I'M YOUR WIFE'S NOT A PERPETRATOR
BAB.26 Don't Be a Loser

Resisting emotions is not easy, but he always provokes my anger. All in the same claim he, if he thinks this is the result of his hard work, he even dropped talaq in front of many people.

          Definition of a man who is not ashamed. I had to rise from my pain, I had to rise from my crush that he created, I forgot how he convinced me to love him.

   I used to get hurt when I found out about his lies and his family hoped he could still change but it was worse. If I had known this, I would never have accepted it working in this store.

  I better fire it. I can't hire him here before he acts. I don't want to get worse in people's eyes let me be the villain right now..

  "Sorry Mr. Edi you're not my husband anymore. We're divorced and soon the verdict will be over..."

Everyone was confused by my words. Maybe those who knew he was just an employee when I hired him because I was able to apply here and there but not accepted. But instead he misinterpreted my taste.

Maybe this is how it feels to lose the sense of caring, I care because he's the man who's stopped by in my life, the first man who made me fall in love, the first man who also scratched the wound.

Still this sense of compassion arises even though he has hurt me whether I myself do not understand...

"You're what's up against my divorce. Remember yes I have never been ridho and I will not come so that your claim is not granted." Edi thinks he looks stupid. I don't know where the lesson from if he doesn't come the petitioner's lawsuit doesn't grant.

I was just shaking my head, seeing my ex-husband's behavior, if I defended my mother's sense that this would destroy myself. It's time to take away the pity in me...

"I'm sorry Mr. Edi from now on I fire from my store. Please find another job. This shop was there after we got divorced. You've dropped three talaqs and that means we can't refer back. Unless I have to marry someone else.."

Every word I took out contained an unpatched meaning on my lips all this time. She wanted to take my hand but I stayed away and didn't want to be touched by her anymore.

I held my own finger hoping for the power that was within me. From today learn to be a selfish person let alone.

"I'm sorry Nayla. However you are still my wife in the eyes of the country and you must obey my words and no one has you but me. And your lawsuit cancels immediately and I'm telling you it's just an emotion."...

Cihhhh. This man is not full like. I won't melt again even if he prostrates himself on my tombstone later. I no longer want to be in touch with him or his family.

"I'm sorry Mr. Edi please come out of my shop. We're divorced and we're not coming back. Don't be a loser..."

He blinked his fists his eyes reddened well when he was emotional really he was a loser who did not dare to live on his own feet. I was afraid that if I got angry if he destroyed my shop I could report the police.

"I'm proud to destroy this store. Remember my share of this store is fifty percent and in it is my money..REMEMBER NOT TO BE GREEDY...!"

Who's greedy idea. The money is itss...this mi human knowledge is minimal. Or he hit his rich wife. Not kapok apparently last night on foot. If you play, I will serve it.

His intention was to give his salary even though he was in debt but because he signed then I will not pay his energy. It's up to what people say that matters to my sanity right now.

"You sin to cast out your own husband, you are in the same dzolim as your own husband, and you will be cursed with God..."

I don't care to be a sinner today. "Rina please close the shop tomorrow just start working today you're doing it first."

Rina immediately closed the store and we went out of the store but strangely Edi still survived in the store. Why again this man keeps doing this...

Outside we waited for him to come out our shop lock but hours stand but not out either.

I told Rina to go home first because her invitation was already there. He hesitated to leave me but I assured him that it was okay. I know my ex-husband so I'm not too scared.

I went back into the store. I saw him smiling at me which made me sick. If the smile used to be my candle is now different. "I want to close the shop."

"Why should get out. Quickly you don't miss me. You haven't touched me for a long time, you miss me. No one come on...."

Slipping his eyes. Ihhh.. could not be in the tonjok eyes irritating him think I thirst what affection.

"Let's just close the door I'll satisfy you. Come here.."take my hand.

"What the hell is loose. I don't want us not husband and wife anymore don't touch me anymore.." I tried to rebel the power is greater than me...

He started kissing my lips but I avoided him.He banged my head on the cashier's desk and made me helpless. He gripped my chin I looked up at our eyes to see...

"I ask you good but why refuse me. You think barren women so widows will be married no. Remember grateful if you want me to take it back..."

The basic mokondo man wants to win himself turns out to be him. I was trying to gather strength to fight back at least I could get out of this store. But the stronger the grip on my chin..

"Why hummm? Where do you want to run ? Do people believe if I do violence to you. I'll make you suffer today." He threw me in the face.

He started unbuttoning his shirt. Uuwweekkk...

Armpit smell of jengkol, Ihhh never use deodorant what. Or never take a shower for a month or take a bath that is not clean. My questions piled up all over my head and it used to be during my same stay that he became a masculine man. Just think he cheated now burik want to return with me.

Hedeewwa ferguso kasian is your life...