Hopeless
S2 - Chapter 36

Hi Lunetta

If you've read this, then you already know the mess in my room.

Well, that mess is just like the one I felt after this accident.

I'm ruined

Very broken to the inside.

I try to act ordinary in front of everyone

But the truth is I can't afford Lun, I can't face you.

I feel so useless and I wouldn't be worthy of you.

One thing is for sure, I love you Lunetta.

I've been saying, 'will you marry me?'

But I don't think it's possible anymore, do I? Don't be happy. I love you the same.

~oooo~

" Brother Darrel, brother Darrel where? Where is Darrel? Brother Darrel?" asked Luna while hugging the paper she was carrying while crying as – jadnya. The girl immediately walked out of the room and looked to the left right. The confused girl had to look for Darrel where, she immediately ran to the maid room and knocked on the door repeatedly.

" What's the matter non? Oh God! Non Luna why? Why is Non Luna being angry?" ask the maid who was shocked and scared because Luna cried until she had a lot of fun. The girl shook her head and tried to catch her breath. She can't possibly tell Darrel's maid the worst possibility, she has to find Darrel first.

" Auntie really didn't see Darrel? Aunt really doesn't know where Darrel is?" tanya Luna who is in a hurry –, the maid shook her head slowly, then seemed to remember – remember something. The maid goes straight into her room and picks up a piece of paper that was given to Darrel last night, the aunt is convinced that the letter is for Lunetta right now.

Luna read the contents of the letter and immediately ran after telling the aide not to follow her. Luna ran towards the Kitchen according to the instructions of the letter. The girl had no idea what was in Darrel's kitchen until the man asked her to look into the Kitchen.

It turns out that in the kitchen there is a plate containing a food that is familiar to Luna. The girl sat down and stared at the food sadly and tears fell down. Under the plate was a letter as well. I took the letter and started reading it. Why would Darrel give him a riddle like this? Why is Darrel playing himself?

" Lunetta, Cheese-chocolate pancakes, did you like it when I made this for you? I want you to be happy even if there is no me. I want you to be able to remember the taste of this pancake, sweet, like our story. Goodbye to Lunetta." Luna took a sip of her snot to enter and picked up the small spoon that was on the plate.

" still with the same man-made with the same taste. The taste that Luna really likes is made by the person that Luna loves. Brother Darrel, where's Darrel? Luna was worried," said Luna who put another mouthful of pancakes into her mouth and closed her eyes to enjoy the taste of the pancakes.

Pancakes that have been cold, Luna guess have been made since morning or maybe since last night, but it still tastes good. The girl spent a mouthful until the last mouthful filled her mouth. The girl thought back to Darrel and immediately got up from her seat, after believing that Darrel was not in this house, Luna was about to leave the house.

Luna's eyes caught something stuck in a chair that was there. Luna approached the chair and found a black ribbon. Luna immediately looked around, not far from where she was standing, she could see this kind of ribbon tying the rope of Figura's hanging.

Luna followed the instructions, the ribbon was attached and seemed to show Luna a path. The girl continued to walk slowly, it turned out that the ribbon was leading her to a door that had been scratched with a red pilok. Luna evens ampai was horrified to see the pilok. Is Darrel behind this room? Could Darrel..?

The girl did not want to speculate on her own. He chose to mentally prepare and open the door. It was dark when he opened the door. The girl stepped in and tried to find the light switch, but Luna could not find anything. Luna walked slowly while groping around because she forgot to pick up her phone from Darrel's room.

~ bbzzzttt

A screen lit up brightly, making Luna squint her eyes so brightly. The girl closed her face and peeked at the projector from behind her – fingers. The girl immediately opened her hand as she knew what was on the big screen.

Photo – photos Luna since Luna baby. Yes, at least that's what Luna guessed because there are two baby girls and one boy who are very similar to the Jordan bang. Luna shed tears when she remembered the moment, especially when a photo of Sheila appeared on the screen as she and Danesya scrambled to take pictures with the girl.

Luna realized that – days were the most beautiful times of her life. A time that is impossible and will never happen again because Sheila was gone from this world. All that remains are memories. The memories that Luna herself had started to forget.

" It turns out that my face looks a lot like Danesya," said Luna unconsciously when she saw the faces of two toddlers who faced each other. One held a doll and one held a plastic basketball that was larger than the size of his head. Can you guess which Luna is? You can judge by how quiet Luna has been all along, right?

Slides continue to change and now Luna enters the Middle School period, a time where she can begin to feel happiness because she has Adel, Keyla and Lucy. The period where he began to develop, especially in the field of basketball. The period where he made many achievements and used his brain abilities to the maximum.

The SMP screen was closed with a photo of his graduation who seemed to smile happily beside Mr. Indra. Yes, Mr. Indra accompanied him on graduation, not his papa. Mr. Indra as a substitute for his father who has now returned to his hometown because Luna has grown up. The man did his job very well.

The screen in front of Luna now shows when Luna started entering SMK, Maih with the face of Mr. Indra who accompanied her to register. Luna doesn't even know if someone took a picture of her signing up. Looks like it's his papa's man because he has to be monitored and whatever Luna does will be known by her papa.

Luna chuckled as she watched her young self fall down after crashing and Radith extended her hand with a cold face. Their second meeting which had absolutely no impression they would be friendly and come this far. Luna misses – even more at that time, the girl realizes Radith was even upset with her when they first met.

But amazingly, even though Radith had prayed not to meet him, they even met more often after that. Yes, Luna is a class with Radith. They meet every day and Luna always gets Radith in trouble. Looks like Luna has to apologize for all that to Radith when they met.

The rest of the slide on the screen shows the togetherness of Luna with her friend – and with Darrel. Seeing Darrel's face, Luna again felt sad. The girl came back crying and stared at the picture – Darrel picture with a slick smile. Luna realized, even from the beginning, Darrel always sacrificed his happiness for Luna.

" Barrel's brother who has always loved Lo Lun, even he tried to accept Lo who still likes Radith. But what did you love for him? You can only ignore him Lun. You can't make her happy and you don't even know where she is, what kind of boyfriend?" ask Luna to herself. Luna started to sit down and cry sadly.

" why did Lo realize when she wasn't around? Why did Lo just realize Lo loved him when he did not know where? When he was even in this condition, why did Lo just wake up? Why Lo just want to make Lo's heart admit that Lo already loves him? Why do you still want to like Radith? What's Lun for?"

For some reason Luna who momentarily closed her eyes, she could only see Darrel's face there. That means he's right – is really in love with Darrel right? That means he has given his whole heart to the man, right? That means he doesn't like Radith anymore, does he?

' You have grown very well. From a cute little fairy, to a charming beautiful princess. Let's keep growing together, through every day until old age.' Luna read the writing with – hearts heart, she was afraid she misread and became misunderstood with all.

Arrive – just arrived a tumblr lamp that has been arranged to make Luna glued instantly. Not because of the beauty of the lamp, but what is written there. Luna still did not understand what he meant, Luna was still trying to understand the current situation. The bright lights made Luna able to see everything around her.

" Will you marry me Lunetta?" Luna immediately turned her body and looked at the figure who was standing upright while carrying a painter box containing a diamond ring. The man walked over, but Luna was frightened and retreated.

" I'm still alive. My feet are still on, why are you so surprised?" ask the person who made Luna look at the person's feet and show her surprised face. The girl pointed at the man's feet and could not say anything, making the man understand and immediately walked towards Lunetta and sat the girl in one of the chairs.

" I've never been handicapped. Operating time that day I just light operation and all good – aja. I asked the doctor to tell me that because I wanted to know the reaction of the people around me. Especially you, I want to see how you react to having a disabled fiance like me."

" I heard everything you said in the kitchen or here. I heard everything. Thank you for finally giving me your whole heart. Thank you for believing in me. I'm so grateful for that."

" Do you want to continue to believe in me in the future? Do you love me and spend the rest of our lives together? Do you want to marry me? we could have six kids. Or seven if you are strong. You want to, right?" ask the person in a gentle tone that makes anyone melt.

" SISTER DARREL IS EVIL! DARREL'S BROTHER HAS SCARED THE LUNA! DARREL'S EVIL." Ah, it seems like Luna is not part of 'anyone', the girl did not melt, instead venting all her anger and annoyance by hitting Darrel using the flowers on the table. Good thing it's just flowers, try if Darrel puts a baseball bat in there, what happens?

" I'm sorry to confuse you, it makes you worry and even makes you cry like that. I also feel tormented to be this bad as you, so I promise you, after this I will treat you like a princess, I will redeem all your wounds with happiness," said Darrel who made Luna's face red.

" Luna doesn't want to marry Darrel. Not until Brother Darrel wants to wear a dufan clown costume and divide the balloon into – children who are there," said Luna with origin. The man instead nodded confidently and pulled Luna's hand with vigor.

" I'll do it tomorrow, now you wear the ring first and soon we'll get married. We will have six children, the first boy – boys," said Darrel who made Luna surprised at once. The girl shook her head strongly and directly pulled her hand that had not yet attached the ring.

" Luna wants the first daughter, let Luna have a shopping friend, Luna has a friend for ghibah, Luna has a friend to invite where – where," said Luna cutely. Darrel put on a dislike face and now shakes his head again. Making Luna raise her eyebrows and wait for what the man was about to say.

" If the first boy – boy, you have someone who can take care of you. I want our boys – boys so I can take care of you. Later the second child will be a new woman," said Darrel who is still not approved by Luna, they remain insistent on each other with their opinions. Make them stay for a while until they finally look at each other.

" Why not twins who are one boy – boys who are one girl?" proposed Luna while pointing towards Darrel. The man looked sparkling and immediately agreed with Luna's proposal. They did tos and laughed together. As their laughter subsided, Darrel again took Luna's hand and placed the ring she had prepared onto the girl's middle finger.

" Fingers, you don't envy, you'll also have something cool" said Darrel who stroked the back of Luna's hand and kissed her. They looked at the backyard of Darrel that had been closed either using what so it was like a closed room instead of a courtyard. The man prepared everything very carefully.

" We won't know what's in front of us Lun. But whatever happens, I hope you can trust me. Believe that I will love you at all times."

" Yes, Luna promised Luna would believe it."