My soul mate Father My best friend
Pasrah Aja

"Said Mbo Inah, you're not feeling well anymore, so I'm here. Are you all right?" alex said and asked a little.

"I'm fine, sir. It was just a little less than feeling well. Do you need anything, let me help you" Anita said a little thought and then began to explain talking back to Alex.

"no need. I just want to see you, thank God you're okay. I'm glad to hear it" Alex said.

"Then, you continue to rest" continued Alex told Anita to return to rest, although in fact he still wanted to linger close to Anita.

But when Alex turned around and just a few steps were about to leave Anita in her room, suddenly Anita stopped Alex's steps and wanted to talk seriously with him.

"Tut .. sir, wait" said Anita stopped Alex's steps.

"Sir, I want to have a serious talk with you" Anita continued, telling Alex as she approached him.

"Yes say it" Alex said directly.

"But. Can we just talk outside in the yard?" anita said to Alex.

"Alright, sure. It doesn't matter" Alex said normally, not suspicious or curious about what Anita would tell him.

Then they went out together and sat quietly on the table of chairs in the courtyard. With the atmosphere of a cold night and looks deserted no one.

It seems Anita is nervous and difficult to start a conversation which Anita wanted to tell Alex about the feelings that are currently bothering her.

Seen from the hand of Anita who is constantly in her crumbs, trying to calm her nervous feelings first in order to convey her words properly and correctly so that there is no misunderstanding in understanding it.

While Alex who saw Anita's hand like that, slowly began to hold Anita's hand on the table.

Hope can help Anita to calm her feelings and nervousness a little.

"Calm down" Alex said, trying to hold Anita's hand.

"If you can't say it yet, we can talk at a later time if you want" Alex continued, trying to calm Anita down and reassure her.

"Tit. no. No need, sir. I'll say it now" Anita said despite still sounding nervous.

"Look, sir.but can you promise not to be angry with me first" Anita said, pleading with Alex for something.

"of course. Why should I be angry with you anyway. Just tell me what you want to talk to me about!" alex still looks relaxed in response to Anita's words.

"Sir as we both know. When we went to my hometown, and suddenly we were forcefully married. And it has been witnessed by the villagers there that we are legitimate according to religion and according to them." said Anita slowly but slightly held it first, he said, wanted to see Alex's reaction and response to what he had said.

"Yes... continues?" said Alex is still focused on listening first.

"And so on. I am still confused by the status of this relationship. So I think instead of us feeling unclear and confused about the status of this relationship, I ask you to break this relationship verbally" Anita continued, making Alex's hand slowly release Anita's hand from her hand, along with Alex's smile that faded from her face.

Alex didn't think Anita would say that. Instantly made him feel that a heavy burden was falling on his heart.

However, he also did not want to force Anita to follow all her wishes and wills.

"And for the events of that night that have already happened, I assume it has passed and it is no longer important for us to remember" said Anita, unwittingly again added to the burden of Alex's mind.

Again Alex felt disbelief in what he was hearing just now. Anita easily said so.

At the event that night that made Alex turned derastic to be gentle and attentive to Anita.

That night that made Alex, feeling his heart was no longer empty.

That night that made Alex passionate about living his life.

That night that made Alex's heart continue to flowery and feel happy.

But now he must hear it from Anita's own mouth that the night is not important and easy to forget for Anita.

And the reality is that unlike what Alex expected, he felt his love clapping one hand, before he could express his love first.

Though he had just felt in love again, after a long time his heart was buried with his beloved wife.

But unexpectedly, with a flash the feeling went back somewhere.

Alex did not expect that Anita could easily forget what had happened between the two of them that night.

But he himself has no intention to try to express his love for Anita first or try to convince Anita that he really has fallen in love with her, but it wasn't Alex at all.

He prefers to resign and follow Anita's words to him.

"Are you sure of your words?" ask Alex to make sure.

"Yes. I'm sure" Anita said, looking reassuring.

"Alright, if it is your desire" said Alex resigned.

"Is there anything else you want to talk to me about?" alex asked Anita.

"No, sir. That's all I want to say to you" Anita said in response to Alex's question.

"Then, if there's nothing else to talk about, you can go back to your room. Rest up!" alex says pretending there's no problem and being mediocre.

Anita goes to her room and leaves Alex alone.

But Alex who saw Anita had left, made her look cold again and as if the cold tonight was not as cold as she felt today.

Meanwhile, Anita who was already in her room, suddenly felt empty and as if something was missing from her, but she did not know what it was.

But clearly at this time Anita feels a little bit calm because she has said some of her strangeness to Alex.

Although there was still something stuck in his heart.

But Anita did not want to think too much about it, she felt it would only make her head more dizzy and dizzy.

But before that, Anita had time to talk to herself about Alex's reaction and response when she expressed the contents of her heart and unekunya.

"Justify my guess. He has no heart, let alone a feeling of love for me. He was gentle and kind to me just to channel his long un-channeled desires. Damn widower, I was just made to vent his desires. It was fortunate that I quickly came to my senses and was not complacent by her impromptu gentle and pretentious manner" Anita grumbled inside her room.

"But why did my feelings suddenly become empty like this, like something was missing from my heart" Anita explained when she realized something was missing from her.

"Oh, maybe it's just my feeling. Later also must be ordinary again by itself" continued Anita tried to calm herself.

"Here you go. I better get some sleep. Rather than me dizzy thinking about the unclear" said Anita did not want to think about it more deeply.

While Alex, who was also in his room, looked frustrated and angry himself.

"Why is it so easy to forget all that. He thought only he could forget it quickly. He thinks he's the one who told me to forget all that and thinks it's not important. Damn girl, just frustrating me. aaaahhh.." said Alex felt annoyed and ended with a cry of frustration.

Feeling displeased with what has happened.

Feeling deceived by his own feelings.

Not that he tried first to express his feelings, but Alex instead argued with guessing his own thoughts.

Both of them no one wants to try to say their love feelings. Prefer resigned but make it careless themselves and guess without wanting to find the truth.