
"I'm sorry Asyifa. I just feel bad for you and now I realize that I want to be more worthy of you. Then I have to try to be a better person. To make me deserve to be with you, not to tell you to back off" said Rafa, who spoke so grown up. Yesterday evening there was a lot of discourse and had made his wife upset.
"Do you believe me Ashifa?" ask Rafa.
"Ashifa did not know whether Ashifa should believe it or not. Honestly, Asyifa did not like the words of Rafa's brother last night and Ashifa was very upset with Rafa's brother. Asyifa desperately fought to defend our household. For all that Asyifa seeks is God's heaven and so Asyifa endures and receives all the treatment of Rafa. But when Asyifa felt getting everything she wanted Rafa was like that how Ashifa was not upset," said Asyifa who expressed her feelings last night to Rafa.
"I understood and realized that what I said last night was outrageous. Instead of trying, I want to step back and tell you to back off, which I shouldn't have done" Rafa said.
"Then what should Rafa do?" ask Asyifa.
"I should have seen your efforts and should have been a better person. If I want to deserve to be with you," answered Rafa with a deep gaze at Asyifa and her hand caressing Ashifa's hair.
"Did Rafa realize it was a mistake?" ask Asyifa.
"Yes Asyifa I realized it was all a mistake" Rafa replied as he was.
"Then Rafa will not tell Ashifa to retreat again. Or Rafa's sister also wants to step down and our marriage will be over?" ask Asyifa.
"No Asyifa, no one is backing down and I don't want to part from you. If you keep our marriage. Then why do I have to retreat in the middle of the road" said Rafa who just realized everything.
"Like what I said Ashifa. If I fall in love with you Asyifa, I love you and eat it I realize all this" said Rafa, who may have more than once expressed his feelings.
Asyifa's face was still too leaven to hear Rafa's words which Asyifa was still afraid of words that could become changed again later.
"Why are you silent Asyifa. Don't you believe what I'm saying. If I fall in love with you" said Rafa.
"Well Rafa if Rafa's brother has realized the words of Rafa who yesterday was wrong. Then don't say it again" said Asyifa. Rafa nodded with a smile.
Rafa grabbed Asyifa's hand and placed it on her chest, "I've already said if I fall for you. Your chest shakes when I'm close to you. The fear of loss colored my feelings and the other problems I had in my mind about you Asyifa. Then what about how you feel about me" said Rafa who demanded Asyifa's feelings for him.
Asyifa was silent who did not directly answer anything.
"Have you loved me Ashifa?" ask Rafa who needs certainty.
"Asyifa doesn't know Rafa's brother. Asyifa could not answer," said Ashifa who is what is not yet able to determine her heart whether she has loved her husband.
"So you don't love me yet?" ask Rafa.
"Asyifa doesn't know if she loves Rafa yet" replied Asyifa
"Alright Asyifa I understand. I'll wait until when you'll love me" Rafa said.
"Are Rafa disappointed by Asyifa's reply?" ask Asyifa.
Rafa smiled, "disappointed when we said love. But there is no answer. But disappointment is normal. Because those feelings are only yours and you deserve to accept my feelings or not" Rafa replied wisely which made Ashifa smile.
Rafa and Asyifa were silent for a moment and stared at each other with Asyifa. Rafa brought his face closer to Ashifa with Rafa kissing Asyifa's lips. But not so Ashifa held Rafa's chest makes Rafa stop the action and look at the wife seriously.
"This is not the open nature of Asyifa. Even if it looks open. But it's not common and nobody will see" said Rafa, who knows why she held him back when he wanted to kiss her.
"It's not a problem where Rafa is" said Asyifa slowly.
"Then what's the problem?" rafa asked by raising 1 eyebrow at Ashifa.
"Sorry Rafa, Ashifa suddenly felt dislike for the smell of Rafa's body. Didn't Rafa take a shower yet" said Asyifa speaking softly who feared Rafa was offended. Rafa hears her startled and reflexively kisses her arm to see if she smells anything.
"Ashifa didn't say that. It's just that Asyifa did not like and since it was actually honest Asyifa held it," said Ashifa slowly that made Rafa sighs of honesty his wife was actually a little embarrassing anyway.
"So you don't like the smell of my body?" rafa asked to be sure again and Asyifa nodded her head.
"Hmmm, that's why not say that you didn't faint, '" muttered Rafa slowly rising up from Asyifa's body and scratching his non-itchy head.
"So Rafa did not get angry with the words of Ashifa?" ask Ashifa nervously.
"No Asyifa I'm not angry," answered Rafa who was sitting next to Ashifa, "Hmmmm, what if now I take a shower first," said Rafa who was self-conscious about what to do.
"By," said Asyifa.
"Yes, you've been waiting here. I want to take a shower first" said Rafa. Asyifa nodded her head and Rafa with her sigh who immediately left the place and Asyifa also sighed at the departure of her husband.
"Sir Rafa may not enter into the heart of Ashifa's words. Keep it true. Asyifa felt very nauseous near Rafa's sister," said Asyifa by rubbing her stomach that felt nauseous close to her husband and that Asyifa only held back when she and Rafa were close together.
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On the other hand Rafa who has finished bathing stands in front of the mirror wearing a white bathrobe. Rafa sprays perfume on his body that may be almost finished one bottle with Rafa who goes back and forth to smell his body does not smell anymore. Do not let the words of Ashifa that seem soft but painful when heard. So it's better Rafa makes himself as fragrant as possible so that the wife feels comfortable with him.
"I think that's enough," muttered Rafa who felt perfect and went straight out of the room with his 45 spirit.
Rafa returns to the park which looks like from his characteristics Rafa wants to do something to his wife who Rafa willingly takes a bath again just for the action. But nil when Rafa reached the place where his wife who was really alone Asyifa instead fell asleep with sinless relaxation makes Rafa who was ruffled waist in front of the bed sigh he sighed to see his wife who was right.
"Ashifa don't you know Asyifa. If it's cold tonight and you're sleeping and not waiting for me. I've taken Asyifa's bath" muttered Rafa who was irritated with his wife who carelessly slept without waiting for him first.
Rafa could only sigh to see his wife and there was no hope for them to make out. Rafa had to resign and immediately lay down himself beside Asyifa.
"Ashypha!" said Rafa slowly trying for the last time who knows there is hope if Asyifa will wake up. Even though hope is far from reality.
"Ashypha!" said Rafa who reawakened Asyifa. But at all Asyifa did not wake up and made Rafa could only sigh
"Maybe it's fate. So how else," said Rafa who could not say anything and immediately took Asyifa into his arms. Gently kiss Asyifa's forehead.
"You rest, I promise to keep improving. So that I can be better with you" said Rafa with what is who wants to try more for his wife. Instead of having to tell the wife to step down or other things.
Rafa kissed the lips of Asyifa who had been missed just quickly. The plan is to just kiss. But Rafa did not even kiss deeply that traced the mouth of Asyifa which seems like Rafa misses Asyifa very much and maybe Rafa will launch the action even though Asyifa is asleep.
"Hmmmm, brother Rafa!" Asyifa pushed Rafa who did not want to be touched where the rejection from Asyifa with her eyes still closed and did not want anyone to touch.
Rafa smiled his smile at Ashifa's sleeping face but was so upset. Just because he kissed her.
"Sorry Asyifa already pissed you off. Rest I won't bother you" said Rafa softly and hugged Ashifa tightly.
"Don't hug Ashifa" said Ashifa who again protested in her sleep and Ashifa turned her back to Rafa who was really keeping a distance with Rafa who did not want to be close to Rafa.
"Nih son why the hell, the feeling has apologized to each other why he did not want to get close. What's wrong anyway" Rafa grumbled.
Asyifa, in the hug does not want, in the kiss does not want, close to his wife in the say smell, smell, wah Rafa can be frustrated if his wife behaves unnaturally like that and Rafa can't do anything but resign because he also can't possibly make Ashifa uncomfortable.
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