Love In Hearts
The Lamar

Olin POV's

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Today I didn't go to school, I was too fragile and I couldn't accept any of this. My dearly beloved father has remarried like my mother.

In my heart I kept asking, why did they do that to me ?. If they don't understand my feelings, I really feel like I'm not being considered.

I swing my footsteps down the stairs, I see Papa's new wife sitting at the dinner table alone.

"Hi Lin, aren't you in school ?" the woman asked me.

But I didn't answer, I hated him as much as I hated Irwan, a good-ass man who turned out to be so evil.

"If asked in answer dong!!, not very polite anyway" the woman again said, making me look at him sharply this time.

"Who are you that dares to say that to me"

"I'm your stepmom now !! so be polite with me"

"Cih" I spit to the left "Only stepmom right, so don't be pretentious to power" I reply no less fierce.

He looked at me sharply, as if he wanted to swallow me alive. But I don't care, I'm not afraid of him one bit.

Before long Papa came, if he would have stroked my hair this time around differently, that woman is receiving Papa's attention now.

"Mas, Olin is so rude to me"

"She doesn't want to accept me as her mom"

Heh, what the fuck is this ?. Turns out this woman was a madman on Papa, and created a super cool drama.

"Olin please accept Mama Sarah to be your mom !! he is good" said Papa.

"He's good as Papa isn't the same as Olin"

"You're talking like that because you don't know Mama Sarah son" Papa still talks softly to me.

"I don't want to know him, and I don't want to think of him as my Mama just like I don't want to accept Irwan as my stepfather"

Plaaaakkk.

A pretty loud slap I received immediately. All this time Papa never did that to me, although I often make Papa angry but he never did violence.

But this time Papa did it, putting heat and pain in my right cheek, I didn't feel that part of the pain, enough tears to wipe it slowly.

"Olin, I'm sorry Papa son !! Papa accidentally" Papa's hand seemed to shake, maybe he regretted doing that to me. He wanted to hold my cheek but I avoided it.

"Papa's sorry son !" back Papa said that.

While the woman beside Papa seemed to be smiling with satisfaction, I could see her clearly. You evil woman.

"Papa changed !! Papa doesn't love Olin anymore" I cried echoing.

"Papa accidentally darling, forgive Papa"

I don't care, I ran out of the house at a fast pace. The cry of Papa who called my name no longer ignored me.

I want to go away, get away from everything. There's nothing else I can trust. Papa and Mama already have their own lives, and maybe soon I will be eliminated if Papa has another child from the woman.

But where am I going?, am I going to die ?. Maybe if I was not in this world, Papa and Mama would be happy, because there are no more children who would bother them, and they can live their household comfortably.

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Pov Author..

And this is where Olin was, in a small lake so deserted. He stared at the middle of the lake, making sure his body would sink if he went in there.

"I hate you" he shouted, spending all his little remaining voice.

"I'm sorry Olin Ma, Pa. Sorry if the presence of Olin all this time makes Mama and Papa disappointed" muttered Olin.

His tears kept dripping, he slowly walked towards the lake, a little more his feet would touch the calm looking lake water, but all his steps came to a halt as one held his hands tightly.

"Lep-" Olin turned around about to throw out her clutching hand, but her voice was held back when she saw Alzan looking at her with pity.

"Where are you going to keep walking there?, what if you're upset ?" alzan asked, this time he had already let go of Olin's hand.

"I'm going in there, Ustadz, I'm going to end my life"

"Astaghfirullah, why do you think like that ?. Sins deck "

"For what I live, they all hurt me, they all don't care about my feelings, they just want to make their choices without asking my consent"

Although he did not understand what Olin said, but Alzan could understand that Olin was very hurt. Maybe if Olin had become his Mahram he would have pulled the woman into his arms.

Olin sat down, hitting the ground repeatedly. Waving the pain that is getting worse.

Everything Olin did made Alzan feel like he was sliced. There was a pain he could not express.

"What makes you so hurt like this ?" finally, Alkaz asked.

"My mom and dad got divorced and now they're getting remarried. They don't know how I feel" Olin explained, sobbing.

"You have to accept all this!, maybe this is the destiny of your life"

Olin looked up at Alzan's face, but the man threw his face away.

"Ustadz doesn't understand my position"

"Yes I know that, but God's faith has prepared unexpected happiness for you"

Now Olin's cry is a little dissected.

"Why is Ustadz here ?"

"Before you came I was here first, this place became my favorite place"

Olin did not expect if he would meet with Alzan here, there was a little happiness when he met the man. But it seems Olin must erase his feelings when he remembers that Alzan will marry Yuna.

"How's the future wife of Ustadz ?" ask Olin.

"Why are you asking like that ? don't you like me ?" Alzan asked back.

Hearing that Olin looked down embarrassed, he cursed his stupidity for confessing his feelings at that time.

"I'm sorry Ustadz if I'm presumptuous to like Ustadz, I shouldn't have done that, I have to realize I don't deserve Ustadz"

Alzan smiled meaningfully, but unfortunately Olin did not see that.

"May I propose to you ? I will make you happy" said Alzan sure.

Of course Olin was shocked to hear, how could Alzan actually propose to him. This was like a dream that often came while he was asleep.

"Don't joke Ustadz"

"Who's joking, I'm serious"

"How about that woman ?"

"My best friend loves him, so I don't want to hurt my best friend" explained Alzan again.

"Will my proposal be accepted if I come to see your parents ?" Ask Alzan again.