Interlude : Who Am I?
Episode 8: Answer: Love Myself

"I learned to love myself. I want to be who I am yesterday, today, and tomorrow."

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I wake up more slowly than usual. Fortunately, Bangtan does not have any schedule on this tiring day. So, I can take advantage of this empty time to rest and play the game as much as possible. I will ask Jungkook to accompany me to play the game after lunch later. And if it's late in the afternoon, I'll go to Geochang to rest.

When I was just downstairs, I suddenly saw Jimin hyung crying. His eyes were red, and his face was wet with tears. He glanced at me, then turned his head and walked out towards the dorm door and closed it violently. What's the matter?

I was even more shocked when I saw that Yoon-hyung and Jungkook were putting on expressions far beyond my expectations. They...arguing??

I approached Yoon-hyung who was frowning with a smile, curious about what was really going on. "Hyung, what's wrong?"

Yoongi hyung rolled her eyes then looked at me flat. "You guys are always like that. Making a mess of the dorm atmosphere that was already calm."

I'm taking it slow, "You mean?"

However, Jungkook suddenly pulled on my left arm and asked me to move away from Yoon Hyung. With an expression similar to Jimin hyung, he whispered to me. "Hyung, let him calm his mind first. He just scolded me and Jimin hyung."

I was shocked. "Yoongi hyung scolded the two of you? What's up??"

Jungkook wiped his tears with his thumb, adjusted his breathing while reflexively putting on a relaxed expression, "Later on I'll tell you..."

I put my lips together, "Yes, it's up to you. We'll talk about the game after lunch..."

Again, Jungkook patted me on the shoulder. "Young, well. Maybe we won't do that later. After all, dorm was being struck by tears of sadness. Who do you want to be with now??" he said while smiling wryly.

I got upset and then let go of Jungkook's grip. I then left, leaving the two of them towards the dorm door and closing it violently. This atmosphere, why could it be this quiet? In fact, I just got healed...

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When Seokjin hyung served food on the dinner table, he asked us for lunch. However, different from me. I just sat there playing my phone on the couch.

Because I was left alone who had not fulfilled Seokjin hyung's call, I was yelled at by the six of them. "DANISH!!!"

I then took off my earphones, then turned to look at them for a moment with a flat look. I hate this kind of situation. It made me want to kill myself immediately.

"You eat! I hate this!" I tukasku, then walked towards my room and closed the door of my room violently.

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Author

"Taehyung?"

Seokjin brought a plate of jjajamyeon, while knocking on Taehyung's room door quietly. He took her because he was worried Taehyung would get sick if he didn't eat anything. He took her after Bangtan's lunch.

GECK! GECK! YOK!!!

Because Taehyung 3 times did not reply to his words, he then put a plate containing jjajamyeon on the floor, then peek Taehyung secretly through the keyhole of his room.

He flinched as soon as he saw Taehyung's room falling apart, and Taehyung sat beside his bed with a sad look on his face. Wipes are everywhere. Seokjin felt that Taehyung was crying alone in his room.

"I knew Hyung was bringing food for me. Just finish the food that Hyung brought. I don't want to eat," Taehyung concluded, then rubbed his face violently.

"Why are you guys acting like that to me? Why do you intend to stay away from me? Am I your Stigma again??"

Seokjin's eyes grew as soon as she heard that word again. Stigmatizing.

"Hey, Taehyung. Why are you even talking about that word again?" seokjin protest does not accept.

"Eoh, I expected. Turns out you guys think of me like that, huh?" taehyung said with a cynical tone.

Because Seokjin no longer accepted Taehyung's words, he shouted while hitting Taehyung's room door so hard that other members approached Seokjin.

"YOU'VE LOST YOUR MIND, HAVE YOU?!!"

Yoongi, Hoseok, and Namjoon, who had just arrived at the dorm, immediately approached Seokjin who was already shouting out loud. Jimin and Jungkook who heard that, came to Seokjin in a hurry.

"Hyung, what's wrong?" ask Yoongi slowly.

"Speak to the freak!" seokjin said irritatedly as she pointed at Taehyung's room.

Jimin and Jungkook exchanged looks. "Taehyung??"

"Majc! Maybe he's possessed by his stigma again!"

Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon, Jimin, and Jungkook gasped in shock. "MWO?!!"

Out of curiosity, Namjoon broke through Taehyung's bedroom door. As a result, Taehyung's bedroom door opened and fortunately, the room door was not damaged. The six of them walked over to Taehyung who was sitting on his back to them.

"You'd be happy if I left, right? Take it easy, I'm going to Geochang this afternoon." Taehyung said with his lips turned back.

Yoongi scanned every corner of Taehyung's room, then he walked up to the table in the corner. There he found the flower. And sure enough, the flower petals changed. That was the sign, Taehyung was again possessed by the darkness of his Stigma again.

Yoongi then took the object and approached the five other members. The look on the faces of the five of them instantly changed when they saw the changes that had occurred to the petals of the flower. Yoongi frowned when he saw the incident.

"God. Taehyung.." he said as he set his breath, ".back as before."

Hoseok and Namjoon gasped in shock and looked at Taehyung in surprise, "Yoongi and Jungkook, you mean? Why do you blame them?"

"Yoongy. He didn't tell me about this morning. Secondly, all this time he had been keeping a secret about these flower petals from me. I just heard it yesterday from him. And Jungkook, oh yeah, I hate Jungkook."

Instantly, the five members, except Jungkook, who heard Taehyung say, "K-YOU HATE JUNGKOOK?!!"

"Am I wrong? He also knew his own business," he said, leaving the six members behind and leaving his room and closing the door violently.

Meanwhile, Yoon-gi looked at Jungkook who was already teary-eyed. He held onto the maknae's shoulder, then hugged her body tightly.

"Tell me, what's your fault with her??"

Suddenly, the black fur that once made Taehyung crazy, perched on Yoongi's shoulder. All the members who saw him were shocked. "N-isn't that the black feather that once made Taehyung almost wretched?!!"

Then he took the feather, and suddenly, a shadow appeared that Yoon-gi had met at that time. "Well, it's been a while, huh?"

"I came not because of Taehyung's selfishness, but I came because of your selfishness" the shadow concluded.

Jungkook. "-you mean? We??"

"Yes. Of course, it was you who made Taehyung like this. Even this morning, Taehyung didn't want to have lunch.."

"When he had just come down, he saw Jimin crying. Jimin did see Taehyung, but he seemed to not care and then came out of the dorm. As soon as he arrived downstairs, he saw Yoon and Jungkook. Yoon-gi is upset about Jimin and Jungkook, but Jungkook makes Taehyung upset. Taehyung wants to invite Jungkook to play the game because the mood is a bit bad, but Jungkook instead rejects it with insinuations. Well, that's where Taehyung feels you're ignoring him.."

"The bottom line is, Taehyung's mood today is not good, but you guys even add to his bad mood."

"If you want to put her in a good mood before she goes to Geochang this afternoon, do something that you think will get her excited again. I'm sure, you can." he said, then disappeared suddenly from before the six of them.

The six BTS members exchanged looks. "What do you think makes her mood better??" ask Namjoon.

"Hm, how about he play a game?" guess Jimin.

"Are you telling Hoseok hyung to make him laugh??? Hoseok hyung, like to make her laugh" Jungkook said.

"What the hell?" joking Hoseok while laughing.

"Well, Hyung, can you make that kid laugh again??"

"I'll be helped by Seokjin hyung. He will make jokes that will make him spin around even Jimin until he is made to fall for it." joked Hoseok.

Hearing that, Jimin laughed out loud. "Hey, I'm not going to fall downhhhh~" However, Jimin's words don't match what happened. He even fell because the floor of Taehyung's room was rather slippery.

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"Maybe I love someone more, the harder I love myself. Let's admit it honestly. The criteria you gave me are stricter than you. The thick ring of your life, He is also a part of you, you. Now, I'm sorry for throwing myself away. Our lives are long, trust me in the labyrinth. Spring will come again after winter~" said Yoon-gi as she held up her small bag. (*spoiler song Answer: Love Myself)

Taehyung's steps stopped as soon as he heard Yoon's voice. Moreover, he had just heard something that he had never heard before.

"Hm, is that Yoon-gi-hyung? Who was she talking to?" taehyung muttered and then peeked at Yoon-gi secretly as soon as he realized the whereabouts of Yoon-gi.

"From the beginning of the beginning, to the end of the end, the answer is only one. Why do you keep hiding it? My scar is all my fault."

"You've shown, I have my reasons, I have to love myself. My breath, answer all my ways. I am yesterday, I am today, I am tomorrow, (i learn how to love myself) All I do without leaving."

Yoongi muttered as she walked through the corridor after returning from her studio room. Maybe he'll walk out to the elevator. Meanwhile, Taehyung was still pensive considering what Yoongi said earlier.

"Hm, do I have to apologize to Yoongi hyung about the incident earlier this afternoon?" he murmured in the heart.

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The dorm condition this time is strange. Not quiet, just the opposite. Yoongi even repeated his words at the agency office. The six members other than Taehyung were gathered in the living room.

The dorm door opened. That's Taehyung. Taehyung's arrival made the six members turn their heads and look at him gently. Without hesitation, Taehyung ran over to the seated Yoon-gi as he folded his legs on the sofa. He hugged Yoon-gi while crying. This surprised the other members.

"Did? What's the matter??" yoongi.

"I'll promise to be myself, Hyung. Ii'm sorry.. Maybe you were nagging me at the agency office."

Yoongi rounded his eyes. "When did I say that?"

"When Hyung said, From the beginning, to the end of the end, the answer is only one. Why do you keep hiding it? My scar is all my fault."

Yoongi stroked Taehyung's hair gently, "Ah, that's me singing our new song. Did I ever tell anyone about the bad nature of others? I didn't mean it that way."

"Hey, isn't that Answer: Love Myself?" guess Hoseok.

Yoongi and Namjoon nodded slowly. "Yes." Yeah."

"But, I'm really sorry for that, Hyung. I'm really hiding something. But I also apologize for accusing Hyung." Taehyung said.

"Hm, yes-yes. But, don't cry anymore, okay?" Taehyung nodded, then wiped his tears and returned a wide smile.

"Yes, Hyung. I should love myself.."

to be continued.....