My Original Love
Chapter 64 Regretting

After Kyra made a very pathetic decision, to the next day Kyra looked moody. Yesterday's events continued to disturb the contents of his mind, not a second of yesterday's shadow was erased in his brain. The decision he made was the most burdensome decision of his. He must forget and erase his feelings for Davin. Somehow the feeling was erased, not the slightest bit of feeling was washed away in his heart. For days Kyra tried to forget Davin. However, the fact that love is too big makes him unable to forget the figure of the man who became his first love.

And some days Davin was not seen at school, those days Kyra did not meet him at all. Worries are attached to him, curious about the news from him does upload his worries. But Kyra does not need to know the news from him, if she must forget the feeling of love for him. Every step he faced, every moment would continue to pass through him. A beautiful moment with him is a moment that will continue to fill his heart and mind. How to forget it, it feels heavy if you have to bear this burden. The burden of regret that will continue to occupy him for some time that may be long silent in him.

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A few days had passed, but his troubled mind still kept on remembering the figure of the man who was still residing in his heart. He walked down the street, entering the school gate with a feeling that still seemed agitated. Somehow this heart kept asking for news from him. A few footsteps had entered the school, and suddenly the man he had been thinking about seemed to be all around him. Very tight chest because some days did not meet him, he thought the man would smile while greeting him as usual. But how cold his attitude was, he just walked past him with his face taut. In his mind he wondered if Davin was so angry with him that he would not. Kyra will indeed greet him, but when she will say the sentence how heavy this voice will come out of her mouth. They just pass each other but do not greet each other like someone who does not know each other.

As Davin passed him, his steps stopped his eyes kept staring at his back which went further and further away. He wanted to catch up and hug her from behind and say, that some days he misses her a lot. But his stiff legs were difficult to step after him. A little sad but happy that he looks healthy and well.

Unaware that it was stiff and seeing her walking away, Kyra's eyes began to glaze over. Then from behind, Bella suddenly grabbed her shoulder. "Hey see what the hell again?" his tanya who was also staring towards Davin walked over.

Kyra immediately wiped the tears that would fall from both corners of her eyes. "Hm, ti..dakn't exist," he said nervously.

"How many days have you had a problem? you are always moody and every time I ask you always avoid my questions" said Bella who was surprised by her best friend.

"Hm, mending us to class now yuk," said Kyra pulled Bella's arm.

Bella asks several times and Kyra avoids her questions. Kyra still can't tell everything in her nature between herself, Davin, and Gio. His heart still did not feel calm to tell a story. He still needs time to tell everything.

And when she got to class, Kyra sat in her chair with her head bowed to the table. Tears that had been on the ground began to pour out flooding both of his cheeks. Bella was panicked to see her best friend who suddenly shed tears. "Kyra why are you?"

But Kyra did not answer at all, her cries getting broken. He cried while hiccuping, and Bella immediately hugged her best friend.

"You calm down first, you should tell me if there is a problem, don't be alone," Bella said as she rubbed Kyra's back.

As Bella hugged her, somehow her crying voice grew louder, the cries she had long endured were now all let out. Bella kept her best friend quiet until she was completely at ease.

"It's true that you like Davin" Bella smiled.

"So you've been suspecting me all along" Kyra said with both cheeks flushed red.

"How could I not suspect, if your attitude continues to show that you like him," said Bella as she ruffled Kyra's hair.

After Kyra finishes telling her everything, Kyra makes a deal with Bella not to tell Gio.

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Hours of rest began, Kyra and Bella rushed to the cafeteria to block her stomach that had been rumbling after 3 hours of study. But by the time Kyra reached the cafeteria Kyra stopped without ordering food. The move came to a halt as his eyes stared at the spot where Davin and his friends were. Davin looked cheerful and was hilarious with his friends. What stops Kyra is seeing Davin sitting next to Githa. Jealousy and resentment appear instantly in Kyra. Kyra continued to stare at him nonstop, the look on her upset and sad face blending into one.

Then suddenly Gio came over while pulling Kyra's arm. "Malah diem here, let's order the food."

"I thought you were following me, but you're still here" Bella shook her head.

Somehow the jealousy continues to appear every time Davin is familiar with other women, both with Githa, Agatha, and with women who are his class. For days Kyra kept seeing Davin hanging out with other women. Until now Davin continues to be cold to Kyra. Even when passing by there was always no smile from the look of Davin's face. Kyra just wishes she could get back to Davin as she was.

This time Kyra can only look at him from afar, it feels like she wants to call him then smile while approaching him and laugh with him like before. But Kyra hesitates to do it all, after what she did to Davin.

The feeling of loneliness continues to be felt, even though Kyra is surrounded by her friends but she continues to feel lonely. Every day he looked gloomy and every time he continued to feel regret for breaking his promise to Davin.

"Until when do I keep hoping and until when can I recover my heart and mind" said Kyra.