Rainbow In Someone's Cloud
Pdas18's chat. Stockholm syndrome

"You may have stockholm syndrome." Kaf looked at me with a serious face. 

"Other than that? I remember my family." I've never heard of the syndrome. 

"Stockholm syndrome is a coping mechanism, which usually occurs in people who experience kidnapping. The victim will develop positive feelings toward the kidnapper or abuser over time. The first characteristic is positive feelings towards the kidnappers or the perpetrators of violence. Second, sympathy for the beliefs and behavior of his captors. Third, negative feelings toward the police or other law enforcement authority figures. The fourth, experiencing other symptoms similar to post-traumatic stress disorder. These include, flashbacks, feeling distrustful, irritated, restless or anxious, being unable to relax or enjoy things previously enjoyed and difficulty concentrating. Of all the questions I threw at you earlier, that included basic questions about flashbacks, feeling disbelief, annoyed, agitated and anxious. But from that short question, your answer seems to defend Rai or think positively about Rai. Well, that's the problem. You're the victim and you're sympathetic to the perpetrator, you don't have the trauma of meeting the perpetrator. I'm surprised that you're in Rai's room with only Rai, without Aca's mom. You dare to talk to Rai and you're not afraid, that's what makes me feel something strange. Because it is not common for victims to still dare to be in one room with the perpetrator, Dek. I didn't know your interaction was the same as Rai's before, because I just knew it was right in the room."

I was staring stupidly, luckily covered in my face cover. Little things like that can be inferred from the science and insight of a doctor, but is it true Kaf's guess if I am so? Because to my knowledge Kaf's education doesn't lead to psychic science. 

"Tomorrow to come with me, right? Relax, I'll bring Mama Aca. I'm gonna go for a while today, so tomorrow we can go." Kaf looked at his watch. 

"Why do I have to come?" I looked at his face from the side. 

He is authoritative and charismatic. What the hell was Kaf's lack until I kind of objected to being his happiness? 

"Let there be a cure if so. If the therapist says there is no serious suspicion of stockholm syndrome, we have gone home again. It's not that I'm a doctor, and everything has to be checked out. But I want you to be mentally and physically fit, so that we can stay all right. A lifetime is long, Deck. I don't want it because your mental state is left, you continue to feel tormented life with me. If it is fixed from now on, you will enjoy the happiness of a lifetime with me. Not even a lifetime of torment with me. I don't know what you're heart to me, but at least I'm preventing you from being tormented all your life with me." 

I could not afford to look into those dark brown eyes that looked so sincere, I was moved to see their sincerity. I should be grateful. 

"Yes, Kaf." I lowered my sight. 

"Get in the room, I want to continue working." He got up and pointed at the door of my room that was visible from here. 

"You go home first." If it wasn't for him, if it wasn't for his father's nephew, he might not have been able to get in and out of my house at will. 

"Come in first." He pointed at my bedroom door with his chin.

I nodded, then walked towards the room. Before I closed the door of my room, I put myself to turn my head towards him. He nodded, then walked towards the exit. Shortly thereafter, a sound of the door being shut. 

If later he is not my companion, can I get such treatment? I felt like it was the most appropriate thing for me. 

Seeing him to prepare the food he brought for me, even he did not look awkward to serve the needs of my stomach in between his lunch time. I was made more aware by the figure of Kaf. 

He was older, he was born first. But this mouth has called him by name only because of the influence of my brothers, while he deserves to be respected by the way he calls first.

"Get it, Dad." Kaf also helped prepare food for my father who turned out to have arrived home. 

"I don't eat noodles, I don't eat meatballs and I don't eat fruit. I've been eating food made by Mama Aca, keep coming here." Kaf turned his head towards me and waved his hand. 

"Seriously until now? Biyung thought, after you grew up you didn't." Biyung had already stirred up his food. 

"Yes, Biyung. Maybe because childhood was allowed to continue, so until I was big I was still traumatized eating fruitful food. Eat vegetables asem, lodeh, soup and others, I take the stuffing, the sauce I do not take. If the meatballs are not at all even, instant noodles once a year not even the cake." Kaf opened a jar filled with chocolate biscuits. 

"Why is he?" I approached the neighborhood of my parents who were sitting facing the chicken meatballs. 

"There's a story in Wife Connect," replied the father later. 

"Why, Kaf?" I just asked the guy to get an answer. 

"I fell a bowl of meatballs plus the sauce." He showed me the back of his leg and there was a white scar. 

I'm speechless, so would it be like that if something mental didn't heal from its roots? This is not about the scars Kaf has, but about Kaf's trauma not being handled properly. He became an anti-great man with meatballs and curses. 

If indeed I have the syndrome that Kaf said, maybe my mentality will develop in the wrong direction until old age. Like the trauma of Kaf. Moreover, it's about me side by side with her, indirectly Kaf does not want me to have a positive thought continue with my captor. Moreover, if my feelings continue to develop on Rai. It would definitely make me feel like I was suffering from living with Kaf. 

Up here I understand Kaf's good intentions. 

"Well, let's take Cani out tomorrow. I'll take Mama Aca, cake usually." Kaf watching television. 

My parents are already eating. 

"Heem, same please take care of the lecture. If you can wait for the information KKNnya already finished, already completed PKL or his internship, the same wait for him to pass the proposal seminar, just arrange a marriage. Now akad, tomorrow graduation does not matter if the burden of college is finished." 

Aih, I immediately turned to talk about our marriage. But by the way, dad was so trusting of Kaf that he allowed it right away without asking where Kaf was taking me. 

"What are these months, Dad?" 

All eyes were on Kaf. 

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