Lucid Dream: Wonderland
01 - Lucifer Boizmeirt
Lucifer Boizmeirt, that's how they call me in this place. Born as an illegitimate child of a spouse and lower caste. The child who is not considered a human being, who is on his neckline like a dog, is fed raw food, stale and told to do heavy work.
You know, this whole thing is actually my dream. A dream that is always present in my sleep and continues. It's just too real to be called a dream, I can feel it all, pain and suffering.
If I had never slept, it would have been painful if I had to be the lead to suffer so much. But, a great and terrible secret slowly emerged and involved me who did not know this .
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"Don't touch my plate. You can transmit your illness to me "female base Sint**, long ago my ears could shrivel up hearing such harsh words.
How could he keep saying dirty words from his mouth?Oh, my God, I don't think it out. All the bad behavior of this woman I call mother is already too dangerous.
Every day he punched, kicked and even whipped my small, thin body. I can't dodge, let alone fight back. He tied my neck. After all, with this skinny little body I can what?
This dream is too horrible. Wanted to wake up, but despite trying in any way, I still couldn't wake myself up. Unless the dawn has come. I stood there until I forgot that the woman was looking at me with a look of disgust. Cih, what are you looking at?!
"Why are you standing there, huh? Going back to your cage, seeing you for too long makes me remember that rich fucking guy's face" a dirty sentence came back out of his mouth.
Do you have any idea how many sins you've committed? God, swearing in my heart can't make my anger go away. Better to avoid it and hope this super nightmare ends.
If this is a true story and not a dream, the child who became Lucifer is a messian. To this day, I still wonder. Why do I have the same dream every night? Why can I feel the pain of being kicked, beaten and whipped to the point of being carried away in a normal life outside of a dream? Why should I get this dream?
Do you know how much I'm breathing because I don't understand? thousand times.
Questions kept popping up and ringing in my head. I can only give up on this dream, face it all and become a Lucifer Boizmeirt.
***
For days I kept getting this dream and kept going, only this time it was a little different. It was about my Lucifer's changing form.
Lucifer's thin, small and seedy body changed into a terrifying figure. Large body black, tall, winged and sharp hoofed. Oh, my God, what else is this?
The scene in front of me right now was that the figure I called the mother was only her head. Auw.. disgusting! The room of the house is full of splashes of blood and pieces of the human body. Everything's dreary.
After that, this body moves on its own without my control. This body began to fly destroying the roof of the room and shot rapidly upwards.
The dark cloudy sky immediately greeted. My eyes that looked down were immediately greeted by chaos.
A city seemed to have been destroyed flat by the ground, flames were raging everywhere, piles of corpses were strewn about. Oh, my God, that's awful! What the hell is going on?.
My head could no longer think. When did I wake up from this nightmare?
***
The body of this monster flew away from the city, I saw everything. Fly through dark clouds, occasionally through forests and small towns. Keep flying without knowing the destination.
What does this dream mean? All these things cannot be clearly digested by my head.
Then, suddenly, this body began to lose control, crashing into the edge of a steep hill and its trees until it finally landed in a shallow river.
Ugh, it hurts so much! Is this body also connected to me? Then this body I better control, because it feels like this body absorbs all the energy I have.
In that shallow river, my Lucifer form is back to what it was. With the rest of my strength, I crawled to the riverbank and instantly lay helpless. My whole body is numb, my breathing is irregular, I'm really tired of all this.
If I never fell asleep again. This dream is too horrible and painful. I want to wake up soon.
Consciousness disappeared. Good though. Everything that happened today was just too horrible.
***
"Ah, you're awake. Good" I vaguely heard someone's voice. Because my vision was blurred, I could not see his face clearly.
"Who are you?" I asked while trying to sit down, but I couldn't. My energy has not fully recovered.
"I'm with you" he replied.
"Man?" ask me again.
"My outer being is human, but I'm not human" he said, which sounded more like nonsense.
"You're crazy! Ah, right too. I must wake up from this nightmare. I'm sorry, I have to go" I said, then tried to go back to sleep.
I have to wake up soon, there's a strange person sitting next to me. How could there be a person who is human inside instead of human?
Uh, wait, this is similar to my case. Outsiders of monsters and deeps of Lucifer. God, I can't sleep if I keep thinking about it.
"Hey, what are you doing? You made a strange face," the freak asked, making my concentration waver to go back to sleep.
"Shhhhhhh! I'm trying to wake up from this nightmare, don't disturb my concentration!" I said while placing my index finger in front of my lips.
"Huh? You should be called crazy! The nightmare? Just be right. There may be dreams this bad" he said, not believing me.
"Shut up! From the beginning this was a dream and that fact will never change" I said as I continued to try to fall asleep.
"Yes, whatever. Soon the night will come, I will also rest" he said.
"I don't care, as long as you're away from my place" I said annoyed. He's a real freak.
"Yes you're right. Since long ago she was weird especially with such a long hairstyle" a voice rang out from inside my head. Who else is this? Whoever you are, please let me fall asleep and go home.
***
Everything just passed by, without me knowing this meeting made me more deeply involved. Problems kept popping up, until one incident made me wonder about the true purpose of this nightmare.