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21| Decision

Owee... Owee...

The sound of a baby crying was heard when I reached the doorstep of Mr. Reon's room that was open. I saw Mr. Reon was having trouble taking care of the little baby while taking care of his clothes. Looking at that scene, I was a little moved by Mr. Reon. Finally I entered after knocking on the door of his room and put the drink made by the mbok on the table.

"Need help sir?" Ask me directly.

Mr. Reon was a little surprised to see me suddenly enter his room.

"Oh... Can you please take care of Anggi for a moment? I'll take care of it first." Said mr. Reon. I immediately approached and sat next to Anggi who was deliberately put to sleep in the bed of super big Reon sir. I cradled Anggi while looking at Mr. Reon who was pacing around cleaning his things.

"Thank you Ra!! You've helped me keep Anggi for a while." Said Mr. Reon who was now sitting next to me. I just smiled wryly as I occasionally glanced at Mr. Reon who seemed to want to say something to me.

"Sir, no one wants to explain to me?" Ask me carefully. I do not want to trigger conflict in a new household for the rest of this corn.

Mr. Reon sighed with a little weight. Well maybe, he's not ready to explain this to me.

"Huh... It's time I told you my current state."

I'm speechless. So is Mr. Reon, who is preparing his heart.

"Eva... Eva died a month ago while giving birth to Anggi."

WHAT??? Is Eva dead? And the de-bay I'm carrying is Eva's son? This is real life, what is life in novels anyway? What drama!!

"Eva left Anggi to me, so that I would take care of her like a child myself. I consider Anggi his own son. Initially... I don't mind my life with Anggi. It's just the two of us and there won't be a third person in my life. But suddenly, Khodijah called and said that Abah had betrothed me to one of his daughters."

I'm dumbfounded, shocked, speechless. I don't know what words define my face now. My heart somehow like being pierced by a needle that is dull and rusty, can not get out even though I pull with all my strength. Is this an unexpected wedding???

It hurts too!!!

"I can't refuse Ra. This is the only connection between me and Abah. There's been a lot of things I've always been about from Abah. Abah only wanted one of me, which was about this marriage. And inevitably, my only choice is you. I know, my selfishness will hurt a lot of people, especially you."

Mr. Reon stopped for a moment. I looked at my face, which was also staring at him. I never cry when I have a painful problem. I am more into cold and indifferent attitude when faced with kayak gini situation. But, in the depths of my heart. I need a woman in general, who must have felt the pain and desire to face songong and his innocence Mr. Reon.

Basic lecturer songong Lo!!!

"I may not be able to accept you now Ra. Therefore, I will give you freedom. Just like you were before I became my wife." Say again.

Silent. Quite a long silence occurred between the two of us. It looks like Mr. Reon is waiting for a reaction and a decision from me.

"Huh... Didn't you sir?" Ask me to Mr. Reon who actually does not need an answer from him.

"May I ask you something?" Ask Mr. Reon. Mr. Reon nodded and allowed me to ask.

"Sir Reon what does this have to do with Eva? And... Why can't you accept me as your wife?" Ask me directly to the point. This answer from Mr. Reon will determine my next decision for my life and this marriage. Mr. Reon was silent for quite a while, maybe he wouldn't have thought that I would ask a question that might be quite difficult to answer.

"Eva... Because I can't forget it."

Deg. Sumpil, my heart immediately rang that cake. Bullshit is a person, I want to maki until he knows it feels hell at the bottom level.

"okay... I thank you for being honest with your heart at this time. Honestly, I am also not ready to accept my new status as father's wife. So, I agree with the father's proposal to live each of our lives before this marriage happens. We'll hide it until we're really ready to accept." Saying I.

Well... This is finally my final decision.

Living each other's lives.

Well, even though it's a little childish. But what the hell else? Instead of forcing each other and leading to chaos? Better to be quiet while undergoing.

After that conversation, I went back to my room and left Anggi with Mr. Reon. After all, that little baby is not my responsibility, he is Mr. Reon's responsibility. Just let Mr. Reon endure his various difficulties. Let me enjoy the oasis in the middle of this desert. Haha... Huh, my demon soul appeared!!

I was pensive on the balcony of the room, staring at the quiet streets of the complex. From there, I can see the balcony of Mr. Reon's room whose room lights are still on. Maybe he can't sleep, just like me. The difference is, maybe now he is crying mbak Eva while watching Anggi's face. Meanwhile, I'm now looking at my phone that displays someone's face and whatsapp number. Who else, if not Althof.

"Hallo's? Assalamu'alaikum Ra?"

The voice across the phone makes me want to cry out loud in the middle of the night.

"Ra?"

"Eh... Yes Al. I'm still here."

"Where are you going Ra? I called you, you didn't pick up. If Aga calls, you pick up!!"

His words sounded murmuring.

"Hehehe... Sorry are! Are you jealous of Al?"

"Huh... It's not just jealousy Ra. I'm so worried about you, I feel like I want your marriage spit, so I can watch every time."

"Ih... Possessiveness is coming up again."

"It's not possessive, honey. This is proof of my concern for you. I don't want you to do anything."

Nuhhh... Althof the dreadful king!! I want to have his mouth silent.

"Al... You know, if I like baper the same words you say?"

"What do you like about baper? What's the face of the baper?"

"iii... Al. Surely you want to do me, if my face is cold like an ice cream refrigerator in your house!!"

"Ih... Tau aja's. That's proof that we're one way, baby."

I smiled again at Althof's chatter. Well even though only a change of change that said Jeli does not sell to be sold, but the sensation is different from any guy fight. I think Althof is different from most guys.

"Rho? How silent?"

"Yes, think again. Are you not sleeping at this hour? How are you still getting a call from me?"

"Oh... I'm in the college studio again, I'm making a market."

"Well... Clock this? Is there a theme?"

"There's a lot, a lot."

"Have you eaten?" Ask me. In the past, I always added a word of affection at the end of the sentence, but now want to say it feels heavy, like there's nothing to worry about if I write that word at the end of the sentence.

"Udah. I ordered rice pecel next to campus. All of me nitip. Have you eaten? Must be a belly, the edges must be making instant noodles again right?"

Nuhhh... Althof knows that I eat. And my habit is always to make noodles at night.

"It was discovered because of a long silence. Don't eat noodles, how sick will you be?"

"Ih... Start the lecture. Who wants to make noodles? I'm going to sleep. "

"Yes already. Met sleeping my crown!!"

"Sleeping is also my king!!"

Seriate...