Orphaned
profound sadness

Reno's brother has left for work, I forgot that the gas is up. Even though brother forbade me to borrow money from aunt, but this was forced and desperate. After doing all the homework, I rushed to aunt's house. Until I finally arrived in the yard of a house that is quite spacious, I was so amazed. When I was there I loved playing here with my cousin Nia, but since my father died everything changed even the attitude of my aunt changed. I knocked on my aunt's door, and the door opened. It was Nia who opened the door.

"Rani, how are you?" ask Nia to me.

"God be kind, how are you?" I asked Nia.

"I'm fine, what's going on here?" ask Nia.

"I need to be the same aunt, but I'm ashamed." I said.

"Then why?" ask Nia astonished.

"I want to borrow fifty thousand to buy gas, Reno has not paid" I explained.

"It's just take my money, if you have it you can go back" said Niar while handing over the money and I was happy but suddenly aunt took it and said

"Just take a minute of money, you think making money is easy?" said the aunt with a dislike look.

"Sorry, I can borrow it for a minute!" I said beg.

"Can't, aunt is also difficult, mengingan you find work there!" aunty said while pushing me out and I saw Nia just looking down maybe scared of auntie. I also went from my aunt's house with a feeling of sadness, heartache and no tears escaped me. Is this the fate of orphans?.

I tried to sane Bu Darmi with shame, I wiped my tears.

"Mom, I'm sorry can't I owe you gas?"

"Ran, you're kayak any luck, yes you can!".

"I'm sorry I'll pay for it when Reno's payday."

"It's okay, you calm down."

"Thank you ma'am, I'll get the gas canister, and I'll take the empty gas canister with me."

I happily went home and put the gas in, then returned the empty gas canister.

That afternoon I went to Eti's house and passed by aunt's house, I saw aunt sitting in the house eating meatballs and I just looked and gulped, the meatballs looked really good. My aunt looked up and said.

"why are you concerned about auntie, you want to?"

"iya Bi, I want to." I replied happily.

" buy it yourself if you want to!"

"news not nawarin?"

"just stale, let's not say arrogant."

I smiled bitterly and went to Eti's house. I was at Eti's house, and I saw Eti was making some seblak, and my stomach started to rumble. Eti looked at me with a smile and asked me to come up to her.

"Here I make it as good as you want to?"

"If offered I want to"

"Your aunt has absolutely no heart, just as her own niece has so much!" said Eti.

"Yes, the fact is that, I can what and maybe it's the character is like that, especially now there are no fathers with mothers."

"Prophey, surely Allah SWT will give ease to you and brother Reno."

"Amin O Allah"

"Continue eating before, after that we watch drakor" said Eti.

"OK..!" my answer.

Eti and I were watching Drakor, and I saw that the girls and boys were very compatible. Eti was serious about the film.

"The handsome is just as beautiful as the pisan!" said Eti.

"Yes or, they are artists, the treatment is certain." I replied.

"Totally yes!" eti said while grinning the horse.

"Yes, it's really cool." I said as I grinned.

I've been at Eti's house long enough and I'm going home because soon Adhan Dzuhur, I haven't had a bath.

" Be careful, watch out for the witch" Eti said with a whimper.

"Who's the magic granny?" your grandmother, isn't she? I said".

"Bi Mira, your aunt is the one who is proud of being bored." anyway amit-amit jabang duck deh.

" Yes" I'll excuse you.

" Okay!"

I immediately went home and quickened my pace because I didn't want to see my aunt. As I passed by her house, aunt was lifting a clothesline while showing off her gold bracelet. And said to Nia.

" Nia's a nice mama's gold bracelet, right?" said aunt while glancing at Nia

"Yes" Nia replied lazily.

I ignored it too and immediately left the place. And I got home, and I rushed to the bathroom and flushed my body, and it felt so fresh. I finished taking a bath and I took some water and then after that I went to my mother's room which is now a place of worship. I also pray and pray that God will give all the facilities for me and Reno.

I immediately lifted the clothesline, and I fell asleep while playing the phone after folding clothes. I'm trying to remember what happened when my aunt refused to lend me money to buy gas. I have the life I have with Brother Reno. If only the father and mother were still there maybe I could share the joys and sorrows but Allah SWT more affectionate mother and father, they finally left us both. No tears fell and I slept too.

The time showed at 15. 10 and the ashar adhan was reverberating, I woke up and immediately rushed to take ablution water and ashar prayers. After the ashar prayer I heated the chicken opor given by Bu Siti and warmed the rice because soon Reno brother came home from work. I can't wait for Reno's arrival to eat together. I promised to apply for a job so I wouldn't bother Reno. If I work, I can buy clothes and meet my daily needs. Can buy rice, cooking oil, eggs, noodles, gas and other necessities and buy new clothes and sandals.

" O Allah, I pray to you, that your father and mother may be in the best place, that you may receive the charity of worship as well as its faith and Islam, and protect me and Reno's brother and ease our affairs, Amen!".

That is the do'a that I often say when I finish praying or when I am sad. I always praise and thank God for the blessings God has given me. I just want to live a decent life, a lot of adequacy and always be patient and strong in undergoing all trials. Someday God willing, I can be a successful person and certainly not arrogant. I also hope that my aunt can turn out well.