Loving a Second Cousin (Can't Turn Away)
Love is not that stupid

It was enough for him to continue to be injured, this time Dhira would do life as he wished, he would do whatever he wanted, and who would stop him, so far the Regantarah who always managed to limit it.

"Look at what I can do, don't be happy on top of my mediocre life, I'm sorry to have loved you so deeply, I'm sorry for wishing you this high you turned out to be so petty Rega."

Satisfied Nadhira test courage by driving he does not care about Rega who is now chasing him. With a giant step he entered his house, Dhirapun did not pay attention to his mother when calling.

"Tante, please talk to Dhira, give her some understanding so she can understand that our relationship cannot be maintained." Rega.

"You know what his attitude is, don't you? Dhira is stubborn he will not listen to the words of others even if I say."

"Dhira almost killed herself Auntie, she was driving on the race track." Rega's complaint frustratedly hoped her Tantenya could help a little.

"Go home. Auntie's gonna try to talk."

Reluctantly Rega stepped foot leaving the Candidate in-laws would not be.

Nadhira Pov's

PRANGS.. PRANGS...

The sound of things breaking and falling, I smashed everything Rega had ever given me including the latest luxury phone he gave me a few months ago. Not only is handsome and caring that makes me crazy about an established man like my second cousin Regantara, he is also rich and the most authentic always follow whatever I want, he is an elevator operator engaged in heavy equipment.

Mama opened the door to my room with a spare key, the woman I loved did not want to bother knocking on the door like her, she knew if I was angry I would not open the door for her.

My mother kept coming up to me and sat on the floor with me, even right next to me.

"Dhira, forget Rega, you must have gotten a much better man than him!" It was easy for Mama to say all that, not knowing just Mama what the man had taken from her.

"I can't Ma. I can't let Rega and Sarah get married." I'm still clingy with what I want.

"Don't be like this, Dhira, don't ruin other people's relationships."

"Destroying someone else's relationship? My relationship has broken Ma." Press me with annoyance.

"One more time Mama asked me to forget Rega, and continue your studies, only one more semester you will graduate baby. Mama please." Mama's been begging me, even though I don't care.

"No, I will not continue my studies, why should I continue my education if my world is coming to an end."

It seemed that Mama was furious to hear all this, Mama immediately stood up with her angry face.

"Money Mas Rega? What does Mama mean?"

"Yes, all the facilities you get in Switzerland are money from Rega, he's the one that pays for your education, food, and where you live." I gasped more and more at Mama's confession, I thought that all the time I was in college there it used Papa's money, but it turned out it was Mas Rega's money. I couldn't have listened wrongly either.

"Since when? Why don't you guys finance me."

"Since the first day you set foot there all of it using Rega's money, Papa's business has gone out of business since you were in high school, now your Papa works in Rega's office." I was surprised to hear Mama's next story. "So please don't waste Rega Dhira's sacrifice, at least prove that you can be a successful woman." Mom sounded sad at the end of the sentence.

"I was in college and wanted to be a great architect just to be able to establish myself with Rega ma, but now I can't be her woman anymore, I'm gonna drop out of college and find a job to get Rega's money back, even if it's in a way to pay him back." Mungkasku.

"What job are you looking for? Without a diploma you will find it difficult to get a job, finish your college, only after that you can work, with a diploma you will definitely get a good job with a big salary, then returning Rega's money will be quickly achieved."

It's true what Mama said, but I can't continue to rely on that guy.

"Dhira don't waste Rega's selfless sacrifice."

From here I was angry again, what Mama said selflessly Rega even often used her body to satisfy the desire of the adult man, he said, every two months Rega met him for two days and during that time he was used by the man without being missed. It turned out that Rega had been treating her as a comfort woman that she actually paid for her life while in Switzerland. Now that I feel so despicable, even Rega took my virginity at the age of seventeen as a one-year annyversary gift of our relationship Rega asked for my friendship as a gift, we do it consciously without the influence of drugs or alcohol. This is what I regret I believed so much in the sweet words that the man said that I gave everything I had including my own pride, to the point where Rega dumped me I felt my world shatter into pieces.

"Don't always come to him, let him live a quiet life, after all you don't actually have to pay the money that Rega has spent for you."

"Yes because he's been taking my body all this time for his pay."

Mama dropped her flat shocked by what came out of my mouth.

"What do you mean Dhira?"

"During this Rega used to fuck me, she wasn't as good as Mama thought, she wasn't as innocent as Mama thought, every time Rega visited me she always asked me to serve her without being missed at all, you count Ma, how many of your sons are prostitutes." I opened up all my shame in front of Mama, I realized and deliberately so that Mama did not always think that Rega was very kind but actually the man was not as good as he looked.

Mama looked at me with eyes full of disappointment, I understood that, a mother who can accept if her daughter becomes an outlet for a man's desire, let alone Mama knows the man well.

"Why are you doing this Dhira? you're a fool you have no self-respect at all." Mama yelled at me with tears shed in both eyes, I whimper and stutter simultaneously ti her fragile body.

"Sorry Ma, I love Rega too much, I love her."

"But not like this Dhira, you're swapping your body just for love it's stupidity, love won't be this stupid Dhira, it's worth it you're like crazy when Rega chooses to end the relationship."

"I'm sorry Dhira Ma!"