MARRIED BRONDONG
Life is sawang sinawang

Life is sawang sinawang, sometimes we see the neighboring grass is greener and more beautiful than in front of our house when if we look closer we may see there are many grasshoppers there who eat the grass up to the leaves a lot of it is broken and looks ugly. Even the grass looks dry and withered because it is rarely watered. Everything is just a mirage, not everything we see beautiful is really beautiful. Not everything we think is happy is happy or vice versa.

We cannot judge the lives of others to be happy just because we see them always laughing, or vice versa. Because we do not know if he is really happy in his life or not, the answer is only that person knows.

Some say that life is a charade, that I agree. Because in my life I always acted like a professional actress.

Maybe in the eyes of my close friends I am a very lucky figure. Having a brilliant career, having a handsome and well-established husband, kind-hearted in-laws and adorable children.

They were even jealous because every weekend me and my family always vacation out of town, even we look so harmonious.

Of course, it is not only my friend who thinks so, even my family also always flattered me because only me and my husband were always royal to them and rarely complained of financial problems to my parents.

They just don't know if everything is just fake. Maybe only me and my husband know what our real family is.

Maybe if I became a celebrity, I would have won the image trophy as the best artist because I always managed to play every role in every film I starred in.

I don't know why I've been acting so much lately. Maybe it all started that day.

Being married to someone we love cannot guarantee that we will live happily with them.

After marriage, love is not enough to make us happy.

Money is not everything, but to get everything we need money.

That's why people know we sometimes tell us to marry people who already have permanent or established jobs. The reason is because we cannot live relying only on love, we need money to eat and survive.

At least that's what I'm going through.

Since my husband was only a Non-Staying Employee in a government Agency, I decided to work after marriage.

Living in a metropolitan city makes us who start everything from scratch have to work hard to get everything.

Besides teaching, I also have a catering business.

Catering business I live because of hobby. It was unexpected that my catering business grew so much that I could buy cars and houses after running the business.

I started developing my catering business with a culinary business in an online application and thank God everything went smoothly.

Taking care of catering alone takes up a lot of my time.

I wasted more time working than taking care of my two children.

If my husband helped me take care of my first child, now because of his busy life he can't help me take care of the children anymore.

I was forced to take my youngest son to work because we didn't have a nanny.

Indeed from the beginning I was determined to take care of my own child without the help of a baby sitter.

Sometimes I like to envy my friends for having parents who help them take care of their sons and daughters.

Maybe you asked me where my parents or my in-laws were??.

My mother is sick so I don't want to bother them. While my mother-in-law was the same, she suffered a stroke while I was pregnant with my second son.

I don't mind taking my kids to work, besides the job invites not to take a lot of time so I can still take care of them.

It's just that if my catering business is crowded I must be overwhelmed and tend to ignore them.

I just gave them toys and let them both play without accompanying them.

When my second son was two years old, my mother-in-law fell and could not walk.

Since my husband was the first child, he decided to take care of my mother in our home.

Ever since my mother took care of my mother, I decided to close my catering business in order to take care of my mother-in-law.

Maybe for others mother-in-law is a scary figure, but not for me.

My mother-in-law was so kind to me, even I was able to get things I didn't get from my birth mother from her.

So unfortunately he told me to make me sincerely take care of him during his illness.

But life is full of tests, not everything we plan will go our way.

Caring for the sick person requires a high level of patience, especially when he is nearing his death. There must be some behavior that pisses us off.

I don't know why my mom suddenly doubled her appetite when she had a stroke.

Sometimes I get annoyed when I get home from work, my mom has finished all the food in the kitchen. I wanted to rest after work so I had to cook, but I was so hungry.

One or two days I can still be patient and live it sincerely, but the name of the patient man has its limits.

That day I had a disagreement with my fellow teachers, my youngest son acting in school.

He scrawled through the walls of the classroom, causing one of the teachers to report to the principal. But instead of reprimanding me, the principal talked about me behind my back and always insinuated me.

Because I couldn't stand all that, I went to see him.

"No need ma'am, then let Mang Parjo alone paint it," replied the Headmaster

"Father, because my son has scrawled it, I will be responsible,"

I immediately walked out of the principal's room after taking out all of my teardrops.

I stared intently at the teacher who reported the matter to the principal.

I still remember his words when I met him, when I found Bagas scratching the walls of his class.

"Sorry Mr. Yani, later I will definitely clean the scrawled Bagas, but not today yes, maybe tomorrow,"

"No papa ma'am his name is also children, later let me just ask the students to paint it happens I still have paint the rest of the class decorating competition," he replied with a friendly face

"Thank you very much for your understanding and once again sorry, yes,"

Basic Culas, somehow he was so good in front of me and seemed to forget everything, but he instead reported me to the principal.

That day after school I immediately bought paint in the shop next to the school building.

I immediately painted the classroom walls that my son had scrawled alone until the afternoon.

Upon arrival at home I felt so hungry, because I did not have time for lunch.

When I opened the closet, there was nothing left, but this morning I had cooked a lot and I was sure enough until the afternoon.

Must be the mother who spent it?

"Why just got home?" ask my husband

"There's a problem at school" I replied briefly

"Then you cook so quickly, your father is hungry, he says he has not eaten from lunch," said my husband made me even more upset

How not, instead of asking what the problem is, he just as casually cook, I guess what assistant?.

I was too tired today to choose to keep silent all my anger.

I immediately cooked an omelet, chicken nuggets for the kids as well as sambal for our dinner menu.

As usual my husband must immediately tweet when he saw our food menu there are no vegetables.

"How can I not have trouble defecating if I always eat like this!" heckled

"Just be grateful for what is" I replied briefly

In the morning, as usual, I woke up early to cook. Today I cooked more food than usual.

After preparing breakfast, I hurried to save some side dishes for the afternoon, so that I would not have to bother cooking after work.

It's not that I'm stingy, or calculating, but I just don't want to be hating my mom for food. Besides, I've also prepared food for mom until I get home, so I don't think she's going to starve.

That afternoon when I came home from work I saw my mother's face was so pale.

"Mom why, is mom sick?" ask me so worried

"Mother is hungry" she replied in an already indistinct tone

Indeed, he was difficult to talk after falling, but he was still able to walk despite being trained.

I don't know why I feel guilty for hiding some side dishes.

I immediately picked up the side dish I was hiding and gave a plate of rice complete with side dishes for him.

"I'm sorry ma'am" said I felt guilty and deeply regretted my actions

The woman nodded slowly, then ate her food so voraciously.

After eating he then clasped my hand and hugged me tightly. At that time I didn't think much of anything, my mother always did. She's always been nice to me and loved me like her own daughter, which is why I love her so much.

In the morning I didn't hide any more food, I didn't want to starve my mother anymore.

After breakfast I say goodbye to her for work, because it just so happened that today my sister-in-law came and decided to stay with me to find work.

I deliberately didn't take Bagas to school that day and leave it to him.

That afternoon while I was teaching material immersion, my husband called me. She told me that she fell out of the bathroom and is now in the hospital.

My body felt weak.

I hurriedly ended my activities and immediately rushed to the hospital to visit my mother.

"How's Mom doing?" ask me with a loud voice

"She's still in a coma" my husband replied, causing my tears to splash down my cheeks