Syakir And Syakira
heart desire

Syakira POV.

I can't refuse your wishes, Dad. Because I know that your wish is an order I must follow.

If it wasn't for you embracing me when I was slumped by the accident, maybe I wouldn't be able to stand up like I am today.

Shakirs..

The handsome young man I just met had already managed to intrude my heart since the first time I saw him. I'm so cool to her because I'm afraid that this body will react out of control if I come into contact with her a little bit.

But tdak. This skinny hand had already touched her when we first met in the campus corridor.

By then, his heart was captivated to him. It's just.. This self is conscious. That a despicable girl like me is unfit to be his companion.

I'm dirty.

I don't deserve him. The young man from when I was twelve years old, I liked him. But that desire runs aground when it realizes that this self does not deserve it.

This desire of heart and wish is too high for me to achieve. I couldn't possibly have it because I was sober.

I am not worthy and worthy of being with him. But how do I say this to my father?

While you're so eager to match and marry us both? Should I refuse and see you disappointed?

Or should I accept this match, but Syakir will be disappointed?

What do I have to do Robb..

I don't mean to defy your destiny. It's just that this self is very inappropriate to cope with it.

Apart from past events, and also the request of the father is very making me unable to do anything other than surrender.

What would Syakir think of later if he knew a consensus about me?? Can I face her anger?

Or will he decide our marriage first?

Really, this is very difficult for me.

One side I want to fulfill my father's wish. And one side was afraid of a fact that the end of Syakir would move away and leave me.

Haven't yet. Ever since our first meeting, I've been saying no-no. It'll add to my minus value to him.

What am I supposed to do?

I should what?

Will you accept my rejection?

Will you not be disappointed?

And also Uwakku is very eager to enjoy me with Syakir.

What am I supposed to do?

Huff..

Okay. I've already decided. That I will accept Syakir to be my husband. But before that, I have to speak honestly to him.

It is better to obey the wishes of the father than I am to be an ungodly child. Only Dad I have.

Hopefully Syakir can understand about this.

Bismillahs..

"Dad?"

"Hem? Are you willing to obey my father's request? Remember son. You will never regret it if you choose Syakir as your life partner" she replied, which made me smile at her.

How could I possibly refuse, while he was very sure that Syakir could be a priest to me of the world and the hereafter.

These lips are interested in forming a gentle smile, "Yes, I'm willing to father. But.." I hung up my words that made my father's smile dim for a moment.

Ah, I wouldn't think about it. Better to obey father's wishes first. Accept no silence is up to Mother Zizi and Syakir later.

Importantly, I must say this heart desire. "But.. I have to be honest with Zizi and Syakir's mother about my past. I don't want them to be mad at me for lying. Can it be Dad?"

I smiled so sweetly. "Of course baby. Now call your Mother and also the prospective husband you wanted first." her god made this cheek instantly blush.

"well, dad. Just a minute." I immediately got up and came out of the room to look for the three of them but I first called Uwak and asked them where.