Replying Humiliation
Chapter 20

In the morning I had cleaned his desk, Mr. Dirga, I had made coffee for him because it is my duty every day.

"morning sir," I said to Mr. Dirga who had just arrived. But Mr. Dirga did not answer my words, he just sat down at his desk without asking me a word.

Then I went back to my desk.

I can not focus on my work, I still think about Mr. Dirga who is not usual, what is all this because my words yesterday to Mr. Dirga so angry.

This second I also approached Mr. Dirga to apologize.

"sir I'm sorry about yesterday!"

"sorry for what," he said.

"my father was angry with my answer yesterday."

"no,"

"but why is a father like this the same as me?"

"why me, anyway?" mr. Dirga asked back.

"father wasn't as friendly as he used to be."

"i'm your boss, whatever I want! you're there, focus again on your work!" I really do not believe in the change of attitude of Mr. Dirga on me. Yes, I don't want to talk anymore.

"excuse me sir this is yesterday's report" said mas Arga who just entered.

"well thanks !"

I saw Arga watching me, it made me feel uncomfortable I wanted to pry his eyeballs.

"please get back to work!"

"well sir!"

It's lunch now, but Mr. Dirga didn't take me or tell me to. I asked why Mr. Dirga had changed.

Then I stopped her step, and I held her hand.

"want to have lunch where, let me order."

"let go of your hand Atika, you are not polite hold my hand!"

"sorry sir," then Mr. Dirga left me.

"apparently you are rejected by Mr. Dirga yes," said mas Arga who had just come, but why did mas arga talk like that what had he peeked at me.

"what do you mean, you!"

"i saw you just holding Dirga's hand, but it looks like Mr. Dirga doesn't want to be with you!"

"if yes, then why, what's the business with you!"

"nothing, just funny. Even though you are a secretary but you are still from the lower class of Atika, where would you like Dirga sir with you!"

"i'm also self-conscious, you don't have to take care of my life." then I live mas arga who still stands there. I don't want to deal with her anymore.

Just this time I had lunch in the cafeteria, I saw all the employees watching me. But Arga was sitting in front of me without my permission.

"i'm coming here!" his words made me want to avoid.

"the other seat is still empty, why here?"

"that's if I want to move!" but Arga even held me.

"you've been sitting here Tik!" I also sat back.

"If I regret divorcing you, I want to go back to you again! do you want to accept me!" why did Arga say this in the cafeteria, I was afraid that someone would see it.

"what do you mean!"

"you want to come back to me, Tik."

"don't dream, I won't go back to you again, you've hurt me enough, don't ever start again."

"cih you are very arrogant, mentang mentang became a secretary. It was just trying to tease the boss!"

"shut your mouth, don't know you!" then I left the Arga mas with my food that was still half again.

I better get back in my room, mas arga makes me emotional.

Once there, I saw Dirga mas with a woman. Why did my heart hurt.

"excuse me,"

"eh Atika ya!" said the woman.

"yes!"

"know me Rara her fiance candidate Dirga,:

"I'm Atika her secretary Dirga sir." why did Mr. Dirga already have a prospective fiancee while yesterday he invited me to get married.

"then I want to go down first mbak, it's still a break time, will you excuse me first."

"yes" he said, then I walked downstairs and bought a drink there.

"no, I said he must be jealous to see me and you here" said Rara.

"i don't know if he's jealous of Ra?" ask her.

"yeah, I'm a woman just like her! then let's just pretend to let him know how much love he is with you!"

"it's also your idea Ra, I'll come with you." Rara is the younger sister of his ex-wife Dirga, he and his ex-wife divorced because he could not have children, so he asked his ex-wife to marry again.The doctor had already sentenced Dirga could not have children, therefore Dirga approached Atika because Atika already had children so he felt Atika could accept his shortcomings.

My heart aches after Rara says that she's her future fiance.

I just realized now it turns out I have a taste for Mr. Dirga but I've already rejected it, I can't retract my words anymore.

I was forced to stay in this place while enjoying my drink, want to come back even I did not feel good to see Mr. Dirga with his prospective fiancee, afraid of making my heart hurt even more so I better wait for the entrance hour.

"When it seems you are here," Arga came to me again.

"what the hell else mas," I was annoyed at him because he always disturbed my calm.

"By my horror first, I want to come back to you again, if you accept me. I'm going to divorce my wife." Arga's going to divorce her easily, I don't know with Arga's mind like that! if he wants to come back to me why would he divorce me. Now he regrets it but sorry my heart is no longer there for him, I enjoy life widowed even though I have to work.

"sorry I can't go back to you anymore, I already have a future husband!"said I lied to Arga so he wouldn't come after me again.

"didn't you like Karina, she must have missed me."

"yes it's true she misses you mas, but she prefers the present life, it's because I'm the one who sufficed her needs."

"cih you are so arrogant Tik, just had a secretarial department a rich snobs!" I don't care what Arga says, I just leave him who's still pissed at me. I saw his face again.