I'm The One You Throw Out
Seira's Life

Uhuk-uhuk!

In a simple house a woman suddenly coughed, patting her painful, narrowed chest. He put the food in his hand on his plate again.

"Slowly, Non. Why, why, suddenly coughing?" Bi Sari came rushing over with a glass of water in hand.

Rubbing the nape to Seira's back slowly to reduce pain due to coughing. Seira took the glass and downed it. Hunting the air quickly, throttling many times he did to reduce the pain.

"I don't know why, Bi. Suddenly a sprain, a sore," he said in a raucous voice while massaging his neck slowly.

"Maybe someone else said Non-times, so it's like that." Bi Sari landed her butt in the seat next to Seira.

The two were enjoying the night accompanied by a plate of their homemade lupis cake. The crops in the fields they worked on while living in the village were with other farmers. Some are planted with glutinous rice or rice to make various foods, and some are planted with ordinary rice.

"No idea, Bi. Who wants to talk to me, Bi. Had sodara no, just a stick of kara," he said followed by an annoying cough.

Bi Sari attentively rubbed her nape until Seira felt more comfortable.

"Yes Allah .. must be very sick, yes, Non. Cough is like that," said Bi Sari concerned.

Seira did not immediately answer, still rubbing his chest that felt hot again sore in the throat.

"When again delicious to eat lupis, which really want. Even coughing like gini," he complained more and more hoarsely heard.

"Patience, Non. Drink first, who knows." Bi Sari felt sorry for the woman.

While the other pregnant woman gets the attention of her husband, Seira must struggle alone to feel all her suffering. Starting from nausea, vomiting, and even all the food he just swallowed should he let go out again.

Seira again cleared her throat, drinking water again little by little. However, still, the feeling of heat and soreness in the throat is still felt.

"But Aunt salutes Non Sei, her pregnancy is strong. Not like my aunt, I can't do anything at all. Just rubbing like a shabby rag." Bi Sari chuckled as she remembered her pregnancy.

True, Seira never knew about the woman's family. Even when he arrived at his house, there was not a single member of the Bi Sari family. Where they went. His ears buzzed with thousands of questions surrounding Bi Sari and her family.

"Really, Bi? How was her Aunt pregnant?" Seira returned to the temple.

There was a stomach that began to feel a little, but there was still no movement. Understandably, the age of the womb is trying to enter the fourth month. He was ready to listen to the past story of the woman who was so good to him.

"Current, Non. Anyway ... it is ... Auntie's also having a hard time telling her story. All the smelling, no food goes into the stomach. Go straight in again. All that comes in is the fruit is also only a young mango. Want to take a cold shower, shivering body, work is not strong because if you wake up heavy head. Udah, it's bad anyway," said Bi Sari while remembering the times full of suffering, but very happy it.

Seira rounded her eyes to hear the suffering Bi Sari had to endure. Can he imagine how his condition at that time, must have been very tortured.

Bi Sari smiled, but inwardly muttered sadly.

But Auntie is luckier than Non Sei. Aunty has a husband who is ready to stand by beside Bibi, while Non, instead, was kicked out of the house and is being stalked unilaterally. The patient, Non. God does not sleep, one day Non certainly can be happy.

The pain suddenly came to rip out the heart. How he condemned Zafran's actions so easily to divorce Seira just because of the serpent woman. However, again remembered the message Seira, not to hate let alone grudge the ex-husband.

"Makanya Aunty said Non was very strong. Still can go down to the rice field and join the field, if Bibi .. huh, will not be able to wake up," said Bi Sari again excited.

But maybe Bibi was more fortunate, there was a husband who accompanied Bibi in difficult times as I feel now.

Seira's lips smiled, but her heart murmured sorely. Remembering the fate of the self that was expelled by the husband right on the day he was declared pregnant. If only Zafran would be patient, if only Zafran was not lulled by the affair, maybe they are still together and are happy waiting for the baby.

However, even for free, rice has become porridge. There will never be a story about them again even if they have planted a seed in her womb. Let his own hands take care of him and raise him without Zafran's intervention.

He unconsciously rubbed his stomach again, thanking the baby who had been strong to survive in there. If not, what would he be now. Maybe it'll be crazy like people.

"Yes, yes, Bi. From now on, I don't want to complain anymore. I don't want this child to be weak because I often complain. Thanks, yes, Bi. It made me realize that I should be grateful" Seira said as she gently touched Bi Sari's arm.

The middle-aged woman dropped tears from her eyes, had already heated up and could no longer be held back. Her lips folded in restraining the stirring emotions.

Seira's eyes were so sincere, there was no hatred or resentment being ignited. Whether what his heart is made of until hurt he remains willing and accepting. Bi Sari turned around while wiping her tears, she smiled back at Seira, and nodded lightly.

"Udah, it's okay. My aunt also has no one. Bibi's husband and children were all victims of the landslide before Bibi decided to flee to the city. So, Auntie knows what it's like to live alone in this world. Hence, Non should not be sad let alone moan. Must be enthusiastic, let this child be a great child," said Bi Sari encouraged him.

Seira nodded confidently, promising inwardly to continue being grateful for her current condition.

"Where's the throat, Non? Don't you feel sick?" tanyakanya.

Seira shook her head as she said, "No, Bi. It's good."

Be that night, they fill in by sharing stories of the past.

What was Seira's life after deciding to live in the remote village, every day went to the fields to work together with the citizens. Planting rice, and so on. If the time of day comes, he will fall on the roosters.

Locals often give him food, fruit, or food ready to eat. They understand what pregnant women want. Slowly, he began to forget the sadness, the pain gradually went away by itself.

Happy, Sei. You deserve it.