Softness
Contrition

The figure named Puput still stopped in Arumi's body. The sobs broke again when he remembered the time before he died. Where the time is very far to Allah does not want to pray or fast in the month of Ramadan, and one more thing that makes Puput want to come back to life is to apologize to his mother and grandmother who he always snapped and did not want to hear his advice.

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Long ago...Puput is known as a good and obedient child. Every day we always worship and learn. Not bored of his bored learning puput, ever one when Puput saw his two parents had a great fight in his parents' room. Coincidentally his door was open, so suddenly Puput who was still sitting in elementary school saw things that he had never seen in a lifetime. How can a child see his or her parents fighting in a loud voice and playing hands.

The slump that was still standing right in front of the old man's room, immediately cried. A child must see things that are not to be shown.

Her parents who were in the room were not aware that her child was standing in front of the door, it made the child psychically disturbed.

And at the height of this quarrel, her mother was slapped by her biological father or husband. Falling down below with a helpless gaze accompanied by a roaring cry. Puput who stood outside the room could not move because his body was hugged by someone from behind. He looked back and it turns out that the one who hugged him was his grandmother's parents from my mother.

My body was pulled by my grandmother away from my parents' room. I want to rebel, I want to scream but whatever the power, my grandmother whispered to myself "don't look at what hurt your heart son, son, and grandma said still respect your parents, even though the reality is not as beautiful as your expectations. Keep behaving politely in front of your parents "

Grandmother's words made my body tremble powerless to withstand the tightness in the chest, my loved ones, loved , respected must taste the bitterness of his life. My current taste can be felt by grandma, grandma quietly cried while tightly hugging my body.

In my inner "why should my mother be the one experiencing her and why my father hates my mother so much "

Inwardly continue to say the same sentence, until it does not find an answer.

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The day continued to run until I entered adolescence, which is the age of adolescence during the search for identity. Who used to be a good and obedient child, now I changed myself since my parents divorced when I entered Middle School.

The affection of the parents I longed for from childhood, I never felt again. The compassion is eroded by the running of his time. My self, being in such a hollow, dark space, no one was shining a lantern. I was sitting in a room so dark, this silence was so painful to feel. It's so sad to remember the faces of my parents. I really miss your love even if it's just a speck, it means a lot to me.

I live with my grandmother in a very simple house far from fancy. My mother works out of town and needs to go home one day a week. And my father was remarried to his lover who was much younger than my mother's age.

I'm so sick of all this, I envy my friend who has a full and loving family. While I grew up with a stubborn nature, difficult to manage and like to say rude. All of this is due to hanging out with people out there, my escape just playing with them. Praying that I often leave, I don't know how long I have not prayed.

My mischief is often called by teachers, I realize that this has been wrong all this time, but.want how else has already entered into the deep hole. However, my mischief is comparable to my achievements that I have carved myself. I've been to the county-level science competition and got the third place. I'm really happy to represent my school district level, once again I'm not satisfied with this achievement. It's like my heart misses someone I miss so much. A longing that is never repressed. Sick...of course it hurts, but what can I do? this pain becomes hate. Hate my own parents, it's funny not fate I hate with his own parents.

Gradually the hatred and disappointment melted into one in my heart. Once I saw the man I called b*jinga* it (his father) with his new wife, as soon as my heart boiled to see his togetherness, this longing was no longer felt. I wanted to go and punch them in the face one by one, but they both hunted off on motorcycles.

To the point of not feeling like I've entered the city's famous vocational school. I got into this school through achievement grades. After getting into this school my delinquency became more and more, I often did not enter the class, often did not do the task on time, often skipped during class hours. I'm not alone here anymore there are four friends of mine who I often play with in the school warehouse far from the teacher's eyes.

When I skipped class, I asked four of my friends to go to the school barn with two slops of cigarettes, and a bottle of alcohol that I always carry in my bag. My mischief is because the house is not as warm as before.

Does a broken home always end this way?

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Siska hugged Arumi's mediumized body, hugging tightly as if to feel the pain in the Fade. Siska was endlessly crying.

" You are a good man, you are not evil. You just lack the affection of your parents, why you have to choose the wrong path. Why do you stay away from God? you can tell your grievances with your grandmother, surely your grandmother is devastated to hear you are gone on this earth" said Siska while releasing a hug.

" I'm so stupid, aren't I..?" smiling bitterly with tears that kept dripping.

Siska was silent for a moment, after hearing Puput's words.

" I realized that all this time I was wrong to take the road. I'm sorry, I'm lost not knowing the way "

Grandfather Djoko replied to the call "we can't help you further. We can only pray for you to find the way of light "

" Why can't!.help me, help me, my whole body hurts. I can't find the light, all the dark no one can see me, only you can see me "

" Our ears are different in nature, we can only deliver prayer. After finding the way or not, it is all from the power of God, not man. Sorry we can only give the best prayer for you "Siska gave a code to Grandpa Djoko to immediately remove the puput from Arumi's body.

Djoko's grandfather who understood the Siska code, immediately held Arumi's palm "we will give you the prayer Al Fatihah "djoko's grandfather and Siska prayed in his heart at the direction for Puput.

With the guidance of Djoko's grandfather, Arumi was aware and the figure of Puput had left and would not return to this house.

Arumi, who had just regained consciousness, felt the body crumble. Achy his whole body. It feels like running a marathon. His energy was drained away, making himself limp.

Siska saw Arumi limp, directly thrusting the fresh iced tea earlier.

Siska chose to chat with Djoko's grandfather" cake, it turns out pity also his story of Puput. No repentance has been called by the Almighty "

" Yes, that is human life. No one knows when we are called, everyone is called but in a different way. No man can live eternally in the world, and we will live eternally in the realm of God. Man is surrounded by three words, soul mate, sustenance, and death. Everything is arranged in such a way. Just one word that continues to coexist with us. Namely, death, ready not to be ready death will come with the permission of God "

Arumi and Siska nodded at Djoko's grandfather's explanation.

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Finished talking, Djoko's grandfather performed a ritual fencing of Siska's house so that negative creatures can not enter into.

Seriate...