Sugar Daddy Savings
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He managed to tear apart a heart that did not know what to feel. I wear a white hoodie to get out of the house. It felt as if the air tightness that went into the chest after Rama said that.

I cleared my mind by walking leisurely down the road that was passed every day. Long brown hair on the shoulders I let it unravel. Continued to walk without direction, until I realized I had been in front of a cafe.

I went in and chose to sit in the corner of the cafe near the walls decorated with cups containing coffee. Behind the glass wall there is a view that makes my eyeballs do not stop staring in amazement.

Thousands of stars painted in space, studded with night light that spoils the eye. A coffee order was in front of me. I remember my dad when he was with me learning to ride a bike. Not tired he chased and sometimes helped my body hit by a small red bicycle. Bloody knees, scratched hands in the street.

Ah, everything is beautiful when viewed from a happy perspective. If I could, I wouldn't want to be an adult. Being an adult is difficult and complicated. Want to be a toddler who only knows to play and cry.

I opened a small square box that was always tucked inside a bag of pants or a bag. Photo of a little girl with her hair tied in one middle is in a thick mustachioed boy sling with mature brown skin.

My mother said it was me when I was seven months old. Dad loves me so much. When I was born, my father ran to the door of all the neighbors to tell me that he had a daughter he had wanted to have when his mother was pregnant.

All that was lost fifteen years ago, everything changed when my father was pronounced dead in an accident that occurred at a red light intersection near the house. I'm still waiting for the bus to see it happen right in plain sight. In fact, my father died in my lap.

I shouted for help, but everyone was just busy taking pictures. Until finally Om Togar passed by and took my father directly to the hospital. However, when he got there, his life was no longer helped. The mother who came along with Bu Yuni cried hysterically.

I was just stunned, shocked to remember what happened. My uniform and body are full of my blood. I walked like an undead to the body of my father who was still in the IGD room. Then sat weakly helpless, slowly clear circles escaped one by one wetting the cheeks.

Screaming calling dad, screaming out loud. Sometimes it's self-abusing that doesn't have the power to manage people who can help because we're poor.

My phone rang, Abimana the name on the screen. He called many times, but I ignored him. “Hai,” the greeting that has been standing in front of me with a mobile phone in his hand. I looked up to see him indifferent.

Unasked, he shifted his chair and sat in front of me. I kept my chin looking the other way. Right now I don't want to be with anyone and do anything.

“I know you will definitely not answer my phone. That's why I just sat down.”

“Hem. Whatever. I'm not excited about anything. If you want to stay, please. Bye.” I stood up and was about to leave after laying down a fifty thousand piece of money. Abhimana pulled my wrist.

“Shinta, if there is a problem tell me. Shinta, no matter how you behave to me, I will always be there for you under any circumstances.” I threw away his rough hands and passed away.

I see Azan Subuh sayup-sayup sounding, I rubbed my eyes slowly. I heard water from the bathroom. I looked at the door, mother walking from the narrow hallway of our house.

Her face that was wet with water wudu made my heart slightly disturbed. I have long since left the prayer and have always done prostitution with Om Yip. Mother looked at me intensely, a smile painted there.

“You are in prayer?”

At seven o'clock in the morning I went to the bus stop. Even though the money given by Om Yip is enough to buy a new motorcycle and cash. However, I still don't want to show it so clearly.

“Eh, Shinta. Early in the morning was beautiful. Uh, you know Abimana's asking you continue to be the same Mom. Why not just accept it? Here, yeah. If Mom were you, I would. Udah handsome, tanned skin mature. Uh, it's macho. Moreover ...” Deheman of Om Togar made Bu Yuni speechless and swept a glance towards her husband who was standing at the door.

I chuckle at seeing them both. Bu Yuni directly approached Om Togar and poked his field chest flirtatiously. I say goodbye to both of them.

Sitting at the bus stop with a cell phone in hand. Rama came up to me, as usual with a shirt and holding a bag on the left side. I who was lazy immediately stood up and turned my face.

“Shinta, are you still angry with my words yesterday? That's all there's a reason, Shinta.”

“You from yesterday said there was a reason, but what?”

He looked straight ahead, but ignored my gaze fixed on him. “Come, the bus is up.”

Entering the bus, greeted with a karo song that is indeed familiar to our ears.

Oh the koro nut, ari turang turang

Oh the koro nut.

Oh the koro bean ari turang turang, oh the koro nut

As soon as the lyrics sounded, it was quite comforting my day filled with various questions about this man beside me. Why is he so neatly storing up so many puzzles.

I smiled when my phone suddenly rang. His name and picture were plastered on the flat screen in my grasp. For some reason, he said he would always be there for me under any circumstances.

I swept the green button and raised it, at a glance I glanced towards Rama. Speaking a little whispered and stayed away for a while from this mysterious man.

“Shinta, I saw you on the bus next to a man. Honestly, I'm jealous!” I turned to look for the whereabouts of Abimana, my “ at the red light intersection in front of you,” he continued waving as the bus passed nearby.

The police uniform complete with a hat added a dashing and handsome impression to him. However, I'm not in touch with anyone. Just Om Yip, yeah just him at the moment. The bus arrived at a stop near the temple.

I walked along with Rama who had been silent since. I tried to stop the steps and stay in place, but he kept going. Ignore this self that dwells in the same place.

Today I realized he was angry. However, his anger was not fading but seemed to slowly start giving up.