feelings have been poured out completely for the woman who has become his soul mate.

"darling, strengthen your heart. You have apologized and explained all this to your son the rest of it he alone can determine the next attitude" robert said softly he could not bear to see his wife so agonized to apologize from his eldest son.

so too did Renita the beautiful woman hugged from the side of her husband's strapping body to give strength at least not only a hug that Renita could currently give to calm her husband.

"honey, how should I?" anggara said like a whisper in Renita's ear, and Renita raised her face, looking fixed on her husband's handsome face.

"turn your heart bang. I don't want any influence my words to persuade you that in the end you regret your decision. feel your heart as it wants then if you already know her whatever it is do not you regret" Renita smiled at Sela her one-handed speech felt her husband's field chest.

Aggara understood what his wife said he also released the embrace of his wife slowly and then stood up from her seat.

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TBC..