Lady Celestian
Episode 65 Sorry to love you

Happy Mambaca.....

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Feya POVs

This feeling came without me knowing. His attitude and gentleness made me forget what I was supposed to do. Pleasure and happiness come along with feelings that are always flowing. Now what do I have to do??? yeah, I love him, a Rey who loves my best friend. Can it be selfish?? but then he'll disappear, I've got very little time. If it's the same I betrayed and destroyed their trust. Which path should I choose??Lost or alive?? selfish or giving up??? this is really stifling.

I love him, but I'm sure he loves my best friend. He doesn't even know I exist. Because he thinks I am the one he loves. My confusion became more complex with the arrival of my brother who increasingly provoked me with a little time left.

2 Days ago........

It was such a cold night, so was my current grief. I decided to go out for some fresh air, go to the garden behind the mansion. Before long appeared a figure that I knew and feared, yes it was my brother, Fani.

"Feya, come with brother" he said, holding my hand, taking me somewhere. I can only obey him because I don't know what to do.

We got to a place, a place that I remember so much where all the memories were imprinted. My previous place, my home.

My brother invited me into the house, it looks like the state of the house that I miss so much. Even though it was almost dilapidated, yet I could still see all his memories, the memories of my mother. This is where I was born and raised living alone with my mother. Without knowing the whereabouts of mother.

I've been wanting to come back here for a long time.ahhh I miss him so much.

I hugged my sister tightly, she patted my shoulder gently and rubbed my head. Trying to calm her fragile sister.

He let go of our embrace, then he took something out of his pocket. It was my mother's pendant, which I had been looking for all this time. Brother gave it to me, I hugged the locket tightly as if I were hugging my mother. Again I miss him.Pafahal I have promised not to cry or have any other feelings again. I've killed all that....Is it because of Celestian and big brother??? though I should have been just a heartless killing machine.

We also sat in the old living room. From what I see it looks like this place is well taken care of using magic.

"the brother who has been taking care of this place, because this place is our home" he told me in a soft voice.

"you know, my dream is to stay here with you forever" he said again, as if ready to cry.

"sister, but it's impossible" I said with my eyes closed after crying earlier.

"that can happen Feya, as long as you want to control the body, I beg you please come along with brother" he said in a weak voice.

"sister, I told you I wouldn't betray my friend" I told my insistent sister.

"are you sure???then Rey will be with Celestian while you will be tormented with your own feelings" my brother said, sounding like provoking my currently indecisive self.

"No, it's the same as me being the villain" I told my brother.

"i don't know everything Feya, brother will make you live noemal as before and you can be with Rey" he said again which further provoked me.....

I knew it was a provocation that my brother had made for me to choose life but somehow my mind was consumed by the provocation.

I know he loves me very much and wants me to be happy but this is too much. I don't want to ruin my friendship with him, he's my first friend. I don't know why it hurts so much.

Not wanting to fight with my brother, I chose to return to the mansion leaving my brother alone....

It just so happened that the distance of the house with the mansion was not that far away and I was able to take it by magic.

I went back to my room, in the dark of the night, and I looked at the star in the window of the room. I was also back in worry. Even so, deep down in my heart, comes selfishness and greed to have her whole self, but it must be only for a moment.

Because as good as people hide carcasses will certainly be tercium as well. So too with the secrets that will someday be revealed. It's just gonna hurt.

Besides that I still have feelings for my best friend, what about my best friend??what about the person he loves and loves??? A lot of people will be sad because of that, and I can't see that. And because of this me, she also had to endure curses and sufferings since childhood. Somehow she felt, but I felt it too.

Before long there was a knock on the door, breaking down my daydreaming tube. I opened the door and saw the man I loved very much.

"Not slept?" ask him.

"not yet sleepy" I replied to him, I dare not look him in the eye.

"sleep tomorrow we have to go to some place" he said to me with a smile as he rubbed my head.

"alright, I'll go to sleep. You also sleep, beware that tomorrow is too late" I told him, mimicking the Celestian style.

He also went back to his room.

It hurts my heart to see him smile, what if he knows that all this time it was just a trick?? My heart is so restless.......

Flashback off

Even now I'm still in charge, especially yesterday Enna aberarkab has found her way and witches are willing.

Today we were being raised and Rey was away to get some food and drinks. The more Rey thinks the harder it is for me to make a decision. Before long, Rey arrives with a picnic basket in her hand. A smile was engraved beautifully on her face, showing her happiness. Would he smile if he knew I existed?? definitely not, because I took away the person he loved. I don't want to be hated......Seeing her smile and Celestian sudh made me the final decision.

I'm going to disappear, sorry my inner brother. Love does not have to have, choosing to give up and sacrifice also includes love. It's better than seeing someone I love unhappy. It's okay not with me but with my best friend, as long as he and my best friend are happy. That's love for me. To see the people I love happy.

Besides, I'll meet my mom, if I go to heaven....

Sorrylove.........

Who is the witch willing???will he be able to keep a secret???did Feya really disappear or did Celestian choose to kill his own soul???who will give up??? Keep reading their story in the Suffering of the Princess. Don't miss it....

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