LOVE THE SON OF USTADZ
Disappointment (2)
Joseph chose to go to the market mosque, he ablution, after the ablution, Joseph sat in the long chair near the mushola, to calm his mind, to calm all the feelings that clawed his heart, he said, between angry, disappointed and stupid because it can only save his feelings without expressing them, so Syauqon first get Najwa, wait not on the night of the week where the night Syauqon expressed his feelings to Najwa, but not on the night of the week, Joseph also met Najwa, this means that Najwa had given a lay hope to Joseph, did not on that night Najwa said that he hoped to have a more than friend relationship with Joseph, but actually Najwa has become the girlfriend of Syauqon, then what does Najwa mean? Weird right?
After about 15 minutes Joseph was silent, he remembered the Judge he could have guessed was waiting for him with a bag of bread, Joseph hurried to the Judge and wow, Joseph's guess was correct, now the Judge was waiting for him with a loaf of bread beside him. "where have you been?" asked the Judge, who was sitting in a long chair in front of the bakery, "go around? Let's go meet the others! I believe they were waiting at the gates of the market" answered Joseph and walked before the Judge, "strangely, have I not been waiting for him since, and why he gave me advice" the Judge murmured in his heart.
While on the way back to the cottage Joseph did not say much, sometimes he just smiled to respond to the jokes of his friends, Amir realized the change of Joseph, but he chose not to ask first, what was the problem of Joseph. The night after the prayer Isya Yusuf did not return to the room, yes because the night of Saturday Joseph served as qismul kholis which means cleanliness, and wow that makes Joseph surprised is, and, why did Abraham also join Joseph's qismul kholis team, perhaps if Abraham only joined his secure qismul team, Joseph could accept, but why did Abraham also join his qismul kholis team, he said, Yusuf asked his seniors and his seniors replied "he wants to add value, yes because he is a student of aliyah 3rd class who will soon carry out graduation, definitely embarrassed, no, if you don't pass or get a bad grade."
Alright Joseph could only resign, after finishing picking up the garbage from room to room and throwing it to a special place of santri, the students on duty returned to the room, especially Joseph who was hurt, and more so Joseph was sick, surely he really wanted to quickly lay down his body into the hard mattress in his room, wait is Joseph hurt? Yes, Joseph still could not remove Najwa from his mind, why? Since he likes Najwa, does that look excessive? Apparently yes, again Joseph was too much, when Joseph walked away from the garbage dump, his hands were clenched by Yes.who else if not Abraham, Joseph could have guessed it
"What else is it?" joseph trembled, Abraham did not answer, he struck Joseph in the stomach and kicked Joseph in the leg violently, leaving Joseph lying on the ground when Abraham struck him on the shoulder, and kicking Joseph's feet many times, making Joseph unable to resist, Yea.
"This is for the last touch of the dream santri" said Abraham and raised his hand to the handsome face of Joseph, Abraham wanted to leave, but "sister.do you do the same to other santri?" joseph's question was successful in making Abraham stop his steps "if yes, what is your business, do you want to replace their position, like you replaced my brother?" abraham said haughtily "yes" answered Joseph briefly, but made Abraham's emotions rise and without further ado Abraham pulled the collar of Joseph's clothes so as to make Joseph's body lifted up, then Abraham smote Joseph in the face with anger, then threw Joseph's body back into the back of the school and kicked Joseph in the waist many times.
"Hows it? Sick? You are powerless handsome santri, weak..to replace my sister's position you are almost dead, how do you want to replace the position of the santri that I often beat? You're the son of the head of this hut, Yusuf, but why are you so weak? Know it?I admit you're weaker than my sister, you coward!" abraham's words exploded as he drew his face closer to Joseph's, which could be said to be very alarming, "I think you're more of a coward, why did you beat up your sister? Of course he doesn't fight, what is called santri jagaan, I don't think the title is appropriate for you because you're more cowardly than me sak" hearing Joseph's words, Abraham's countenance suddenly changed as if there was sadness on his face, Abraham was silent for a few seconds and "i don't know" abraham answered quietly in a lethargic tone and passed with slow steps leaving Joseph who had risen from his sprawl, now Joseph sat down while massaging his limbs that were painful due to Abraham's blow. Seeing Abraham's demeanor that changed deftly made Joseph only able to frown.
When he entered it turned out that all his friends had fallen asleep, Joseph also glanced at the working clock perched on the bookshelf together, the clock has shown at 22:18 Joseph wanted to go to bed earlier, and what happened was that he returned to his room later than usual, and worst of all, he went to bed earlier, Joseph could not sleep he lay on the bed staring blankly at the door, which he thought was now Najwa, what is Najwa? Yes Joseph thought of Najwa, he was disappointed. Joseph should not be disappointed in Najwa, for in any case, Najwa was not his, but only a friend, a friend whom Joseph liked, after a long time he could not sleep, he said, he glanced at the clock "what?? Now that it was 01:15, it was impossible" Joseph murmured inwardly, then it flashed in his mind a word "rather than you daydreaming incoherently, it is better to pray isthoroh, Istikhoroh, ask God to calm your mind and quickly forget a completely unimportant problem" actually it was his father's advice when Joseph began to despair because he often got insults from his friends in AL-HIDAYAH, quickly Joseph out and headed to the place of wudu.
After ablution he entered the mosque, there was no one because usually the mosque will be crowded from 3 to the dawn prayer time. After completing the prayer istikhoroh two rakaat Yusuf do'a and because his mind has begun to calm he also tendered his body to the wall of the mosque. Moments later the "assalamualaikum" greeting accompanied by a loud pat on Yusuf's shoulder made him wake up from his chicken slumber, after he glanced at the direction the voice was coming from which was precisely beside him, it turns out that there was Amir with his relaxed face staring at Joseph .
"Waalaikumsalam" Joseph answered in his typical waking voice "do you think our room is not spacious enough for you to sleep?" amir asked who began to arrange his sitting position next to Joseph "hmm.no, I just want to calm my mind" replied Joseph with a blank look "you why?"ask Amir who can be said rather more "i just. huh.." replied Yusuf heavily "tell me what your problem is, never cover a single one of your problems from me" amir said softly "but you must promise not to be angry with me and not to spread it to anyone" asked Joseph to say "yes" replied Amir quickly, Joseph also told him everything that happened to him today, he said, starting about him waking up to about him meeting Amir in the mosque this time, there was not the slightest thing that he covered even he also told me that this afternoon he had scolded his senior brother who was none other than Humaira just because Yusuf thought Humaira had humiliated Najwa.
When Joseph Amir hugged Joseph, wait! Do not misunderstand me, Amir hugged Joseph as a friend with a big brother-like hug to calm his sister, not a hug with lust "I understand Joseph how you feel, Joseph, since I had experienced something more painful than you" said Amir, patting Joseph on the back, Joseph quickly let go of Amir's embrace and "really? What the hell happened to you? Can you tell me?" pinta Yusuf excitedly made Amir laugh softly "would you listen to my sad story?"amir asked casually "tell me!" yusuf replied quickly "fine, if you're not happy, please cut my story" Amir said and began the story.
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