My merit
#48 My Inner Eye Closure
《I think I will live a quiet life, after this inner eye I closed, but the situation is quite the opposite. In the lid of this inner eye even became the biggest misfortune in my life.》
it had already been a month since my meeting with Grandfather Sumarto. I met Sumarto's grandfather not without reason and unclear cause, I met with Sumarto's grandfather friend from my grandfather. Grandma told me that I could close my inner eyes by meeting with Grandpa Sumarto who happened to live in Jakarta, even if I was disturbed and had thought carefully to close it. A month I was in college, meeting up with friends, hanging out, going home to the hostel, doing all these things over and over again. I intend to find work on the sidelines of my lecture, counting while looking for experience.
My intention to find work, gave rise to my desire to close my inner eyes. I can't if I have to work with my inner eye getting more terrible, with the information I got from my grandmother I was trying to find Sumarto's grandfather's address. Because of my strong intentions, I was finally able to meet with Grandfather Sumarto and close my inner eyes.
Like I said, I got a side job the day after I closed my inner eyes. Nothing happened for a month with the normal eyes I had, my job became easier, and fast without any hindrance. Until one day I heard the news that the work and workplace that I live is the result of retirement, and many former workers who are uncomfortable and choose to go out.
But I cleared my mind, with a sizable salary, not burdening my heart to keep taking this job.
The clock is eleven past thirty. I choose to overtime a day, so that tomorrow I can go home quickly, and do my college work that is piling up like a mountain, with eyes focused on the computer screen and fingers pressing back and forth, making me not feel that something strange is happening in my work space, indeed at that time the overtime is only me, but it is not a problem for me. Because I've done it a few times, but tonight it seems like something strange, until I realize if the computer around me turns off and turns on itself, some objects also move.
What made me even more frightened was, who was the figure that was bothering me, I couldn't see it, so I imagined a creepy shape. My mind became incompetent, attacking objects from various directions regarding me. Do I have to run, the exit distance is very far. Now my legs feel so limp, they can't move. As the black shadow and wind gusts gushed from the front, my eyes and my body were still.
The previous lighting was normal. Being as impermeable as in the horror movies I've seen, the sound of a child's running laughter rang out, black shadows flying to and fro above the ceiling of the room. Although I could not see clearly, I could only hear the moans of tears, the laughter of children, the rush of running, and my thoughts that I could not control.
I'm trying to clear my head, maybe I'm just tired, it's like this. I sat back and looked back at my computer, but the noise kept bothering me when the sound of typing was constantly heard when it was clear. In the workspace only I'm one, I get back up and push my hands on the table somehow my fear and become annoyed because they bother me to work, they should know my world with their world is different but why should it bother, I also wrong their routine is at night, but why should it be like this.
As the minutes passed, I sped up my work, the present situation became not conducive. I repeated it over and over again, saying and reciting some verses and prayers. Because this is the only thing I can do, what else I can't see clearly their form. After my work was done, I ran towards the exit and who knew if something strong enough hit me in the head, whatever it was, I didn't know what I knew at the time. Dark view.
"Yes-yes still know me, two."
"Okey.. okay, thank God, you're just tired and slightly injured in the eel." Azam explained to me.
"Some of you why you can fall anyway, like a child." Azam told me.
"I did not fall, yehhhh, you are like a child." I replied evading Azam's words.
"Well, why are you like this?"
"God." I said as I chuckled.
"You have waited here, I bought porridge outside." Azam left me.
I closed my eyes again, and put my hands over mine. I was thinking how can I be like this, if you know how I am like this. I could be told to go back to Jogja. "Srek... srekk.". "the noise like a crackle bag is heard from the side, room one to the other only in the limit of large curtains, the, so any activities and talks can be heard clearly. When I was focused on the sound, an apple rolled to the side of my bed from the next room.
"Sorry, your fruit rolls towards my bed." I said, with a half-sitting body because I can't if I have to sit completely, because my head still feels heavy and also sluggish. There is no answer.