Her.. A Choice For Me
ABAH'S REQUEST

Wednesday afternoon after finishing college, Naya usually goes straight to work. Today, he decided to piggyback on the motorcycle of his classmate, Agus his name.

They just got out of the campus. Suddenly a minibus car driven by 2 tattooed men blocked the road.

" Miss.. At your father's request.. Please come with us to return home today.. There's something important that your father wants to talk about right now" said a burly man standing in front of Naya.

" Tell my Abah.. I work, I will go home tonight, if not tired ] answered Naya ketus to the man earlier.

" Gus.. .. Ayok... Hunt "Pinta Naya on Agus while patting his shoulder hard several times because he looks dumb.

" Miss.... Missaa.... Don't fight, or your friend gets hurt later ". Threaten the man earlier, while holding Agus' motorbike.

" Temen I said he'll be back tonight.. .. Don't bother Bro, move aside ." Answer Agus sarcas.

" Don't interfere if you want to be safe.. Step aside. " High and tattooed man's hand gripped Agus's collar and pulled his body until it fell into a tumble against the asphalt road.

While the tattooed man with long hair, forced Naya's arm to come with them.

" Don't try to force me, or I'll scream.." Threaten Naya then at the two men.

Brugh.. Bugh..

Agus beat up one tall tattooed man. There was a fierce fight that Agus eventually won.

Not winning by any means, they won by running away.

" Haha...." The two of them laughed loosely along the way to Naya's workplace, feeling very satisfied earlier.

20 Minutes later, they arrived at the employee's parking lot.

" Take care yaa Gus.. Be careful.." Said Naya while getting off the motor Agus and tos clenched hands.

" Silent Thing.. I am a black belt. Gih, in.. Tar night if you need ante, Call ajaa yaa Nyak.. I'll unplug first.. See you ". Said Agus then while turning his motorbike back out of the employee-only parking area.

Huft.... Disease forced Abah apparently was being crushed.

What is the disease of the matchmaker is also follow again? Who will I be betrothed to this time? Must it be in some way especially so that I can survive the evasion mission this time?

Naya rushes to the mosque to perform dzuhur prayer first before changing her casual clothes with work uniforms.

Lord....

Does this have to be the way of my life after Ummi died?

Tests... Tests... Tests... Again, my tears fell on the face I was wearing after praying earlier.

Ummi, pray your son is strong. I can definitely find the guy I want, and I need. Not just good looking but comfort and affection.. Which I don't get from Abah anymore. Naya is in the heart.

***

Tonight, Naya went home. No words of rebuttal came out of his mouth about the incident earlier this afternoon.

" Abah asked you to come home.. Why not obey? Is your stupid job more important than your dad's?." Abah invites Naya to talk as she just sits at the dinner table.

" Neng can work because of his own efforts Bah.. Don't insult my work.. Honestly, this time Abah wants more from me?. " Naya was involuntarily stirred up by emotions.

Ka Amir who heard the tone of Naya's voice rising, went straight out of the room and mediated.

" Bah.. Let Neng rest first.. We'll talk about it tomorrow morning.. " Pinta ka Amir to Abah.

" Today alone.. Ainnaya, the day after, on your day off, there'll be families watching you.. I hope you will obey this time.. Don't act like shit.. Be useful to your parents. " Abah said that with his ease. Has it been in Abah's eyes that I was useless as a child?. Naya's heart was slashed.

" Mong.. Do not take heart.. Gih rest, ka Amir will talk again to Abah if Abah's emotions subside.. Ok darling. " Ka Amir stroked my head fondly.. Only Amir understands me. Only the affection of ka Amir allowed me to always set foot back into this house.

Naya then headed to her room and closed her door slowly. His body immediately sagged like boneless.. Her heart is broken. He silenced his mouth with both hands so that his sobbing was not heard ka Amir.

*My Most Merciful Lord..

Show me your Grace..

Bring a gentleman for me, so that I may have a place to share everything I feel for him without exception..

I then fell asleep on the prayer mat, still using the face after performing the prayer the witir had*.

May you hear my prayer.. Aami..

" Mong.. Naya dear. her beautiful Ummi. don't be sad Nak. baktah as much as you can.. "

" Ummie.. Ummi. I miss. forgive me. I'm sorry "

Suddenly in the middle of the night Naya woke up, stunned to find her current state.. Ummi's hand caresses, still felt in my head. Inner Naya.

*I cried again, the guilt came again. People say, because of me.. Ummi I'm going home.is this the reason Abah hates me..

My head hurts every time I try to remember it. My heart is broken because of the guilt I don't know why. What is this really about? no one in this house ever wanted to explain to me. What truth is my family trying to cover up?

I can only remember :

[Your wife and children are losing a lot of blood.. ]

Only those voices often revolved around my head.

Just the sound of a medical device ringing in my ear*.

Naya could not continue to sleep again and finally decided to take ablution and murajaah his reading. At least by doing this his heart became calmer.

O Allah..

please, open the veil of truth to me so that I can correct all my mistakes. To atone for my sins for those I love. Naya is relentlessly asking the Creator.