Love Needs Debt
Curious

Curious I'm Bang

Usfi glanced at Gani who was also silent, his eyes straight ahead, in his hand holding a famous brand children's drinking bottle containing milk. Azzam was back to sleep.

“How are you, Bang?” Usfi asked, he finally tried to speak up after a long time of silence, thus making the atmosphere between them awkward.

There was a sudden erratic rumble in his heart, guessing what happened to Gani and her family. Even tears like they were about to come out, missed him?

“Well, you see for yourself, where can I go bring this child if sick, you are still the same from the past never sensitized to me, On!”

Gani said as he glanced at Usfi at a glance, then, looked back straight ahead. There is a sense of annoyance that is painted on the tone of his speech, because he was trapped accidentally with the girl who, all this time, always managed to make him a talkative person.

He was more able to be himself in front of Usfi, just like this time, although, his heartbeat was racing stronger than before, he showed no nervousness at all. Sitting close together like this, only happened when they were both single first, when gathering with friends or before Usfi married Anwar.

Usfi smiled after glaring at Gani who looked away, she was annoyed at the men who had changed a lot since they started apart.

They had been close, then, not meeting for three years and getting back together in a state between bosses and employees, then separated again in a longer time than before, which was four years. They are now just waiting for the time as to what now meets, whether to return as friends, it seems like yes.

“This is your son, Bang? What's name?”

“Azam.”

“That means determination, she looks like you, Bang. I've seen him at the Matraman hotel restaurant! Are you there too, Tuesday if not wrong.”

“Yes, I'm there!”

“Ngapain Brother over there? What does it work for?”

“You are like a journalist, do all my stories want to be uploaded in the newspaper or fesbuk? Ask what else, out of this?”

Usfi chuckled at Gani's joke and she nodded.

“Iya, Bang. I wonder why you can be in Kalimantan and bring a child?”

“Azam come with me yes, I yng bring, if follow Abah, yes Abah who brought, if follow me but you who brought, added funny, Fi?”

Usfi laughed again, but this time he covered his mouth with a palm because Azam suddenly woke up, while the plane was still flying.

“Daddy, still a while ya?”

“Yes, Azam just sleep so as not to feel, later if you wake up already at home Grandma!”

Azam nodded and drank the milk in Gani's hand.

“Azam, you are so funny anyway?” said Usfi while pinching the little boy's cheek, then looked at Gani, “Similar to you, Bang!”

“If you say it looks like funny don't gig, say like Sule or Parto, it's good!”

“You are weird! Obviously he's that handsome, I'm saying funny.”

“Oh, so his brother wants Azam to be said to be handsome like his Father, so?” Usfi laughs again, “ Istighfar, Bang!”

“So, Bang .. I mean say funny it doesn't mean not handsome, don't get me wrong!”

“No one misunderstands the same funny or handsome speech, which makes us misunderstand it. Bayangin if we walk together like gini, On? What do people say try? You are not your husband, I am not my wife. Where exactly are their partners? That's what they say later!”

Usfi was silent as he rubbed Azam's head, then let out his breath slowly while staring out the window. Gani said, opening up a little memory about his past and, suddenly, the pain came back to say hello.

Is happiness really real in this world, he thought. In fact, it is not always happy that is present in life, because sometimes humans are tested with sadness and lack. Happiness comes to a person it is time for him to be happy, and sadness greets him, because it is his turn.

When staring at the view of the clouds outside the window, Usfi held his feelings all his heart so as not to cry, he did not want to look weak in front of Gani, because he had always looked tough all this time.

He recalled the words of Nafisa who advised him to carefully put love, because not necessarily love will bring man in his happiness. Except for the love of man to God who will never clap one hand, His love must be reciprocated beautifully, His love will surely bring joy, because God will not turn away just like that, it will not even go away for no reason, for the whole world is in His grasp.

“Indeed, where is Azam's mother?” ask Usfi after a long time just silent, “Don't say you like me, Bang!”

Gani was silent and just stared at Usfi with a frown.

“The mother is Azam yes, it is in her house there, in Lake!”

“Oh.”

“Terus you why so far here is not the same husband?”

“Masa Abang do not know anyway, if I am not the same Mr Anwar again?”

Gani was slightly surprised and astonished, upon hearing Usfi's reply, shaking his head. He thought the girl was just a walk to Pontianak, looking at one of his older brothers who were there. He remembered that Algizali had left together, with one of the Usfi brothers.

Meanwhile, Usfi thought that Gani must have known about the situation of her now widowed life. He remembered how rowdy the surrounding community was in that village, always gossiping to a young and wealthy widow. Duh, unpleasant news, therefore he left.

The girl becomes embarrassed by her own confession but, nevertheless, thinks positively if Gani does not have prejudice like others to her.

“I think Abang is at the Lake, with family there, because Mr. Joko said at that time, if you do not work anymore! Uh, no year it's here.”

“You remember? I myself have forgotten about it, because it has been a long time .. we do not know yes, if life will be like that! His name is also destiny.”

Usfi was getting embarrassed, until his cheeks warmed up and certainly met red.

After that conversation, they didn't talk much about their personal matters, let alone Gani. He just said his wife was at his house. Of course what Gani said, understood by Usfi with something different.

Usfi who more talk about herbs or vegetables that he cultivated in school. In fact, almost half of the trip, he spent to tell me about his school. He fell asleep until his trip to the airport.

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