Shanum Marwah's
8. Tears

The smell of wind oil slips into the nose occasionally. Typical Odor of oil of the masseuse of antiquity. Not unexpectedly if the smell that was once very disliked, in fact can now erode a little longing for the story of the past.

Eeuuuhhhhh

Squeezing the bedsheet she was sitting on to channel the excruciating pain.

Iissssssshh

"Maya, sick!"

Can not be expressed again with words, now what is felt by Radit is the pain of someone rubbing his back using coins to redden.

For ten years, the man had never again felt pain in his back when he caught a cold. A little happy even though it feels torture. Because now, he gets more attention that is impossible to get.

"Hold it off in a minute!"

Initially, Maya is very awkward when her hands accidentally touch the skin of her back. Which finally, looks so natural when now almost ten minutes have passed serving the man who was staying at his house.

It really was a special night for both of them. Which all this time miss each other without being able to do anything.

"May ...."

Exhaling a rough breath. The woman began to respond. On the other hand, their relationship is also not that close if he has to continue to force.

"Yes, it's done!"

Although the heart still desperately wants to continue its activities, Maya still has to end. He does not want to exceed the limits of reasonableness.

Now move on from the woman's seat. He saw the figure of the man who was sitting cross-legged wearing the shirt he had taken from the suitcase owned by the man.

"Is it better?"

Radit stared at the face of his heart lover with a difficult look to interpret. Maya waits for a definitive answer from the man who kept her up tonight.

Small nod.

"It looks so."

It's a little heavy saying it. Because the man actually still wants to be accompanied by the woman.

"Well then, I'll go back to the room."

Radit was silent for a moment while staring at the departure of the beautiful woman he had always missed. Everything about that woman is still the same. Always filled the emptiness of his heart.

"May!"

And just say cleanly. Radit justifies the position of the sheath so as to cover the exposed upper body part.

She saw Maya turning her body when her right hand had reached for the door handle.

"Yes?"

Maya refrains from feeling guilty and also feels a little happy actually. How not, the figure of a handsome man sitting on the bed had made him tempted when it was exposing the chest field as well as the posture of the body is still well maintained.

Had cursed themselves when earlier raised a question that only got a sharp look. Maya was in the right place for him.

For years they have not been this close. This is because he continues to maintain a safe distance with men who are still in question despite his status even though the man was never late to give a living born.

"Mmmm can't you ...."

Exhaling a big breath.

"Can't you sleep here?"

The two stared at each other from a distance. Even so their hearts both felt something turbulent.

"I'm not gonna do anything. It's just, tonight I miss sleeping while staring at you."

Maya gulps her saliva rough. Dealing with the reality that is happening. It's just human. Started to shake his faith. Because of what the man felt, he also felt the truth.

"I ...."

Slightly doubtful as past memories tickle the heart. Given how her husband used to be so cruel that he could lie to her.

Maya shook her head faintly.

Radit stared with a sad look. He was tired of his life now. Like a person who loses his passion when he is at home. It was different when the man was there. Seeing the daughter who was late he knew also saw the figure of a beautiful woman who he always glorified until now.

"It's not appropriate that we sleep with Radit. We've been bed-separated for years. Our status is still in question."

Maya tries to explain. In fact, it called Radit to get up from his seat. He stepped closer to Maya who was standing in front of the door.

"I just want to sleep accompanied by you. No more than that, May!"

Powerless over invitations influenced by a third person. Who else if not the occupants of the room. Radit finally managed to hold Maya's hand.

A little interesting indeed, because Maya still seems to doubt. But the state of self is not at all resisting.

"Truly crazy," his inner self continued to cuss.

Radit has gone up on the bed. Still holding Maya's hand until the woman came up there. Radit's condition has improved a little like that. Can be seen from his face that was not as pale as before.

"Why are you still sitting, May?"

Radit looked at Maya in a sleeping position. With a little hesitation, the woman began to break down.

"We shouldn't be in this situation, Radit. What if Anggi finds out? He'll be very sad."

Back to make Radit's heart upset also hurt. It is unknown to Maya if the man also felt pain when he heard the name Anggi.

"What about your feelings?"

Instead of answering the question, the man instead posed a question that now makes Maya difficult to breathe.

Silent moment.

"My life is a mess because of your departure, May!"

The two stared at each other in a slanted sleeping position. Try hard to survive the deep sadness.

"You really have heart!"

"What did you say?"

Maya starts to get emotional over the statement expressed by Radit. How could he, who was hurt, now become guilty.

Just a thousand words were swallowed raw as Radit's index finger touched Maya's lips. The woman was silent for a moment.

"I'm guilty, May."

"Actually I never wanted to do my mother's wish to marry Anggi."

"When she threatened to divorce you, even she wanted to ask your parents for permission if she wanted to marry me to another woman just for getting offspring."

"You never listen to my excuses. I did it all because I didn't want you and your family to be humiliated by mama."

Without feeling the tears melt when it is felt can not be dammed. The man was crying under circumstances he never expected.

"It's very confusing to be in my position at the time, May. I can't do anything about it. In order to keep your good name and that of your parents, I made that fatal mistake."

"Really, I could never give my heart and soul to her. Because I gave it to you, May!"

The man deepened into the regret room. Everything that happened cannot happen again. Just waiting for the heart to receive it to return.

Maya just kept watching. Can't believe it if now his heart also throbbed in pain staring at the figure of a once-devoted man who was crying in front of him.

"I can't be away from you, May. Because you are everything in my life."

With his mouth shaking and making a dashed voice, Radit spoke again which made Maya also cry in deep sadness and regret.

"My heart broke into pieces when I got the news when you were pregnant."

"A glad tidings that I waited for five years and could only be grated at that time. What a cruel fate toying with my life."

Radit hit the mattress with a heart condition that was felt hurt by the story of the past. It made Maya's heart stir.

Either wrong or not. The woman had lost to an increasingly tormented state of heart seeing Radit weeping bitterly.

Not much talking. The woman slightly shifted her body. Grasping tightly clenched hands when about to hit the mattress.

And so Radit with all his sorrow and longing brought sobs into the warm embrace of the woman.

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