She's My Husband Not My Father
Dilemmas

As soon as Mery, Rama approached Ella, "Mbak Ella, I'm sorry that I dragged you into my troubles. I did it so Mery wouldn't bother me anymore."

"Yes, Ella. I'm sorry to say you're Rama's wife. What I did was like that so Mery wouldn't come here again" said Ms. Berta.

"Yes, it's okay."

Although in her heart Ella did not like what Bu Berta and Rama had done. But it's not good if it's going to be complete.

"Well, I'm sorry. I didn't write down any details needed for Ella's seven-monthly pregnancy thanksgiving. It turned out to be detailed and complicated until I only gave funds to Bu Ari, mah."

Ma'am Berta just smiled, "hehe. How come you're right home, when Mery's home?"

"I told Mas Rama, Mom," Ella interrupted the conversation.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay, Ella. What you're doing is right, so don't feel guilty like that."

Mom rubbed Ella's shoulder.

Ella just smiled, in her heart always remember Mery. I don't know why he thought something bad was going to happen to him. But I don't know what it is.

"Astaghfirullah aladzim, why do I think negatively like this? I hope what I think doesn't happen. Hopefully the woman really did not bother Mas Rama anymore. But all I know is that if someone loves the opposite sex so much, he will do everything he can to get it. Hopefully the woman did not make a determination, she could realize that Mas Rama was no longer in love with her," inner Ella.

While far away, Rangga kept thinking about Ella.

"Where is Ella now, God? though the age of her pregnancy is currently entering the age of seven months, two more months she will give birth. Did he do the USG, to find out the gender of our son?"

"My life feels lonely like this huh, God. I don't know what else to do so that I can find whereabouts, Ella. There's no way I'm going to the police station because he went to have personal problems with me. There I'll be ashamed of myself," inwardly.

Rangga always felt lonely, in the luxurious house where he lived, he only lived alone. There are only home assistants.

He also never visited Sigit in prison. He really did not consider Sigit as his son anymore, even now he has bequeathed all his wealth to Ella and her son who is still in the womb.

"Ella, to atone for all my sins to you and our child. I have transferred all the inheritance I have on behalf of you and also our future son. I didn't give Sigit a dime at all. Because of him, our household is a mess like this and I abandoned you and our future son."

Rangga said as he rubbed a picture of his bride. He spoke to himself like he was talking to Ella.

"O Allah, will You not give me any chance to correct my mistakes? so until this second I can't find Ella's whereabouts."

"Are these my sins so great, O God, that they are not forgiven at all?"

"I sincerely want to make amends for all my mistakes and really want to fix everything, but You don't give me one more chance to be with Ella again."

"If You have not given me the opportunity to be with my wife and children, why have You allowed me to live, O God?"

"It should have been at the time of the accident that You took my life so that I would not have to feel this kind of suffering and always be haunted by my guilt towards my wife and child."

With tears in her eyes, Rangga continued to curse herself in her room. The quiet one no Ella accompanied.

Often he imagines good times with Ella, at a time when he is not yet Ella's husband. And sometimes he also imagined when he had become a husband, Ella.

"I'm desperate, God. I ask that You take my life now, instead of me having to feel the constant suffering of not being able to be with my wife and my future son."

He muttered as he continued to beat his head that was feeling pain beyond measure.

After knowing the truth that Ella was not cheating at all, Rangga's life has been filled with regret ever since. A deep sense of guilt even every day, his life did not feel at ease.

At this moment he felt a crushing melt, every time he groaned, every time he got angry, every time he cried. But all of this did not change his situation. Still his life alone, still not managed to find an existence, Ella.

His body condition is not what it used to be. Gradually Rangga's body looks thin because it is not taken care of. Not good to eat, not good to sleep and not excited in doing all activities.

Like the word, already wanted to die but not also given death. Until Rangga felt the inner torment. Ella was not thinking of herself at all.

Not because he was no longer in love, but because he was already very hurt on charges of infidelity. Even the child in the womb, had been doubted by, Rangga.

He is not grateful to have a wife who is young and beautiful and smart and kind. But he still did not believe in Ella, just because of the incitement of Sigit.

Sigit also experienced ill-fated things while in prison. Because Nara's fellow criminal friends are one cell with her, not at all friendly with her.

BUGS

BUGS

BUGS

Some of her fellow nara's friends had beaten up Sigit. He can no longer avoid. Just because of a slight mistake, Sigit always gets hit.

"Aahhh..sick! please stop!" whine Sigit while continuing to hold his stomach which was hit by several blows.

"That's why don't you be pretentious, huh? on the outside, you were once a company leader. But in this cell, I'm in charge!"

'If you continue to refuse my orders, don't expect me to stop my punches on you."

"Even I can do it until you die! and I'll make sure no one can help you!"

One of the high-strength criminal characters glared at Sigit who continued to be in pain.

And two of his other men smiled cynically towards Sigit.

"I beg your pardon, please don't beat me again. I will obey and will not dispute all that you command me."

Sigit continued to beg one of his fellow inmates.

"Hem, look out! if you act again and argue, I will finish you off. I can engineer your death, so that no one is a suspect."

"I'm a big-time criminal, and you're just a small-time criminal. So don't challenge me anymore!'

"Remember what I said! cause I'm not gonna say anything anymore, okay!"

Sigit only nodded slowly, at this moment he still felt his entire body so painful. This happens not just for two days. But almost every day, Sigit always get hit.