
Katalina, the 20-year-old girl looked at the handsome man in front of her with her mouth open. His eyes were already glazed over because what Okan said he had never thought of before.
"Fuck, don't joke. Aren't we here to celebrate our 5th anniversary?"
Okan smiled. "I'm sorry, Lina. I don't want to keep deceiving you. The feeling I have for you is gone."
"Since when?" katalina asked with a broken heart.
"From these past few months."
"Exactly since when?" katalina asked with a tone of voice that began to rise.
"Eitherway. Maybe for the last four or five months."
"Four or five months?" Katalina's hand immediately lifted and slapped Okan very hard. "If your feelings for me were gone 4 or 5 months ago, why did you have a birthday a month ago when you promised to marry me? Why did you make me soar that night with such a conviction of your sincere love for me? Why did you seduce me and make me fall asleep so that I gave myself up to you? Are you a guy who likes to make promises?" katalina yelled while hitting Okan's chest with both hands. "Why? Why.....?"
Okan did not at all deflect Katalina's blow even though her body was in pain because she knew that what Katalina was feeling right now, was much more painful. A bloodless wound that would destroy Catalina.
"Hate me as you please. Curse me as much as you want. But I can't fool you with everything I feel. I'm also tormented if I don't tell all these truths. I'm sorry, Lina. I'm sorry....!" Okan immediately left Katalina alone.
"I hate you, Okan!" katalina shouted before the man got into his car and left.
Katalina looked at the dining table. All the food was neatly arranged there. Katalina cooks Okan's favorite food. Since coming home from college, Katalina has been in this cottage house. The house Okan bought as their meeting place. The place they love.
Katalina's eyes stared at the slightly open door of the room. A month ago, in that room was Katalina for the first time to hand herself over to Okan. It was still clear in her memory what Okan had said when Katalina cried for fear of what they had done.
"Baby, don't cry. Do you regret giving up your sanctity to me?" ask Okan while holding both sides of Katalina's shoulder.
"Well, we shouldn't be like this. I'm afraid I'm pregnant."
"And you don't think I'll take responsibility? Hey, don't you believe that I love you? We've been dating for 5 years. You're the only one who doesn't want me to tell everyone about our relationship. I love you, Lina. You are my breath. My whole life passion. Didn't I tell you that often?"
At that time, Katalina directly hugged Okan very tightly. He knew Okan loved him.
Katalina knew Okan when she was 15. Katalina helped her busy aunt prepare the dish because the second child of the Bagaskara family finally came home after completing her studies in America. Katalina falls in love when she first sees Okan. But he immediately dismissed his feelings because he knew what the difference was between them. Katalina who is still so young is very aware that this is indeed the love of monkeys. It will soon disappear too.
But who would have thought, the next day, when Katalina came home on foot from school alone, Okan confronted her and immediately expressed love for her. At that time, Katalina did not believe it. But every day Okan always met him in various ways until finally Katalina collapsed as well. Katalina is willing to accept Okan's love as long as their relationship is kept secret because Katalina is afraid that because of their relationship, her uncle and aunt are fired. She also wants to finish her studies first, find a job, in order to become a woman worthy of Okan.
"You son of a bitch, Okan! You are the worst man I have ever known....!" Katalina destroyed the contents of the room. He also threw all his cooked food into the trash. He then left the cottage without ever wanting to come back here again.
When Katalina left, she did not realize that one of the candles she had installed in one corner of the room, fell and hit the window curtain. The cottage's house burned down unnoticed by Katalina.
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"Where have you been, son?" ask Feni, Katalina's aunt.
"Sorry, bi. I'm going to my friend's birthday party."
"But you're okay, right? Why are your eyes swollen? You crying?"
"Yes. I suddenly remember mom."
Feni hugged her bangs. "Your mother's happy, son. Now you focus on your college. So that if you succeed, our family in the village will also be proud of you. Just imagine, you get a scholarship and can study at one of the most prestigious universities here."
"Yes, bi. Uh, where's aunt going?" katalina asked, looking at her aunt who was walking towards the door.
"Auntie wants to sleep in the mansion. Very early in the morning want to make a cake because at 9 am, the Baskoro family want to visit the Ciputra family home."
"To Viona's house?" katalina asks curiously because her best friend Viona is the Ciputra family's youngest daughter.
"Yes. That's your college friend, right? It turns out that he and young master Okan are getting married."
"What?"
"The lady said that Viona was pregnant. But don't you tell anyone?"
"Huh?" catalina's heart is like it's stopped beating.
"Yes. Hence the wedding of Neng Viona and mister Okan will be held in 2 weeks."
Arriving at the room, Katalina covered her mouth with both hands while trying to keep her crying voice from coming out. He looked at his two cousins, the son of his uncle and aunt, the twin Gods and Goddess who seemed to have fallen asleep. The 11-year-old God and Goddess and Katalina loved both her cousins very much.
That night, Katalina felt her heart break into tiny fragments that could no longer be connected. He did not expect that his best friend would marry Okan, a man who has been his girlfriend for 5 years.
Viona is a shy, beautiful girl. She is the only one who knows that Okan and Katalina are dating. But now his best friend and girlfriend turned out to stab Katalina in the back.
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Katalina is an orphan. Her father died when Katalina was 8 years old and her mother died when Katalina was just in the 1st grade of Junior High.
Aunt Feni is the younger sister of Catalina's late father. He invites Katalina to live with him in the suburbs while guarding a horse farm belonging to one of the city's wealthy families.
Katalina, who is important to be smart, can finally get a scholarship and continue her studies.
It's Monday, Katalina's going to campus as usual. It was enough for 2 days that she cried. Despite the pain, Katalina will try to accept everything with a chest roomy. Maybe God was so good to her that before her relationship with Okan deepened, she knew the man's rot.
From this horse farm, Katalina would ride a bike to the main road to wait for the bus. Usually, Okan has been waiting in the log cabin which is located somewhat hidden from the road leading to this farm. Katalina will park her bike there and be escorted to campus by Okan.
Now, however, Katalina had to get used to going on the bus again. He'll drop his bike at the stall near the bus stop.
"Eh, neng Lina!" greet Aunt Lala the owner of the shop.
"Bicycle gear huh, bi?"
"OKs. Don't forget the key, huh?"
It's not just Katalina who's got her bike here. There are some people who live on the farm often ride their bikes or motorcycles.
"Neng, 2 days ago, the cottage house near the hill was on fire" Lala said.
Katalina who was sitting in front of the stall was shocked. "Burning?"
"Yes. In terms of the cottage house it belongs to the Bagaskara family. I heard that Mr. Okan loved being in that house. According to the police the origin of the fire because the candle was left lit until it burned the window curtain."
"Oh, is that it?" although surprised, Katalina looks ordinary.
Shortly after, the bus arrived. Katalina and several other people who were waiting for the bus immediately boarded.
And by the time Katalina got to campus, the news of Viona and Okan's wedding had already been talked about. Viona's not on campus anymore. He said he was on leave because he was pregnant.
Although his heart was very sick to hear the story, but he tried hard. He did not want if until the scholarship became void because it could not meet the GPA standards that have been determined to remain awarded the scholarship.
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Today Okan and Viona are getting married. Throughout the night, Katalina cried so much that when she woke up her head suddenly dizzy.
Her aunt and uncle were no more than her two cousins. Maybe they are already in the mansion although the wedding ceremony will be held at 4 pm because the wedding reception will be held at night.
Katalina opened her backpack and pulled out a small object she bought yesterday.
It has been 6 days Katalina missed her period and she decided to buy tespack even though she was sure that she was not pregnant.
But what he was afraid of became reality. His hands shook holding the tespack which showed two lines.
He and Okan only did it once and it turned out that Katalina was pregnant.
The girl sat on the wet bathroom floor. Thought's dead-end. Pregnant without a husband may not be too problematic if he lives in the city. But in this ranch area, she would definitely be branded as a cheap girl. People will excommunicate their uncles and aunts. Katalina didn't want it until her uncle and aunt were embarrassed.
In the deadlock of her mind, Katalina wrote letters to her uncle and aunt. The letter was kept in her closet. She knew that if she didn't come home for a few days, her aunt would open her wardrobe.
After that, Katalina left her aunt's house. His eyes had looked towards the mansion located not far from this farm. I'm sorry, aunt.I'm sorry uncle.
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