
After meeting with Anto's extended family now I know that Anto is not an ordinary person but he is a successful businessman who was born from a distinguished family. I began to feel uneasy about my status as an economist far from the Anto family. Like now I was invited to dinner with the Anto family before returning to Jakarta, although I wear clothes that are almost the same as them but I still feel inferior. When eating I just keep quiet until finally Mbak Rina who used to be my boss invites me to talk.
"Za, why are you quiet?" Ask her while patting my hand.
I smiled and shook my head.
"You feel uncomfortable?" Ask her while looking around.
I didn't answer just duck.
"Don't know you must be feeling inferior right?, but you have to get used to it because Davi, uh Anto means mbak, not an ordinary person and you will definitely go to events like this often" he told me.
"But mbak, I haven't been able to blend in with them" I said.
"You'll get used to it" with a smile.
I breathed a sigh because it was my decision to continue this marriage.
The show was over and we went home but on the way I was silent. Maybe Anto realized that from earlier I was just silent because he had been glancing repeatedly.
"Why you?" Ask her.
I just shook my head.
"Za, I know you're hiding something right? You tell me the same story" he said and I just kept quiet because I was afraid he was angry.
I heard he breathed in a sign he was upset. Anto didn't talk again until we got to the apartment. Anti entered and immediately cleaned his body, I sat on the bedside waiting for Anto to finish.
After Anto finished I entered the bathroom and when I came out I saw Anto was in front of his laptop. I went up to the bed and straightened out because I was so tired.
The next morning I woke up because I suddenly felt nauseous, I ran to the bathroom and immediately vomited all my stomach contents. After feeling good I went out of the bathroom and Anto was still asleep. I went out to prepare breakfast but just got to the kitchen the nausea came back again and I immediately vomited it in the sink. Due to limp I ended up sitting under the sink and bent my knees. I feel sad and I don't know why I want to cry. I cried even my tears I couldn't stand. Until Anto finally came to me.
"Why you?" Her question cover tried to wake me up but I hugged her instead, I cried back.
"Za, what's wrong with you? Let's talk, don't worry me" he said.
But I kept crying until I felt tired and my body was weak. I was unconscious in Anto's arms.
When I opened my eyes I was in the hospital and Anto was next to me.
"Bang" Call me.
"Za, are you conscious?" He said with a worried tone.
"I why?" My toot.
"You passed out this morning after crying" he said, rubbing my head.
Trying to remember what happened this morning.
"Sorry" Lirihku.
"Make what?" While staring.
"Have made my brother worried".lirihku.
" It's okay, the important thing is now that you're conscious" he said with a smile.
"Bang, brother is not angry with me, because last night when I went home I let brother down" I said.
"Abang was upset but my brother realized you are pregnant maybe the mood is not good" he said.
" I actually feel inferior when I'm around my brother's family" I'm finally honest because I don't want any misunderstandings here and make me and Anto fight just a small problem.
" I'll try bang"
Finally after speaking I feel good and even I can eat as usual again unlike this morning just entered the kitchen was nauseous.
"Za, you're accompanied by your mother first, yes, I want to go to the office first can I?" Ask her carefully maybe afraid I'm angry.
I smiled and nodded because my mouth was full of food.
"Just go son Anto, let mother take care of Zizah" said the mother.
"Em... then Anto titip Za first yes ma'am, later if it is done Anto back again really" he said and he immediately left.
I continued eating too. But after that mother asked "you why can not drop like this? What do you think Za?"
"No ma'am" I lied.
"You don't lie, I know you're Za" said the mother, peeling an apple.
I also throw my breath because inevitably I have to tell my mother.
"I'm ashamed ma'am at the kamren dinner, I don't feel like I'm equal to them" I complained.
"Why should we be ashamed, we are the same as our social status only, as long as you can follow you will not look different, he said, you have to get used to it because someday when you are introduced to the crowd as his wife Anto means you are ready with their lives" Mothers advice.
"Yes but mom"
"Mom used to know so well with your family-in-law because we used to be a complex, they never showed that they were rich people, even your in-laws were in regular schools not elite schools"
"Za, I'll try ma'am"
"Jaudah now you rest do not mind much before remember there is a prospective child here" said Mother while rubbing my stomach is still flat.
I woke up in the afternoon and it turned out that Ratih was already in my room.
"Where's Ra?" My toot.
"Mother came home just now with tea" she replied as she approached me.
"Come home?"
"Yes, I'm going home, so I'm waiting for you during the Anto meeting at the office" he told me.
" Meeting, so bang Anto came home late?"my many.
"Yes tea, he said there were more problems in the office so he had to discuss it with the managers" Tell him.
"Oh, yes, now help me get up to go to the bathroom to pray" I said.
I was also exposed by Ratih in the bathroom. I was accompanied by Ratih until night because until eight Anto did not come and who came instead Niko.
"Where is Anto?" I asked when Niko came in.
"He still has needs outside maybe an hour away he's here" he replied with a slightly unconvinced look.
"Oh"
"This is an order that you want earlier" he said as he handed over the package.
"Save it" I said.
I'm a little upset because Anto didn't make the appointment.