Hijrah Love Casanova
Dropping Tears.

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...HAPPY READING'S......

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Ten o'clock past eight. Zayn who since this morning has no rest. Finally, I finished checking all the work. So serious that he forgot to eat breakfast.

Perhaps the main factor is not just work. But because his mind is sometimes erratic. Anyone who is in his position will definitely feel the same.

Almost three years of love. Know-how the lover even menduakan with his own friend. Even worse, they have done things that should not be done by couples who are not muhrim.

The day he proposed. Had to deal with the harsh reality as he felt.

"Oh!" he went back to breathing deeply and then he exhaled violently. "No! I don't want to see him" said Zayn himself.

Then because you want to eliminate his satiety. Zayn took out the diary of his wife from the pocket of his suit inside.

"Where to know can be lightened after reading the silly story of Fira," he said slightly to his smile. However, either a mocking smile, or a happy smile.

...DEAR, Shafira Sakina Mecca......

"Subhanallah I love it." wrote Fira on the top of the sheet.

"Who does he like?" asked Zayn to flap his own hand. "How dare he confide in a book like this," grumbled before reading again the writing at the bottom.

..."Don't count how many times someone has hurt you. But count how many times you hurt yourself and leave God. God never left you. Even if you always make mistakes."...

Zayn began reading his wife's writings. For some reason just reading the initial part he felt a strange hissing in his head.

..."In humility there is a height of mind. In the poverty of treasure, there is still the wealth of the soul and in the difficulty of your life on the test that God gives. There's tucked away goodness there. If not, they are given an exam. Then you don't know what's going to happen in the future."...

The young man loosened the tie on his neck and slightly lowered the back of the chair he was sitting on. Zayn wanted to read seriously.

..."The most familiar friend is the practice, because he will accompany you to the afterlife. So want as busy as any of your work. Always take time to worship."...

"Why does every one of these words make me feel like everything was written for me?" zayn said before continuing to read.

..."The sweetest language is a smile. The most beautiful worship is solemn when working on it." Fira wrote briefly and there was no more writing on the sheet....

So Zayn immediately opened the next sheet.

"I don't know if he likes to write like this" Zayn said. How could he possibly know. They do not have one room.

"Bismilbornrahmanirrahim. To yourself." Write Fira on the next page.

..."When lust teaches you to talk about the disgrace of others. Then remember! That maybe your disgrace is bigger than the person you're talking about. It's just that God hides your ugliness." while reading about the disgrace, Zayn fell silent and read it over and over again....

For some reason, the young man suddenly realized that he had a greater disgrace than anyone else.

..."If you can't bear to learn to be a better person. Be prepared to feel the bitterness of regret. Everybody doesn't know, everybody's a fool for everything. However, when the intention is greater than the lust to do evil. It won't be hard to change."...

After absorbing every verse of the wife's writing. Zayn went back to reading the next book.

..."Other people don't need to know how much you worship. So do everything because of your intention to get better. Not because I want to be praised." ...

"So actually Fira is a good girl. Not because they want to be praised by others. I was the only one who was prejudiced against him." Zayn said covering his face with the book.

His mind was now branching out and also imagined the face of Fira who had once rebuked because she insulted the girl.

"But what I'm doing is normal, because the woman who's been with me for a few years. Lied to me." said Zayn drinking mineral water in front of him and again read the book.

Zayn read again the next article with an erratic mind.

..."The world is so simple to be happy. A good person will look beautiful over time and not because of his changed face. But his kindness changed the heart of those who looked at him. An umbrella can never stop the rain. But with the umbrella we can stand in the rain without wetness. So believe whatever destiny God has given you. Then that's what's best for yourself." ...

"Was the evil of Raisa discovered. Is it because God wants to show that he's not the best for me?" Zayn muttered a little by rethinking every word that Shafira wrote.

..."And so with patience. He may not be able to give you victory. But he can give us the strength to face trials. Know that when Allah sends down trials on you and trials. Then the door of heaven will be opened for you. However, with the note that if you make it through the test patiently." ...

"When I found out Raisa betrayed our relationship. I wanted to avenge all his deeds and I managed to do all of them. Was I being tested and had failed by the time the first test was given to me? ask the young man to himself.

..."When we pass all the tests God has given us. Then the greater our chances of getting the paradise. Why is the test so hard? Because the gift is a beautiful paradise and certainly eternal." ...

Fira wrote again in the next book. For more than an hour Zayn was still reading his wife's diary.

"Astaghfirullah Azim thing! Oh God!" after the last few years Zayn never said those words. Today he said it again with regretting everything slowly.

..."If today we consider the world to be real and the afterlife is just a story. Then one day we will admit that the afterlife is real and the world is just a story. If you complain about the many trials and trials in your life. Have patience! Because trials and trials are never eternal. While God's heaven is eternal, which is already filled with pleasures that you never felt while on earth." ...

"'What have I done?" zayn said after reading again.

..."Life is not about who is the best. It's about who can keep doing good. Because being honest is hard and hard. Only great people can run it. For we always pray to be given happiness. However, the opposite came." ...

"True, back when I was dating Raisa, I always prayed to build a family with the girl I loved. But all my prayers have nothing that God has granted. So I was too lazy to do his orders. Because without me just praying all the happiness I've felt."

The young man further connected every word of Fira with the life he had already felt.

..."When we expect love. But sometimes what comes is solitude. When we need strength, sometimes God gives us trials and trials, which is the world." After thinking about himself. Zayn continued reading the book....

..."If the heart is like a cloud, let it move with sincerity. When the heart is like the ocean, let it flow with honesty. If the heart is like a rainbow, then color it with happiness. That is to accept every test that God gives you." ...

Zayn felt as he read the book. Like listening to his wife talk. It was as if Shafira was again advising him directly.

..."When your heart is like the moon. So, decorate it with peace. But if your heart hurts, heal it by forgiving each other. However, when it is numb. Then live by remembering the name of Allah." ...

Not felt because it was too late to read the book that he connected with his life. Zayn has been through almost two hours.

"Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah hal Azim. Oh Allah... Forgive me," muttered the young man who did not feel like he was dripping water in the corner of his eye.

"So when the blow came God was testing me?" Zayn asked himself again.

Until he listened to the door of his study room open wide by Aksa and also Edo. His two friends.

Seeing this, Zayn quickly put Fira's diary into his desk drawer.

"Huem, why have you come? Didn't you say you were coming later at lunchtime, Aksa?" ask Zayn who cleared his throat first.

So that his two friends do not know if he has just shed tears that are either a form of regret for the sins he has committed. Or regret his actions that have hurt Shafira.

It was almost the way to their three-month marriage. So during that time Zayn always accused his wife of various insults.

That girl never had a point. Zayn assumes for himself that Fira is a hypocritical girl. Like Raisa who prays diligently. Not wearing a hijab. However, in fact, the woman was not the good girl he thought she was.

That's the reason why Shafira hates without cause, because Zayn considers that his parents' preferred wife is not a good girl either.

"Ck, what's wrong with you? Are you drunk during the day?" decak Aksa and Edo were sitting on the sofa in the room and Zayn was following along with his two best friends.

"What's wrong? I see your face like a depressed person?" ask Edo first before Zayn explains what he told his best friend to come there.

"Raisa, she sent me a message and invited me to meet at the place we used to go" Zayn replied honestly.

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