I'm Betrothed And Adjoined
chapter 62 is just a role

Gendis woke up from her sleep and did not feel it turned out that time was very late in the afternoon.Just hurry Gendis got up and took a bath.

As usual when the Maghrib Adhan has been heard and finished Gendis praying.

A few minutes later Gendis finished and left the room.

Danar was in the middle room and Gendis approached him.

"Mas," call Gendis slowly.

Danar glanced at the glance then his eyes turned back towards the television screen.

"what's wrong?" ask Danar later.

"How do we go home?"

back Danar looked at Gendis, and frowned.

"What are you asking to go home?"

"Emmm,, it feels different, not like the beginning we got to this place" replied Gendis, Yaa Gendis wants Danar to know her feelings are honestly very disappointed with Danar's attitude. Danar wants this honeymoon but he just doesn't care anymore.

"Not to continue anymore"

"Just pray I get pregnant fast, even if we only do that once"

"You're a paper, just because I left you last night, you just feel like I don't care"

"Mas, I also don't want to get too late to get carried away, I know myself. I'm just the woman you made a wife to achieve your goals, not the wife you love and care about" .

Danar looked at Gendis closely.

"I accept that, and I assure myself I won't get carried away"

"Mas, I also do not want to geer with your sweet and kind attitude, because at the same time you changed again, I admit, I almost fell asleep,,,, I was,,but I realized that whenever you never want me more than that" explained Gendis honestly, Gendis tried to Bernai express what he felt.

"Now, we just have to wait for the results, just pray I'm pregnant, and if that happens, I promise to take good care of my pregnancy. I just want this over the mas, I'm your son's birth and after that will be gone from your life"

"It can't be like that, how about not getting pregnant as well? " Danar cuts off the word Gendis.

"Find another woman"

"This is how I've been tortured enough, if I'm not pregnant, then suppose you're less fortunate with me"

"Ohh yes, and if I'm pregnant, I ask you to take care of my feelings, that's it mas, don't stress me because of your actions, without me explaining in detail you must understand"

"We go home on schedule, follow my orders!"

Gendis looked at Danar, who was always selfish, who felt powerful over everything.

"You're selfish, forcing desire without thinking about my feelings"

"Here I'm playing my role as a good husband, I'm trying to watch you, understand you, what else do you want?"

"Yes, I know that. Yes, here you want to show as a good husband, so from that I do not want to fall asleep mas, because all of that is just pseudo mas"

"Indeed you are too baper" muttered Danar without feeling.

Gendis was silent, apparently difficult to talk to Danar, like talking to a fool but smart-ass.

repeatedly he explained also would not be accepted.

Danar has always been with his stance and his selfishness.

"Why stay away?" ask Danar.

"You don't want to do that with me anymore?"

Gendis looked at Danar sharply, indeed Gendis did not like the word Danar arbitrary.

"Mas, that night I was able to accept and willingly I did that for you, I also thought I was a wife should I have done my duty, and not denied my husband"

"At that moment you were so sweet, you were soft, and it got me carried away"

"But, right now you're acting differently, you're like you're back to your true nature, how I can be willing to do that with you"

"I said I had enough, just wait for the results and pray I'm pregnant"

"No, no, I'm not sure you'll get pregnant that soon. I want to repeat that night again" Danar said.

Tears of Gendis suddenly trickled, now he seemed not willing to be touched by Danar anymore. Though she knew she would sin against the husband's request, and once again it was her duty as a wife.

"Why are you crying?" asked Danar while looking at Gendis.

Gendis stared back at Danar and her tears as if they could not bear to not keep dripping.

"I don't know, I just feel really disappointed right now, disappointed with myself, because I can't suppress my feelings, I want to be normal, I want to be indifferent,but I can't" Gendis explained.

"I want to be like you, not complacent, not carried away by the atmosphere and feelings"

"You love me?" ask Danar later.

Gendis shook her head slowly.

"I don't know what feelings are in my heart now mas, what I feel like to you, just when you leave me, my heart is disappointed, I also care about your situation, I'm sorry,are you okay out there, I'm worried, I'm worried. But when your attitude is normal, you do not understand about my anxiety, I am really disappointed and aware, it turns out I was never a little on your mind" explained Gendis again and occasionally wiped her tears.

Danar stared out the window, breathing heavily and exhaling violently. He ruffled his hair a sign his heart was in turmoil, then looked at Gendis again sharply.

"This is what I don't like, you know I don't love you, I'm good because I want to treat you well, but I have another life, I just want you to do your job well,in order for our wishes to be achieved, you can get pregnant, and I will keep you happy"

"But, why do you have to break the rules, why do you have to get carried away, why can't you hold back so that there is no feeling in your heart" Danar pointed out.

"That night, that beautiful night that you made, that night full of romantic words, with your sweet and wonderful attitude, was it just a role, was it,,like you said you're just doing your part as a husband?"

"Yes,, that's part of the role"

"Where can mas? What I felt that night was so different, there was affection between us, like there was love and affection until we could do it with happiness"

"As a player you can do that"

"You're sorry?" ask Danar

Gendis shook her head slowly.

"I'm not sorry, it's all happened"

"Don't take your feelings too deep, take part in the role as well, if the time has to be professional yes, without any baper appendage, continue to be love location" explained Danar again,and it is true that the words spoken by Danar really make Gendis like a sharp knife pierced, tear his heart and make it very painful.

"If you're pregnant I promise I'll continue to play a very good role, because I want you to be happy, and I don't want to lose my son if you feel uncomfortable or happy"

"Can I be happy? right now you're making me very sick"

"You must be able, Gendis, I no longer want to find someone else to replace you, live as I see fit, then when it ends I will give it all to you" Danar explained.

Gendis felt this was very unfair to her, all nothing made her happy, apart from Danar and the loss of a child. Life is unfair, why the scenario changes like this, without him being able to evade and ask for another scenario.