My student, my husband
Guilt

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Rinai rain drenched the earth accompanied by thunderous sounds of deafening lightning.

Cantika tried to fight fear when his sense of hearing was disturbed by the terrible sound by closing the net and covering both ears with the palm of the hand.

But the more he resisted, the more fear he felt dominated.

Cantika's body trembled violently accompanied by a stream of clear crystals flowing from both corners of the net.

"Arga, sorry. I'm sorry!" said Cantika lirih accompanied by sobs.

Andrea's pair of eyelids opened slowly upon hearing Cantika's heart-wrenching voice.

Andrea gasped at the sight of his wife who was far from being okay. He rushed to bring his body up and tried to wake up Cantika who was sobbing with eyes still closed.

"Darling, what's going on? Why are you like this?" Andrea asked with a feeling of anxiety.

"Arga, sorry --" Cantika said again. From his tone of voice implied deep regret.

"Darling, open your eyes! Tell me, what really happened and explain who Arga is!" Andrea again tried to wake Cantika by gently rubbing the smooth cheeks of the woman who had become her lover.

Cantika responds to Andrea's hand touch by opening a pair of windows to her heart. Then he looked at Andrea's face which filled the viewing room with a sad look.

"Mas-"

"Darling, what's going on? Why are you crying and saying Arga's name? Who's she?" cecar Andrea while wiping the clear circles that wet the face of Cantika with fingers.

"He-" Cantika's vocal chords choked. He was unable to continue his speech when he remembered the incident five years ago.

Cantika was 18 years old and had just graduated from High School.

Because of her beautiful face and kind heart, many male friends put their hearts on her. One of them was named Arga.

Despite being repeatedly rejected by Cantika, Arga never gave up and made every effort to melt Cantika's heart.

That night, a heavy rain flushed the earth accompanied by a thunderstorm.

Arga who was struggling to melt Cantika, desperate to gather in the yard of her beloved girl by carrying a bouquet of red roses without caring about the thunderous sound of thunder that sounded earthy.

Repeatedly Cantika asked Arga to get up and take shelter in her house. But Arga refused and instead put forward conditions. He was willing to rise up and take shelter after Cantika accepted his love.

Vaaogb. The next minute Arga's body was struck by lightning and caused the young man to lose his life in a very tragic way.

"Arga -"

Cantika screamed and cried hysterically as she witnessed the horrific event. He blames himself for the tragic fate of Arga.

Since then, Cantika was very afraid of every sound of thunder. He was traumatized and tormented by guilt.

"Honey-" Andrea grabbed Cantika's body and took her into an embrace.

He kissed in the head of Cantika while transferring positive energy so that Cantika feel calm.

Cantika's hand that was originally dangling, stretched out to return Andrea's embrace.

Cantika felt very comfortable in Andrea's arms. The fear she felt began to diminish as she leaned her head against the chest of her husband's field.

"Mas--" said Cantika softly as she tightened her embrace.

"What, Honey?"

"Mas, I'm afraid of that voice-"

"What sound?"

"Why are you afraid, Yang?"

"Because .. that voice reminds me of Arga."

"Who's Arga?" Andrea again asked by raising one eyebrow. As a husband, Andrea felt uncomfortable when Cantika mentioned another man's name.

"He was my classmate at High School, Mas-" Cantika paused for a moment and scooped the air deep and exhaled slowly.

Then he began to tell the fateful incident experienced by Arga on Andrea.

"Since that time, I have been so afraid of every sound of thunder. Guilt returned and hugged me tightly when the shadow of what happened five years ago came back. For years I tried to fight fear and eliminate the trauma I was going through at all costs. But still can't, Mom. Sometimes I think, maybe God is punishing me, so that the fear and trauma can not be lost. I'm really sorry. I feel guilty for Arga. If I had accepted her love, she probably wouldn't have been struck by lightning" Cantika said.

Andrea tightened her arms and planted a kiss on the head of Cantika. Her heart aches when she learns that her lover is traumatized and tormented by guilt.

"Honey, from now on don't blame yourself! What happened to Arga became God's will. After all, Sweetheart had tried to persuade Arga so that he would get up and take shelter immediately. But because of his obsession to melt your heart, he was stubborn and instead picked up his own death in a very tragic way. What you did that time was right. Darling has the right to accept and reject Arga because love cannot be forced," Andrea said while calming Cantika.

"Better, darling immediately take ablution water and perform lail prayers to calm down. Pray for Arga so that Allah will forgive the sins of the deceased and give him a beautiful place" he said.

"Yes, Mum." Cantika nodded slowly.

Andrea and Cantika then break the embrace. The two threw one another a glance and published a smile.

"Mas Andrea also participated in the lail prayer!" pinta Cantika on Andrea.

"Yes, honey," said Andrea as she pulled Cantika's nose.

The couple then got out of bed, then swung a step to purify themselves with ablution.

Finished ablution, they spread out prayer mats and prepare to perform sunah lail prayer.

"Allahu Akbar." Andrea recited the impeccable ihram by raising both hands and followed by Cantika.

The two men looked solemn'. Both are immersed in the pleasure of worship.

After saying two greetings and reading the hamdalah, Andrea and Cantika raised both palms while raising the ink on the Most Merciful.

Andrea and Cantika asked God for forgiveness for all their sins and deeds. The two also pleaded for forgiveness for the deceased Arga and pleaded for God to place the deceased in His heaven.

After skydiving the pinta, Andrea rotates her body to face Cantika.

Cantika grabbed Andrea by the hand and kissed the back of her husband's hand with reverence.

Andrea commented a smile and gently rubbed Cantika's head wrapped in white mucus. Then he sprinkled a deep kiss on Cantika's forehead.

Instantly Cantika closed the net when she felt a strange and soothing spirit that was present when Andrea kissed her forehead.

In his mind, he recited gratitude to the Most Merciful who had endowed him with a surrogate priest who was able to make him feel at ease - Andrea Winata, his disciple known as Badung. But it turns out to have a positive side and amazing advantages.

Suddenly Cantika remembered Valonia Jasmine's words about Ata which turned out to be Andrea Winata, the man who had now become her priest.

"The shell may be ugly, but the inside is good and does not disappoint."

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